MourningFuneral

how can I go about getting the bigger clothes? This does mean alot. its so hard to find things for me. I think all my capri pants have worn down and holey, hahahaha

well anything different. anything black,LOL... I am so goth...hahaha um... i'm up for anything as long as i am not an easter egg! heh

girl id love to buy some big clothes from you <3

i thought my doc said my band was 9cc??? is this right???

Cucumber salad 1/2 cup Mac 'n cheese 53oz water saltines crackers w/ two table spoons cream cheese with honey/red peper flakes Alaska Cod white fish w/ steamed carrots and brocoli sprouts Going to get really back into excercising again in the morning.

Today Cucumber salad 5 milti grain crackers 2 carrots steamed Cod fish fillet 69 oz of Water -did house work

Sorry I have not posted, this weekend my husband took me on a trip to lake havasu. Be back and ready for camp today! will post specs tonight<3

I had all of my Water yesterday.... but I am starting over this morning... I felt so bad last night and i kept craving sweets so i know what i did next was bad but in a way it helped me.... I went to see's candy and bought a box of candy and ate till i was so sick in bed.... now i never want to see sweets AGAIN! I mean it. i am done. it was so gross, the feeling... plus the guilt. -Christy is finally over the sweets. ew

Hello, I was banded july 24 2006 in california. I live currently in los angeles but are moving to knoxville tn in late feb early march and was wanting to meet some local bandster's and make new friends to work at it with. If your interested give me a holla back<3

I went into a torrid (alternative store for plussize) and was trying on clothing,and looked into the full mirror and came out crying. i felt so horrid at how i looked.... so horrid.... I wanted to go bury my sadness in chocolate and a ton of ice cream..... but i didnt.... i came home and had my fish and cucumber salad.. also had 2 liters of Water today.

Today although it is early i wanted to post that i am doing great, last night i had no sweets!!!!! so far today Breakfest:Whey protien shake w/ light soy milk Lunch:cucumber salad Water,water,water cucumber salad consist's of, dressing-Jalipino peper,onion,bellpeper,celontro,lime juice,garlic pulverized in a food processor until smooth. cut up tomatos and cucumber then cover and mix in dressing made. add a little sea salt and BAM done. hehehe for dinner i have planned 2 carrots steamed with a cod white fish fellet. p.s, i am going to start posting at night so i can put everything.

I will be honest, last night i had Home veggie Soup w/corn chips cheddar cheese 10 black olives This morning I had 2 bites of soup and lunch i will be having protien shake,whey protien. I am really commited to getting in alot of Water and today is my new day<3

After reading for awhile and actually really and honestly thinking about it i've come to decide to make a commitment to how many lb's I want to reach by march. For this spring bootcamp I challenge myself right now to be on a path to loose 35lbs. Now that I have said it I am off to go walking and I am going to borrow my mom in laws weights for simple lifting. So i am going to go get a ticker for the challenge<3

thank you so very much

oh and i commit!!!!!!!!!!!

oh and im gonna go buy a food scale tomorrow<3

OMG! I am going to post in here everyday<3 thank you so much it gives me a place to go<3

hey i want bootcamp! hahaha where do i sign up?

yes ive got alot of restriction, if i eat too fast or to much its painful

I eat well during the day but at night i eat little debbies, or some sort of sugar.... but i thought i new i had a problem but if i didnt eat alot of calories during the day i might be ok with eating the sugar(but im trying to quit) its like i crave it. like my head plays games. on the excercise topic i only walk about a half mile a day..... I am trying to get a personal trainer.... but it is costly.... or either a treadmill.... just something...

I fill like I am going to give up. I got the band in july 24th 2006 and all I have lost is from 413 to 392. really...i have tried cutting my calories that it seems the only way for me to even loose weight is to go back on broth like after surgery. i wanted to see if it was me so i ate extremely healthy and im sure my calorie intake was wayyyyyyyyy less then normal... what should i do... I really am feeling like a failure.

wow some people live close! yeah I am from Asheville NC but moved to los angeles a year ago to get the surgery. But i was raised in savannah ga. I really think it would be nice ya know to meet up with others and hang out and share good and bad stories! just to be around the company of others in the struggle ya know?

Ofcourse it is not going to help! It's like saying, "here child your black you need to bleach your skin to be pretty" or "hey there sinora being mexican is worse than being american, just hate yourself for having an accent" I find all of this untasteful and alarming. I have 2 daughter's and by god if they put those things on us like cattle, those label's i'm going to washington with my fat ass and telling mr. big man that if he could be an alcoholic and addicted to cocaine and be our leader then why cant someone whom has issues be themselves. hell we KNOW what we are. we are not stupid and it is not like we are not trying!:mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:

You know what made me mad this morning? I watch The View and it was a repeat show that i missed and in this show they stated the government wants to put warning labels on plus size clothing like the cigarette companies do?????????????????????????????? Where the hell do they get off by trying to hurt peoples feelings? Can you imagine all the suicide attemps? I went through and are still going through depression and this just makes me mad/sad.:girl_hug: On another note i piged out on everything for the past two days, im such an ass.... but today i woke up and thought, new year, new me... hopefully it will change seeing i ate all the candy in the house....

You too love! I hop everyone feels like there is hope out there because there is in everthing we do and every day that we are alive<3