SUZANNE04

My Lapband journey has been tough but a life change as well. I wanted to get the gastric bypass at first because of the faster weight loss, my parents did not agree to that because of all the side effects it had like hair loss you need to take vitamins for life and u had a risk of ur pouch to strech if you dont take care of it like it happend to my other sister, and what I liked about lapband that you can control your pouch size. I got surgery October 07, 2008 at 11:40 a.m It was the day that my life was going to change. It was hard  going to all those pre-op meetings and support meetings but it was something worth it. The day of surgery I was nervous I didnt have my mother next to me for support she was out on a business trip to mexico. I had my dad but not the samething Im closer to my mom. It was something scarry but good at the sametime, I was crying the whole time till the nurses took me to the surgery room. I was scared of not waking up  or loosing to much blood or what if something would of gone wrong?? so many things were going in my head. After Surgery in the recovery room when I woke up I was taken to this x-ray machine were I was tide up and they made me drink some white fluid ( forgot the name) to and put something over my tummy  and they told me to take zip to see if I had any leaking it was pretty weird because I was still under so many pain medicine that I woke up saying "It hurts It hurts" but thats because when I was in the surgery room I feel asleep thinking that. So after that X-ray I woke up in my room, my sister tells me I looked yellow and dead lol I was just worried I had no make up or my hair done lol.. I stayed one night in the hospital, the nurses there were the best and so super nice. The whole night because of the IV I had to use the restroom Had to pee every 20 mins I had the nurses back and fourth all night in my room because they had to  help me get out of bed  and I had this things in my feet that helped me not get blood cloths ( like a pumping machine not sure the name) and help me to the restroom they were so nice I thank them for being the nicest people. I was starting to feel the pain of the insitions  I was asking for pain killers the whole night it was a bad feeling. So after my one day stay I got home I was on fluids for 2 weeks. I lost 20 pounds my first month. When my Doctor gave me the green light to go to the gym and when I got my first 2.5cc fill It was time for me to put my part. It was something hard because I didnt have much support at home I got more support with strangers off the internet and people I met at support meetings. My family would just say omg ur looking good your looking skinny. It was a challenge pre-op I was going to the gym like 3 times a week now i attend 5 days a week and burn up to 1000 calories a work out with cardio and strength training and i sweat like crazzyyyy and pre-op the max I would burn is 300 for the whole hour i was there I would get tired fast and I was shy at the gym of people if I was being judge and stuff, but now Omg I work out I run in the Tred-mil do the eleptical the bike the stairmaster everything and not shy at all now I think Im here for the same reason as everyone else to loos weight, get healthy and look better thats what I think about now. Now that im almost a year out Ive lost 70 pounds now its not a number I was looking for I could of done more but i feel better about myself I use to wear XXL shirts or 3x blouses now im a LARGE and droped 2 jeans sizes im pretty sure now im a size smaller but I dont want to buy anymore clothers they keep falling off me lol Now that feels great to say. Right Now my band is at 7.6 cc  I was at 8.0 cc I had good restriction but im like ill try .2 ccs even if i didnt need it and omg bad decision I made I was at 8.2 ccs ago i couldnt keep nothing down i was trowing up everything even liquids So I had to get my first unfill  which sucks because more food can go down but that does not mean I can pig out noooooooooo. going back for another fill on October 28 to go back at 8.00 they wouldnt let me get a fill after days because of the trama of the trowing up and stuff swealling had to go down. Well im still going to continue this journey my goal from today till december is to lose 30 more pounds I know I can do it but gotta stay  on track.  But a really bad habit i have is eating at night so if anyone has any advise for me please tell me help me what to do . Its hard when I see my sister eating  and the smell is just calling me but i need to stay strong please any advise?  I will continue this journey keep watching YouTube videos  and suppport meetings for support.