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hi Allie lovely to hear from you. I have good news! I went to the Belfast clinic on Monday and I am sure someone must have been praying for me....the specialist nurse tried 4 times to access my port and wasn't able to, so she said that 'the professor' happened to be in the clinic for a consultation with another patient. he got into my port first time and gave me another 2 mls in my 14 ml band! there was no mention this time about scar tissue or moving port! I think that I may have been dealt with by inexperienced/incapable fill nurses. he has recorded on my records exactly where my port is and tells me I should have no more problems, the relief as i'm sure you will appreciate, is enormous. I now have good restriction and I am starting to think that things are going to get better for me from now on. have you had your next fill appointment yet? I hope your surgeon is able to get into your port so that things can get moving for you too. I know how despairing this whole thing can get, we put so much hope into this operation and any setbacks are just terrible to deal with. I know my problems with my band were starting to take over my mind completely, I hope and pray that your scar tissue does not come back and your massages work. please let me know how you are getting on. which part of Ireland did your grandfather come from? I live in Co tyrone which is in Northern Ireland. I have never been to America, like you, I hope to go someday, perhaps when I win the lottery!

Hi I was banded on 25 Aug and I had a rocky start after I had my first fill, I was given 6 mls in a 14 ml band, it was too tight and I was referred for an unfill . the unfill was unsuccessful and very painful and I was told my port had moved and I would probably need more surgery. I then lost restiction completely and was sure I had a leak I was very upset and thought I had made a terrible expensive mistake. HOWEVER, 2 days ago, my provider arranged for a Professor of medicine (no less !) to examine me, he was able to manipulate my port and gave me another fill of 2mls, I now have 8mls in a 14 ml band. I am now on track again and feel that I have a good restiction, I am looking forward to loosing weight again (I put on 3-4 lbs when I was in the depths of despair!) I wish I had perservered with the too tight fill at the start, I now know it would have eased off and I could have saved myself and my family loads of worry. I am now feeling really positive and I KNOW that this will work for me, I have not started any exercise yet (I know, shame on me!) but I am now ready to get my a** in gear and put in a better effort:thumbup:

thanks for your good wishes. I rang the hospital today and they have arranged a barirum(sp?) x ray for me tomorrow, it's possible I may a flipped port and a leak somewhere from all the proding at my attempted unfill earlier in the week. the hospital says that if this is the case I will have to go for more surgery. I was very down and upset about this when I heard but now i have decided that all this is a blip along the way and I have to get on with it! my daughter (who is a hairdresser) has just 'done' my hair and I have decided to tidy myself up, put on some make-up and some happy music and not let things get to me anymore. what is to be, is to be and there is very little I can do to change things.I am gonna put a happy smile on my face and cheer up, i'm fed up being miserable! :thumbdown:

oh Allie! I thought that I was the only one this has happened to! I had my first fill last SAturday and the nurse had an awful bother getting into my port, it was extremely painful but she did give me a fill. unfortunately, I have been overfilled and I had to schedule an emergency unfill yesterday in Dublin, not my usual clinic. the nurse tried for an hour and a half to try to find my port, she said my port had moved to the side and that it was moving everytime she tried to access it. I had such a terrible experience and came back home again without the unfill. she said I had a lot of scar tissue and that the port was very deep (I assume she meant that it was buried in a lot of fat!) she has referred me back to my usual clinic again next Monday and she is going to arrange for another more experienced nurse to deal with me. I honestly don't think I can go through the experience again. no one mentioned about re-siting my port and having another operation, that must have been dreadful for you. I don't have an answer to your query but I hope someone else comes along with some good news for you, I will be watching your replies with keen interest. hang in there!

I went to my neice's wedding Jan 09 and felt awful, the outfit I wore made me look twice as fat as I was and I felt I looked 20 years older than I was, I sat in the corner like an old woman and was too ashamed even to go to the ladies. my brother in law is having a 40th birhday party in Nov this year and even though I will still be far from my goal weight, I want to get a new outfit and get up and dance , have fun and feel better about myself. I usually go abroad each year with a few of my slim girlfriends, my next holiday is going to be so different! I am going to go for long walks and not get exhausted, I am going to wear nice clothes for dinner each evening. my long term goal is to have my daughters proud to say...there's my mum. I know my girls love me to bits and always tell me so, but I would love to have them be proud of me:thumbup:

thanks Sarah I had to go to Dublin this morning for my aspiration (unfill) I had a different nurse, she was lovely too but unfortunately after one and a half hours of trying, she couldn't get into my port! I had another really traumatic experience and I am in tears as I write this. apparently my port has turned on it's side and everytime the nurse thought she had located the centre of the port ,it moved. she also said that my port is very deep, I suppose she really means it's buried beneath a lot of fat, the majority of my fat is on my stomach. she rang through to the main hospital in Birmingham GB for advice and they were considering flying a nurse over here to Ireland to have another go, I honestly don't think I can face it! the pain during the whole procedure was horrendous! I have had 4 children without anesthetic (sp?) and I did not until now consider myself to have a low pain threshold. I now feel an absolute failure and I knew if there would be any complications , I would be the one to have them. the nurse told me that she has done many LAP-BAND® fills down through the years and she has had only 2 other patients where she could not reach the port, trust me to one of the few difficult ones! sorry to be such a misery guts today, I probably shouldn't be writing this in case it scares other people off having their first fills, but I feel I need to talk to someone, hopefully someone else understands what this feels like. :bored:

just an update, I have been in a lot of pain this past 2 days and I rang my provider today to ask for advice, the consultant nurse I spoke to tells me that I am probably overfilled and I would need an aspiration (sp?) this is the same as an unfill . unfortunately, they couldn't take me at my usual clinic in Belfast (which is an hours drive away) until next Monday, I am in too much pain to wait that long, so they say they will take me tomorrow in their Dublin Clinic which is 2 1/2 hours away, thankfully my brother has offered to take me to Dublin in the morning, I can't wait! I live in a rural part of Ireland (it's gorgeous ) and I am not used to driving through cities so I really appreciate the fact that my brother is doing this for me. it is great to have family support at times like these. I have currently 6 cc's in a 14cc band, so it will be interesting to see how much they take out. at this stage, I would dearly love to pull the b****y band outta my body right now!:biggrin:

I had to pay for my WLS myself, and the first 4 fills are included in the package, so I can't really go anywhere else for my fills. the nurse was really nice and I wouldn't want to get her into trouble, I just hope that a different nurse is on the next time I go. I am feeling very 'out of sorts' since my fill, is it just me being a bad sufferer, or is this normal? I am feeling very full and uncomfortable although I am managing to drink a Protein drink and some Water. should I persevere and hope this feeling goes away or should I arrange an unfill? Eileen

hi Karen I too have a 14cc band and had my first fill today, I had a really surreal experience! the clinic I go to was REALLY busy and the staff were running all over the place, seemingly confused and under pressure. one lady in the waiting room with me told me that the staff had flights booked for 1.00pm and were running late, my appointment was at 12.15 and this was now 12.30! there were several other ladies in front of me and I started to get worried. I was eventually seen at 1.00pm ( they must have missed their plane or else someone was winding me up!) so by then , I was rightly stressed! the nurse called me in and she was really nice but didn't know much about me or details of my band, but I thought..... ach she is very busy. she asked me what my band size was and I explained that this was my first fill, as she was lying me down on the table, she said she didn't think I needed a band, I looked well and didn't seem too overweight, I looked at her in horror, i'm 5' 5'' and 229 lbs! was she an imposter? was she really a nurse? was she wise at all? of course i'm fat! I would not have gone through all of this if I hadn't been fat! anyway.....she lay me down and told me she really enjoyed giving injections and asked did I enjoy getting them? again, what was I dealing with??? I am very nervous about needles and asked if she was going to numb the area, nope! she had me raise my feet up and started feeling for my port...couldn't find it and asked ME to tell her where it was!! well by this stage, I wasn't full of confidence. she hoked and poked about and finally found the port, OMG did it hurt! she injected the saline and I asked her how much she was putting in, about 3cc or so she said and then promptly removed the needle and stuck a plaster on. OK she said, have a drink of water so that you can feel the restriction, I drank a glass of water and felt nothing! I asked her what was I supposed to feel and she said I should have felt the band tightening, nope! she then asked if I wanted to try for more, I reluctantly said yes and we went through the whole palava again. OMG I thought, what am I doing to myself? I didn't think that this was going to be like this. anyway, I now have 6, yes! 6 cc's in and although I can drink water easliy enough, I feel as if there is a vice around my stomach! i'm dreading this blooming band tightening even more and I am not looking forward to eating food. the clinic advises fluids for 3 days and mushies for 3 days. what does everyone else think about my first fill experience? I wonder was it really the cleaner in disguise LOL:eek:

I was banded on aug25 and I am still off work, I went to see my own GP and he insists that I stay off for another 4 weeks, he says I need to stay to prepare myself and body for my new life changes. personally I feel OK to go back to work and feel quite guilty for not going back, however, I have to travel a good distance to get to my job and my job is very stressfull. I am rarely off sick and my employer (government job) will pay me for up to 6 months full pay, so I suppose I should take advantage of my doctors advice, I do think he is being over cautious though:unsure:

LOL! it's been a while since anyone stood between my legs! i'm sorry I missed it!