Gummiebear

Called the doctors they will let me get another fill buit only after 4 weeks out so its a waiting game from here...

My port fipped over to the side so I was really scared when I got my first fill that I wouldnt get one. But they decided that after they took Xrays that since they could access it in a odd possition they would leave it alone (not do another surgery) and fill me anyway. I followed every rule to the T when I had my first fill but I have never had great restriction yet. The needle is scary looking if you dont like them so I just closed my eyes and didnt feel anything at all because they numb you. After its all over I usually have a small bruise where they put the needle in and sometimes its senstative.

I was reading through other peoples fills and sheesh mine was small for going such a long time (I think) they are so greedy with the fills LOL

Maybe this is just my self esteem speaking. I had a picture taken of myself the other day. I have lost nearly 100 pounds and weigh 170 ish depending on the weather. I feel like I need to lose at least 20 more pounds at least. I have had people tell me I am pretty which I don't know why people say that "just to be nice maybe" But I have to say No matter how much weight I lose I don't think I am going to feel happy about the way I look. I personally feel like I am ugly as all heck. My husband (who's prejudice) thinks I am crazy for thinking this way. I have always avoided taking pictures and I think I will continue to do so. In some ways I think I looked better fatter isn't that sad. At least everything didn't sag all over the place. My face looks like total crap I think it reminds me of a man trying to dress up as a woman. I also still see myself as huge and cant get over that. I am wearing some 12/14 size pants which I should be greatful for right? But I feel like am a size 20 something person. I have stopped eating food completely to lose weight, which I know is bad but I think I am eating maybe 600 calories a day or less. I dont recommend this because I havent lost anything from being this way. I know someone will recommend I talk to a doctor but I am going to see a theropist today. I just wonder if anyone else has experienced anything like this. TTYL

I still have trouble with sugar. I eat alot of Splenda. I was told I should get off the splenda because it makes me crave other sugars also. I love to drink tea and thats what I put in it. I also drink Crystal Light and thats sweet. I also have yogurt often which is kinda sweet (the lowfat kind) so I have plenty of opertunity to get sweets including apples and sugar free jelllo. I am not sure I would know what to eat if I cut all of that out lol. Its all dietary sugar though although I admit I will swipe a piece of candy from my kids here and there if they have it around (Easter Sucks) So I do still crave it. Now the question is do I crave sugar because of how much artificial sugars are in my diet? I am guessing so. Any ideas?

I havent had a fill since November. Would that make it to where I was able to eat more or did I maybe stretch my stomach out a little. I am really worried about this but am not sure which it could be. I am going to go get a fill on Monday though I just havent been able to get one because I live so far away from the doctors office. Any input would be greatly appriciated. Thx -Gummie

After four months without being able to get a fill I finally got one!!! YAY! Although I am finding it difficult to stay on a liquid diet which my doctor told me to do for 3 days. Then 3 days mushie then back to normal. I kinda went straight to the mushie diet. I still feel hungry alot I wish I didnt feel any hunger at all and sometime I know I still eat because I am bored. So its still all an up hill battle. I have not even found it in myself to start an exercise program yet and I cant join a gym because my town is so small we dont have one. It would make things easier if we did but I will have to do everything at home which I am not good at. I am thinking I should start walking my kids to school maybe that would be a start. I look at my legs and think that should be enough motivation because they look like cottage cheese town and I hate it but it isnt I guess. Anyway I am sure some others feel this way too. Just thought I would Gripe about it. Thx -Gummie

I have had a really stressful day and for the first time since I have had my band am having bad heartburn. Now I am wondering if it could be a sign that something has slipped. Is heartburn always an indicator of a problem or could all the stress of the day and just caused a problem. I have had a few worse days without heartburn, this is pretty acidic. Anyway your thoughts would be appriciated. Thank. -Gummie

Ya I am thinking that eating peanuts was not a good choice. Have not had nuts since my banding and maybe that just didnt sit well with me. I also tried BBQ sauce that day and Whe...so alot of new stuff in one day I dont think it sat well with me the heartburn lasted a few days then went away. Thanks for ur replies

I am down to 175 and I have those feelings. I feel like a fat cow and I feel like I look horrible in pictures. When I weighed 175ish before I had kids I could wear a smaller size now I am so untoned its not even funny and I have skin hanging off my stomach so I have to wear a bigger size. I still see the fat girl (which I am still over weight) but I feel like maybe I have a distorted view of how big I really think I am. I am not sure if seeing myself that way will ever go away really. Not sure if that even helps lol. -Gummie

Thx alot I feel better a bit

I got that tightening after my first fill and thought I was going to have a panic attack over it. After a while it went away and I didnt even have much restriction. Now I get it if I eat too much because the food is stacking up inside of there, have to be careful with that so you/I dont stretch out anything.

I won't accept my size because once I do I will stop doing anything about it. I accept other peoples sizes and always have but for myself I cant. I suppose thats my own battle I have to fight.

I had a combination of Bronchitis, phnemonia, and strep over Christmas. I coughed so much I was scared my band would slip. My cough was so hard at times I couldnt breath and landed me in the hospital. I didnt have anything done to my band but I got better or am getting better I should say slowly and my band still seems to be in tact. /knocks on wood. I didnt have much vomiting and no one told me to come in for a severe cough. But I know for vomiting they say to come in and get medication to stop throwing up.

I was under the impression that band fills evaporated over time but my doctors office says I only have one fill left until I am max filled then I can't get anymore fills. I had my band put in July and have totally stopped losing weight since the last month. I wonder if maybe the holidays have something to do with it but I dunno. Anyone else not lose for over a month? And if I am so full then how come I am not losing anything, I have not been that bad over the holidays and have not lost anynthing since my last fill.

Thx for the reply. I wasnt sure if evaporation was an issue or not. I been exersizing I suppose I could do more but I dont want to burn myself out. I could be on a platue too. Also I do eat mushie foods maybe thats the problem. I am going to start trying to eat more solid foods and skip the mushie stuff. Thx alot.

/Bump.. No one has been told before that they were at there Max fill or last fill? I was Really curious about this. Also was curious about band evaporation. Pls reply if you have any idea.

They told me to get a psych that was sympothetic to lap band surgery when I went so I did. I have bipolar 1 and didnt use my normal doctor cuz I didnt know where he stood on the subject but i passed. I actually have some of the symptoms you named and I still passed so I agree get a new doc and use one ur lap band office recommends. They usually know whos sympothetic.

I cant take pills without them getting stuck. Even smaller pills are an issue so I avoid taking whole pills all together I just chew everything up.

I have it but have not had any major breakouts except one. My skin just all sluffed off one day on my shoulder after being really dry for several weeks then wouldnt heal. I went to the docs and got this great cream that worked really well called Dovonex. My doc told me I have the kind where any cut I get can turn into a breakout, so I am careful not to get injured ofcourse.

I have the problem with chocolate that when I eat it I get very severe gas pains for a few hours, I am almost doubled over in pain followed by really bad diareaha. I didnt have this before my band, I had an ultra sound on my gal bladder and they say its fine. So I am not sure why I have such a severe reaction to chocolate.

I have no restriction at all on my band I can eat like a 3 course mean if I wanted and thats no lie because I have eaten just about that much at one point. I had 3 tacos and some Other stuff to go with it with No problem at all totally loaded with everything. I suffered no ill affects. I need a fill so bad but my doctor will only let me get fills up to 90 days out then I have to pay 300 bucks a piece and when his nurse gave me my last fill it was almost a rediculous size I mean like a quarter of a CC. She said people dont need to be filled above 2cc on a 10cc band. and thats where I was. So now My Global is expired, I have no money, holidays are coming, and I am basicaly screwed. Typical of my life I must say of current. :cry I just wanted to pout and maybe get some encouragement not to eat myself back to my old weight since I could with no problem its like I have no band at all.

Does anyones band feel uncomfortable during certain times of the day like morning and night. I have pain in my back and it really uncomfortable. One problem I dont know if it would be my band or my spine. I cant tell. I have arthitis in some of my spine so thats why I could have back pain there too. but it feels pretty deep in the tissues but maybe thats just muscle. If it were my band wouldnt it be in my chest also?? I have heard of Arthitis hurting only during cold times. Pls lemme know need input. I hope there is no band slippage or anything. -Gummie

Its right along my spine so thats why I am confused if its my stomach or my spine... lame I cant tell I know =/

Stupid me ate a few oreos last night thinking not a big deal its been forever since I had something sweet. But now I woke up with my stomach and intestines in gut wretching pain and full of painful gases. I asure you thats the last time I try to eat something with sugar in it but sheesh I wonder why I am having such a painful responce its not like I had bypass. Going to lay on my belly and groan horribly with my Mylanta check your responces in a bit. -Gummie. :omg: