MaryJane

Well I have been heavy most all my life . I did loose a lot of weight by doing Meth, but I have stopped doing drugs ! I was locked up for awhile and went from not hardly eating anything to being feed 3 times a day,and eating became one of the few things you can do while locked up . I gained 70 pounds in 7 months, so by then I was 306 ! Then i gained another 50 pounds over the next 2 years of being in prison. I was so ashamed of the way I looked that I only went out of my house for NA meetings, & appointments for 2 years. I went to see a surgeon about getting the lap band , it took about a year for me to do the things that was required in order for my insurance to pay for it ! But to my SURPRISE my Medical Assistance threw the welfare agreed to pay for the surgery! That was the beginning of my journey . I try to exercise 5 days a week in the pool for 45 minutes , then 45 minutes of just swimming .    So far I have lost about 50 pounds , & I have people telling me that I should have lost way more than that so far . I know Im not eating exactly like I should be , and I need to change that , but I hate to cook , and Im not a big Meat eater .I do have some Good Moral support . But then I also have people who dont have a clue as to how it is to be over weight and they are the ones critisizing me on how LITTLE WEIGHT I've LOST in this amount of time ! Never saying anything about my progress , just pointing out that I have not met there exspectations of me. I have always done everthing at my own pace so I dont STRESS MYSELF OUT ! But its so hard not to take what they say to HEART and then I start to feel like a failure !     I thought this Lap Band was suppose to go slower , so you can make the changes you need to make , and you are more likely to keep the weight off this way . I still have problems with eating certain food to fast and not chewing it up good enough , so then I end up getting sick . This seems to happen only with certain food though. I hope to get some Helpful feedback or any ideas that may Help .
                                                                                    MaryJane