Hello everyone! I am 34 years old and have had my band since August, 2007. I've had a few complications throughout my banding. I was having a lot of pain at first, I wasn't eating because everything made me throw up. I won't get into all the details but after switching doctors, they found that my port was infected internally. So, after surgery to remove the port and replace it, I started with some weight loss. Shortly after I became pregnant with my now 3yr old daughter. Not only have I put on weight, I've put on more weight that I ever thought humanly possibly. I used to tell my friends, if I ever get that big, shoot me. Well, I am that big now. I've been back to my surgeon for a fill. He won't fill me. He says I need to do a food log for a while and then we will reconsider. Everyday I have good intentions. I am over 400lbs and I fell like if I don't do something, I'm going to die. My Mom said it best, I was waiting for divine intervention and it never happened. She is a gastric bypass patient. I need some support. Of course I can talk to my family but I get easily irritated when they say you need to do this or you need to do that. I know what I need to do, doing it is the hard part. Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels this way!