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There is actually so much info! I feel encouraged by many of the postings and of course before and after photos (I want to be in an after photo so badly!) On the other hand I have a lot of fears about it. I've never had surgery of any type and i don't have a great deal of pain tolerance. I'll just keep reading too and hope it helps me come to the right decision. What kind of things have you read that jump out at you or that influence you?

I actually don't have a clue if my insurance will pay. I have grouphealth and don't know what they cover yet. I guess I will soon find out. I do certainly feel blessed by my family. Can you imagine what it would be like just to deal with the day to day stuff without people who care? So glad I don't know that feeling!!

Hi BJean, I agree with you 100%. I actually think about losing the last 10 yrs of my life to obesity. Not really losing it completely of course as I have a great family who loves and supports me and a husband who loved me as a size 10 and is attracted to me in the same way now that I am a 22/24. I don't understand that myself but I appreciate it from him. i want to give myself and my family the gift of health because if I feel as horrible as I do now how am i going to feel 10 yrs from now? I can almost guarantee I'll have diabetes as I am prediabetic now, my dad has adult onset diabetes and serious heart problems. I fear the risks of the surgery too however as I have sons who need me now more than they will 10 yrs from now. So much to consider!!! Thanks for your insight. I really appreciate it. J

Thank you for your responses and encouragment. This is such a scary prospect but as you know even more frightening is the future without the weight loss. Health issues, self-esteem issues and all that goes along with it. I'm glad to have found this forum!

Hi there everybody. I've been browsing this site and find it very informative so far. I am at the beginning of my journey with the lapband. I have to attend a seminar on the 14th of Sept. I was hoping to get a consultation sooner than that. I'm anxious to see if I'm a candidate and if my insurance pays for this surgery. I'm at my wits end with my weight. I definately know how to lose it 10, 20,even 50 lbs at a time and then back on it comes because I feel like I'm above it all. I always think I'm in control and can "will" the weight off without the hard work. I do work very hard at it and give up like its all nothing. How frustrating! I will be 36 this month and weigh 285. I feel fatter everyday and I am getting more and more sedintary as each day goes by. I know I can do better than this. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which could be completely cured if only I took the weight off and kept it off. I'm infertile and unhealthy because of this problem and can't believe I won't stick with a healthy lifestyle to save my life! The biggest problem in my mind with this lapband procedure is my fear of losing the control. I already feel rebellious over not being able to eat what I want, how much and when I want. The fear of the pain and of other side effects haunts me too but i really really want to be healthy. I want to enjoy life and want my body to reflect my spirit. I am an outgoing, upbeat and jovial type of person but don't feel this way with my weight this high. I want to hide myself away and not see people who will judge me or be disappointed that I allowed myself to get like this. I know others here have had the same feelings. Those of you who have had the lapband--is it worth it and have you found the support you need to get through the toughest emotions that accompany the lapband? Thank you for letting me vent about all this here! J