I have already had the surgery done and have been having an awful couple of days. Went and saw my pcp today and he was tough but right. He told me that I elected to have this surgery done, which is true and now I have to deal with it. But he did say something that really made me think. He asked me if I am vomiting alot or if I am able to keep food down. I am able to keep food down so he said that if I choose not have a fill in the beginning it is completely up to me. If I don't want to be restricted to a quarter of a cup I don't have to be it is my decision and I am in control of it. A person I have been talking to on here told me that she is at about a cup and a meal and sounds like she is happy with that. So I don't know if this has helped you or not, but I know it sure helped me. I have lost 6 pounds in the past week so I was happy about that!!! My depression was under control before surgery, but kicked in right out of surgery, but a couple of nights after I was home and miserable I made a middle of the night visit to the doctor and he gave me some anxiety medication which helped some. He gave me more anxiety medication and upped my anti-depressant today, but his talk helped me more than anything. I haven't been going to a counselor, but am going to start going this week. I hope I have helped you in some way. I also started losing weight before my surgery and had the same thoughts that maybe I can do this on my own, but I knew that if I did get it off I would just gain it back and then some. My doctor said in 5 years I could setting in this same seat trying to decide that same surgery only a hundred pounds heavier with probably more health problems which is probably reality for me. Good luck I will try and help you anytime you need it.