I need help, advice, anything you guys can give me to combat this. I'm was banded 3.5 weeks ago and am starting regular foods and I just don't know.
For example, I made myself soft scrambled eggs with tuna and even though I'd measured out half a cup, I still ate all of it even though I think I was starting to feel full. And the past 3 days have been horrible because I've been grazing, which I didn't do before the band. And I'm not even hungry most of the time. I'm just eating because I'm eating. But I'm not eating healthy or right. Half the time, I don't even know what to eat, which I'm pretty sure is leading to my grazing.
To top it off, my brother and his family are visiting, so there is junk food/slider foods galore and it is not helping. I mean, I had cake today. Cake! And it wouldn't have been that bad, because I did my best to have a tiny portion, but it was a sponge cake and it got stuck. For over 3 hours. I felt sick, kind of queasy, almost wishing I would throw up and my mouth was watering. It was only after walking for an hour that I felt the pressure behind my sternum decrease. It's been a couple of hours since and it still aches. I'm afraid to drink Water because if I still have food in my pouch, I don't want to stretch it.
So basically, I'm eating too much at a time, but not properly or enough. Also I'm doing my best to adhere to the no-water-for-an-hour-after-eating rule, which means with the grazing I'm hardly getting enough water. And pre-band I was drinking 1.5 L a day.
I haven't taken such bad care of my body in years! The last time I did, I gained almost 40 lbs, over the course of 8 months. (Freshman 15? I wish.)
It's just making me sad and really frustrated because I know I'm better than this and I have been better than this. But I can't seem to get anything under control and do what I need to do. I'm afraid of stretching my pouch, I'm afraid of getting a kidney infection (which I'm susceptible to) from not getting enough water, I'm afraid that my body is still in starvation mode because I'm not feeding it properly, I'm afraid that I'm going to ruin my opportunity and waste all of the money I spent on this surgery.