Evanescent_Soul

Yeah the ceramics. Coolie good luck. Oh wow, Im sorry. Eh, ive been there too, I hate with teachers suck, I had a substitute for 2 weeks straight and he hated me, he kicked me out everyday, so I learned nothing, so I failed not only the class but the regents. =./ Yeah, It better get easyer lol. Oh and I was denied by my insurance company, so now I have to go and do a ton of other things through other doctors and other things and a whole fighting period. So when its all said and done, ima be like 20 and weigh 600 lbs. =./

Hey im Tonya, I saw your post, and im going through the same thing you are. Im 16 and I am in line for the band. Are you paying out of pocket or going through insurance, because with insurance usualy it takes the 6 month testing period before the surgery, which I am suposed to be doing, but I was denied the process. =./ But id love to hear how your journeys going so far. You can send me a message any time.

Eh, iono. Yup, and it was not pretty lol. Lol awesome. Yeah thas how they tend to be, all insurance companys. Yeah, ehh, I know but lately ive been so busy, with home work, my sisters projects, and being my moms moral support. xD I hope it gets easyer.

Lol its okay. =.]. Oh I see, eh, well ima still check it out. =.] So how have you been?

Yeah, and me too. Im kinda trying out the music thing, but im th worst drawer pretty uch ever lol. xD Im gonna try though. Oh, wow your insurance is takeing a while, I hope it come and gets going soon. Lol yay, im very proud. =.] i should take your positive action and start, but I seem to never have energy, xD (Bad excuse I know, and im going to get over it and do it, ehh.. some time here..) Lol.

Well, im not heather, in a lot of ways so, it doesn't bother me anymore i guess. & well as they say life is not fair, I just have tended to get a lot of things in my life thats not fair. Yeah I guess. Eh, haha, im not good at like anything, so doing something I love, comes up blank. Thats good, and oh, im sorry, maybe your on one of those platus everyones talking about on here, it said that they go away, and you lose a bit after. =.] I how you get to loseing what you want.

Oh well that sucks lol. Eh, people don't bother me anymore, especially rude ones. Your the customer, they have to be nice, or you can say, "Hrm, im pretty sure the website has a reveiw about the service here, and im not to sure im very pleased. The other customes don't look to pleased either" then they pretty much treat you like royalty. Hrm, how big do they go up to?

Yeah. & ive noticed that too, its kinda sad. =./. Yeah, and I can't really he's the one who pays for the roof over my head, I say one thing to him and im kickced out, and then my mom and him fight then eveything goes to hell. Ive seen it happen with my sister and him. & its gonna happen between him and I. Eh, I miss my sister. =./

Anyways, im not really big on words either. Yup, and =.] lol.

Btw, how are you doing so far? (I don't think Ive asked you in a while, so I thought I would check in lol. =.])

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Yeah. Im so excited. My friend was telling me about this store called Rainbow, and its suposed to be a really good store for cloths, even for plus size, so my cousin and I are going to check it out. Yeah, lol trains are not my thing, especially crowded ones. lol

Lol, I see this lol. Your like one of the main helpers on here. =.] Everyone loves you lol.

Yeah, I know he is an idiot, and I have said that but its not like he remebers in the morning.

Lol, your so asertive about this lol. Its all good, and I agree, its a family day, but still. Lol of course im not going to give up, and thanks. =.]

Okay lol.

Yeah, and thanks. =.] You're a huge help. .

Yeah, but then he trys to kick me out of the house, and him and my mom get into a huge fight. Yeah I know, but he doesn't try to do anything. Like cut down on drinking, or even say sorrry. Eh, hes just too into him self sometimes though. He pretty much acts like im not there and my mom is the only one that is. Im not going to give up, and Ive tryed talking to him so many times its not worth it anymore.

Sorry I haven't wrote back in a while.

Okay, and lol, I wish I had mine. Oh I see, mine are all in April, along with my break lol. Yeah, well I don't think im going to ride the train while im there, my cousin is set on driveing, she knows all of NYC, and I know nothing lol.

Lol awesomeness.

Oh I see lol. When you do tell me, so I can watch it.

Lol thanks, and I try, and will keep trying, its just sad when your own father has no faith in anything you set out to do you know? Eh, I just wish he actually would believe in me and not be such a jerk all of the time. Hes a drinker so, what can I expect huh? The only peoson who means anything to his is my mom. He tells me and my sister that he never wanted to have us, he just did to make my mom happy. But his son, from another relationship, is his pride and joy. Eh. Things are just tough sometimes thats all, but im not going to give up.

Lol awesome. Oh lol. Wow, thats scarry, eh, im a wimp id hide on a train, and freak until I could get off of it lol. Oh, and coolie, I dunno when my spring break is. Lol I never pay attention. xD

Oh I see lol. Yeah that must suck. Eh, ive only been on one train in my entire life and that was in chicago on the forth of july, xD it was so scarry, their were drunk people, and people fighting. xD (I was only 10) lol. Im a small town girl. Going to my docs in Manhatten on the 25th will be the first time ive ever been to nyc, even though I don't live that far away. Thats cool, their needs to be more music out there about that kinda stuff. I write about personal stuff kinda, but its more about showing who you are and being broken and steped on, and smashed in a million tiny peices and finding yourself again. xD Let me know when you get some stuff down, id love to hear some of it, well read it anyway, that is if you dont mind.

Lol. Eh, wowness.

Yeah it was google for me too. Lol Im glad I found it, and you found it, and I got to met you. =.] Your an amazeing help, your like my mentor lol. =.]

Coolie, Ive watched all of your other videos lol. "stakler!" Lol J/k but yeah they were cool, I like your tats one. Yeah I did look at those but im a little down on the whole process right now, my father has been really crashing me down and im on the verge of saying forget it and let me just die. xD Eh. (Sorry for bableing.)

Yeah lol. Haha thats awesome, I need to get around to getting one of those lol. =.] Hey this could be your motivation into self teaching your self.

Thats cool, its like all your likeings in one. Lol, yeah that happens. When I write a book if I try to be unorignal it turns out over playe but if im not really trying and it justgoes it always is weird and seems like no one would ever wanna know about it lol.

Yeah, oh I hate that. Pants vary so much by brand. I am now a 20-24, depending on the brand. I want the band so I can never know what it feels like to be a 26 ever again lol. =./ Ehh.

Lol I see, well thats atleast a form of confidence lol.

I too am glad I found this site. =.] I would probably pretty lost with out it. lol. xD

Thats awesome. Im into writeing stories as well, and some poetry, but when I write a poem it ends up being a song. =./ However my english teachers have always told me Id be an awesome book writer, but iono if I have the motivation to keep at writeing bood. Drama teacher, that sounds intersting, however they will put you with chours as well as the drama department lol.

Yeah, it does suck. Especially when I was a size 26. =./

N/p. =.]

Lol I wish I had as much confidence in myself as you do. =.]

Its so awesome haveing a friend who understands. =.]

Thats good. =.] lol. I think everyones voice is like that though. Like how some songs are perfect in range but then that have an extra high or low note like at the end or in the middle, where you voice just ca't get to. =./ Ehh, happens to me all the time. Im also self taught, along with piano semi-lessons from school. Also watching my uncle play guitar. Lessons are really expencive to its completely understandable, but you can look online for some free quick lessons. Yeah, there are always the what if questions. Im battleing them now, and im only 16 xD. Thats coolie. So your intrested in English? In what way? Im hopeing to have a Major in pshycology and a minor in music.

Lol. Wowness, do you at least enjoy singing? Ive listened to a cleared up recording of myself and I thought it was okay, but it could use some emphisis to it. I play a little bit of guitar and piano, but not enough, im still looking into some more lessons especially piano, I have a song im writting and it would be beautiful with some piano in the backround. Well at least I think lol. Eh. Ive kinda given up on my siging career dream though cause its such a long shot and im looking into Psychology.

Lol. =.]

Oh, yeah my sister did that too, now shes a size 9, along with my size 4 mother. =./ Im pretty much the only big one in my emediate family. Lol good luck. =.]

Haha, I hope it turns out like that. =.]

Lol, awesome. Thats cool, I understand what you mean, but ive got to have the courage to go on my own. I like rock music too, but im solo that way I guess, lol. A band would be cool, and different, but it can be stressful. I totaly agree. Im makeing a demo tape of myself, or going to attempt it, and see how far I get. However, ive never had much self confidence lol. So its probably not going to go to well.