Today marks one week banded. The comfort I received from food is gone. I know "find something else that comforts you"... Frankly, if I could do that, I would have done that before! Being aware of this and simultaneously being disgusted with myself I made the "Lap decision".
Now, its like pure depression. I feel lathargic, malnutritioned, and like a head case.
Of course, I feel lighter... havent weighed... really dont wanna be upset if the number isnt consistent with the level of discomfort ive put myself through.
I get these waves of indigestion-type pain every so often.. but often. I cant burp like I used to, terrible loooooong gassy farts - I actually crapped on myself - all broth.
Im nervous that im gonna have to vomit, or mess something up inside by coughing, stretching or pushing. Can I take pills? Vitamins? THe Heartburn! The Hunger pains (pangs wtfever)...
I miss my buddy, food. I know that no food tastes, as good as skinny feels, but it has always been there for me.
I really hope that once this weight comes off, this new life doesnt dissapoint again. Something had to happen to make me turn to food. What will I turn to next?
