BayougirlMrsS

So i have been going through old post and blogs reading where i was back then and some of the things i was going through. Some of which im STILL going through.... Like this one. Not so much the Botox thing (although i would if i were a rich woman) but other stuff.... Like, why am i still looking for validation in my life...? Why when people say... your pretty, your a beautiful person (inside and out), you thin, in great shape... Why do i not see that... and still seek others approval only to not believe them.... So i thought i would share this old Blog post from 2012 (which by the way, seems like a life time ago): july 2, 2012 by scale?.... I was completely caught off guard by that question. So i asked my self..... Why am i so consumed by the number on the scale (aka the devil)? i really don't know why. I got the band to stop the cycle of Heart attacks and diabetes in my family and i wanted to be able to run and play with my grand kids. I also wanted to stop having to shop at Lane Bryant.... I wanted to feel good and look good, i wanted to be pretty again... You would think being a size 6 and 143ish pounds would be good... Enough. Why is it not? My first goal was to be a size 10, got that. Then i said... well if i could only be a size 8 then i will be happy, got that.... then it was... i hate this stomach roll... boy if i could just get that taken off.... i would be happy and not need another thing, got the Tummy Tuck. Now it's my face.... What...? Yes my face, now that i lost the weight, i can see all the lines and wrinkles that the "fat" face hid.... So at dinner the other night... i brought Botox..... my husband of coarse rolled his eyes.... my son the RN went thru all the horror stories about botched Botox..... But none set in as much as my 6 year old Grandson when he said..... Nana... i think your beautiful just the way you are....(insert tears)... If a 6 year old can see it... Then why can't I?? So that's why i ask..... When is Enough... Enough?

Deleting stuff has made me look back on some old post.... this one i really loved....

@@RoseyRose .... all dr. are different and yours may not put in that much. Right now you are in whats called "band-hell" meaning... the band is there and you feel like you should have woke up and not feel hungry. You should still be on your liq. diet and yesssss you will be hungry. Fight through it.. Watch the kinds of liq you are taking in. Make sure they are not high in fat or calories... I wish i could tell you that you will come out of your first fill and not feel hungry.... but there are no guarantees... I have the 14cc band and it took till i had 5.5cc in before i felt "not hungry". Now... going on year 7 i have 10.5cc and im hardly ever hungry. in fact there are days when i forget to eat. I know that sounds strange... but it's true. So, i have to remind myself to eat Breakfast at least... lunch is up in the air. i try and eat supper at least a few bites. If i don't then i am hungry in the am. I have coffee and yogurt with granola most every am. If i do eat lunch its something small and light... Soup/baked sweet potato, guacamole, tuna salad... most of the time i eat it by itself... No bread/crackers/chips... Supper is a few bites of what ever i cook. Last night i fried them shrimp with fries..... I ate 4 small-med size shrimp but i saute mine with a litter pam/butter and ate with a half of avocado. Hang in there.... it is so worth it... the band works if you work it..

I havn't had a fill in years.... but when i did... My dr. would put a small roll pillow under my back.... this pushed the stomach up and the port was super easy to fine and access.... Never hurt at all. a fill in dr. did it once in that crunch position... and it hurt and to top it off he missed the port...