kyrdwg01

So, I am almost 2 1/2 months out from surgery. I got sick so lost a ton and then stopped...I have even gained 5 lbs back. I have such good intentions and I still can't get it right. I can eat anything and do. know that I have to get the mental stuff on track. Workouts have been difficult due to an injury but maybe I am just making an excuse! I don't expect anyone to read this but I guess just taking the time to write it out will help...plus it means that I am not eating:-) I need a good hobby. Something to keep me busy, something to take my mind of things. I have even thought about getting rid of my tv so I don't have that trigger. Night time and tv are the biggest along with all that emotional stuff.:huh2: I feel pretty hopeless. I want to do right for myself. I want food to just be food and not a crutch. I want to force myself to eat and forget to eat:-) Those things that thin people do. My boyfriend can just forget to eat for a whole day. How do people do that? My frustration is very high and I have thought of all sorts of things to try to get over it. Well....all I can do is try. And every day that I wake up is a challenge to be successful. I just don't know how to do it!

So, I am almost 2 1/2 months out from surgery. I got sick so lost a ton and then stopped...I have even gained 5 lbs back. I have such good intentions and I still can't get it right. I can eat anything and do. know that I have to get the mental stuff on track. Workouts have been difficult due to an injury but maybe I am just making an excuse! I don't expect anyone to read this but I guess just taking the time to write it out will help...plus it means that I am not eating:-) I need a good hobby. Something to keep me busy, something to take my mind of things. I have even thought about getting rid of my tv so I don't have that trigger. Night time and tv are the biggest along with all that emotional stuff.:wink: I feel pretty hopeless. I want to do right for myself. I want food to just be food and not a crutch. I want to force myself to eat and forget to eat:-) Those things that thin people do. My boyfriend can just forget to eat for a whole day. How do people do that? My frustration is very high and I have thought of all sorts of things to try to get over it. Well....all I can do is try. And every day that I wake up is a challenge to be successful. I just don't know how to do it!