Gorda123

Hi my Name is Victoria,  I am a mother  of a 5 year old girl and 3 year old twin boys. I am turning 34 and i finally decided to do something for ME. I was born and raised in South America and ever since i can remember i was considered overweight. Funny since looking back now i was taller and bigger that all my friends But in no way was i FAT ( 5' 6" 175lbs) as i was lead to  believe. My real problems actually started  when my family packed up and came to the US when i was 16 years old. We moved to Miami FL and  i was to start sophomore year in HS. I was lonely , nervous and really never connected with any of my classmate and  so i looked to food. I always loved cooking and having so many choices made it easy for me to try new things. I lived in FL for about 6 years and in that time i gained 60 lbs ( 230lbs) . Then we moved to MA and again i was alone starting from scratch and i gained an additional 45lbs!!! Since then I  have gotten married and have had 3 kids. i CANNOT BLAME ANY OF MY WEIGHT GAIN ON MY pregnancies SINCE I MANAGED TO MAINTAIN AND LOOSE WHILE PREGO.So now  that i weight 277lbs and i am finished having kids i am ready to do something about all the weight i have been carrying around for over 10 years. I look at the mirror and i don't recognize myself. I don't have low self esteem but i do see the harm the weight has put on my body and i want to be around for my kids.Right now i have no energy,  by the end of the day i am in pain because of Sciatica and that limits my activities and play time with my kids. I saw my Dr in December and  he suggested i look into  Weight loss surgery. So i did. I went to 2 Info meeting and i told myself i would go through the prescreening process...but in the back of my head i truly thought my Ins would denie me since i did not think i had enough preconditions. But in Aug they approved it and so i will be having my surgery on SEpt 30th. I am very nervous. I only have my mother close to me but from afar my family is very supportive. They know that i have always felt like an outsider since no one else is obese and they cant really relate. My husband loves me no matter what but he want me around for along time .I could keep going..  but i think this explains a little what my story is. I hope i can get some support from this website and maybe help others to.Vic