laughnleo

I have always been heavy. Well, at least since I started school, anyway. However, I have always been active. In school I played volleyball, softball, kickball, sang/danced in music groups. I was always the "chubby one". Once I graduated high school and traded in the retail jobs for sit-down jobs at financial institutions, the pounds just piled on. I am told that I don't look my weight and have had a lot of doctor's say (ever since childhood) that I have more muscle mass than I should. (Thanks to my dad. He had me doing his military workout with him starting at age 2!) However, I am now to the point where I am isolating myself. I don't enjoy large crowds anymore and decline invitations to outings because I am embarassed about my appearance. My fiance keeps telling me that I have no one to impress but him, but I still take pride in the way that I look. It may not seem that way because of my weight, but I do. I am just tired of being told what a beautiful face I have, that I could be a model...from the neck up, and what a knock-out I would be if I lost some weight. I have tried everything from Atkins to Weight Watchers. All work...for a while. And then I hit the plateau and get so tired of being hungry all of the time that I fall off of the wagon! It is a never ending cycle that quite frankly, I have had more than enough of. I am hoping that Lap Band will be the tool that I need, along with diet and excercise, to finally take all of the weight off and keep it off.