yamamama

Hi,  I am booked for surgery on October 8th,  I am very nervous, scared, excited,anxious, and worried.  I am sure that this is all normal, but it is still a huge commitment that we are making.  I would love to be able to wear shorts in the summer.  I have not done that in probably 30 years.  Very sad.  I don't want my husband to be embarassed of me.  I don't think he is, but I am embarrased for him.  I don'e want people to look at me and say, your just big boned... I want to feel good, life longer, look good, and be happy with myself.  This is a huge deal for me, not only spending this kind of money on myself, but making this kind of change. I have been overweight my entire life, and am sooooooo tired of it. I really, really want this to be want I am hoping it will be...