CityLights

I can not tell you how helpful all of you have been! Thank you so much for your honest replies!! Knowing that this is normal, helps. Knowing that people have overcome it really helps! I WILL get through this. I think I will stay away from the scale for awhile longer... I did want to document the journey though.. ah i dont know, COlorado... Thank you for the book recommendation, VLO! So I got my band from Top Surgeons, my surgeon doesnt have a direct nurse.. and whenever I call i get a different answer! its very confusing so this helps me tremendously. Good Luck all!

Today marks one week banded. The comfort I received from food is gone. I know "find something else that comforts you"... Frankly, if I could do that, I would have done that before! Being aware of this and simultaneously being disgusted with myself I made the "Lap decision". Now, its like pure depression. I feel lathargic, malnutritioned, and like a head case. Of course, I feel lighter... havent weighed... really dont wanna be upset if the number isnt consistent with the level of discomfort ive put myself through. I get these waves of indigestion-type pain every so often.. but often. I cant burp like I used to, terrible loooooong gassy farts - I actually crapped on myself - all broth. Im nervous that im gonna have to vomit, or mess something up inside by coughing, stretching or pushing. Can I take pills? Vitamins? THe Heartburn! The Hunger pains (pangs wtfever)... I miss my buddy, food. I know that no food tastes, as good as skinny feels, but it has always been there for me. I really hope that once this weight comes off, this new life doesnt dissapoint again. Something had to happen to make me turn to food. What will I turn to next?