I haven't had the surgery yet. I went to an informational meeting and have my first individual meeting at the end of the month. A friend of mine had the surgery earlier this year and has had ups and downs, but mostly positives. I'm still really nervous and don't know if I'm ready to commit to surgery. To me, personally, I feel like I'd be relying on a crutch if I had it done. But I'm 55 years old and have been going up and down and up and down and up and up and up for years. Nothing else has worked.
The informational meeting made me feel a bit better, but for some reason I feel that if I have the surgery, I'm admitting defeat and that I'm a failure. Has anyone else ever felt like this? How did you get over this feeling?
Thanks for any insites you can share.