Evanescent_Soul

Lol rambling is good for the soul. I think this experience will definitely be one to tear you down before it builds you up confidence wise though. Because about a week after I had the surgery I already started realizing. "What the heck am I going to do?" It's hard to gain something that's invisible and you've never had to know how it feels. I've always faked confidence, gone for things people will tell me not to and been a people pleaser, but at the same time I've never thought about what I've wanted to pursue. If I could actually make my dreams come true etc. Like I've always wanted to be in a band. But "who wants an overweight lead singer?" soooo overall I just...I'm wondering so much lately about what's possible now. And I hate not knowing...so it's a break down you know...it's weird