scionmom

I have been overweight for approx. 12 years. At age 26, I weighed 124 lbs. When I delivered my son 2 years later, I weighed 200 lbs. After delivery, I did lose alot of weight. I gained some back slowly, but was never obese. in 2000, my husband divorced me, citing the fact that I had gained weight as one of the reasons. Needless to say, I ended up losing more weight and getting in shape as a form of revenge. But over time, the heartbreak of my family breaking up and only seeing my then 3-year old son every other week (we have joint custody) led me down a path of eating to fill the emptiness I felt when my son was not there. I now weigh 260 lbs. I have high blood pressure and cholesterol, and was recently diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. My weight has stopped me from doing many things. I had considered lapband in the past, but wasn't ready to make the changes needed to be successful. I triewd Jenny Craig, but the pressure of having to weigh in backfired and I ended up binge eating. I went on vacation last month and went on a planned excursion with my brother and son. I was looking forward to it. But when we arrived and I had to hike up a huge hill instead of parking in the by then full upper parking lot, I lost it. I was exhasted and near tears. I was angry at my brother, even though he wasn't to blame. I was. And I couldn't face that. When we got back to the motel where my parents were, I told my mom, "I am done! I've wasted too much time. I'm having the surgery." She said she would support me. A few days after I returned home, I saw my doctor and she got me started with the initial appointments required. Last week I saw the surgeon and she said I need to lose 19 lbs. On Tuesday I have my psych appointment. I should be having surgery in about 4 months. I'm so glad I found this website! I hope to learn from bandsters and in the future be able to give advice on my own experience