lilyrosebuds

Hello,My Name is Daniella and im 36 years old with 3 BEAUTIFUL girls..I have been over weight for 13 years and its taking it toll on me,I weight 187 but im short,4'11" so it does not mesh well.  I have been years wanting to loos weight but just cant do it,I am so depressed,I dont like looking at myself for this is not me,I dont know the women in the mirror..I dont like what I see,I have been fighting this for years and now im starting to feel how weight can make you feel..I wish this on know one..people dont understand what heavy people go through,how tires we get and depressed we get..my depression leads me to food,leads me to eat and eat and then I look at myself and wonder why im like this..food is addicting and I get up all hours of the night to eat,I dont sleep ,I hate going out,I feel like everyone is looking at me.my pic ,I look small but trust me its a pic,I wear 22 jeans and they are getting to small a 4x shirt,yikes,thats scary when you read it..well I am hope to go troy,MI to get my surgery for march.where I live its 6 months to years..I have all my notes and years of diets that dont work and I gained double back.I hope This all comes together soon ,good luck everybody :).