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2:00 am still stuck and sipping pineapple juice Cheri

Thank you for answering my post about depression. So sorry you have to go through this too. It is horrible. I have my good days and bad days I do take wellbutrim and t does take the edge off. I am lke you without my faith that there is a living God who loves and cares about me that I can talk to everyday I would not get out of bed. I have had my Band 2+ years and the Band helped with the weight but not the depression. The weight is not the cause of the depression but a side affect of the depression. But my husband and I agreed the depression is not something I can cure myself but the depression and the weght were too much for me. I was 251 and am now 169 a tight size 18 to a loose size 10, so that does make me feel better. I am still believeing God will not make me live the rest of my life living like this. I am waiting for healing, I know He can and I want it. So you are thinking about the Band? It Is a good thing. I might would have done the Bypass but I was self pay and could not afford it. But now I am glad I went with the Band. With the Bypass I could have lost even more weight but too many risks. I have really had no problems with the band, too tight twice but no biggie they just take some out and I do throw up but always have and no slip or problem. I have been married for 31 years to a wonderful supportive man and have a great son and a wonderful daughter-in-law and the most beautiful grandbabies Olivia 5 and Isabella 2 both blond hair and blue eye and both left handed like my son. They all are the joy I have in this world. I fear my depression will ruin their lives too. I spend a lot of time faking happiness as to not ruin their time. But it is hard sometimes. But I would never want to cause my grandbabies any unhappiness or set a bad example. The oldest one Olivia does know that grandma does get sad sometimes but that it is okay. She is more concerned about my Band, she tells everyone, people in the store, or when we are out to eat everyone, does not bother me. She thinks she can feel the band because she can feel the port really easy. (it is by bra line). She always ask me if I am going to eat something “Is that healthly grandma”. She is so funny. So you see I have a wonderful family my husband and I made, but really no relationship with my family. They are all into drugs and drinking which I do not do. My daddy died when I was 10 and my brother who also suffered from depression overdose last Christmas on prescription drugs, his and someone elses. It was a terrible death he would have never wanted people to see him like that in a coma on life support for 2 days it was terrible but he was one of the saddest people I have ever known but would not accept help. I have been throught 3 years of counseling and learned a lot of coping skills and that I have probably been depressed my whole life but was too busy being a mom to care about myself and kept it all inside. When my son married I kinda lost my identity and it opened the door for the depression to surface. I am gonna stop writing now as I have written a book, more than you wanted to know I am sure. So sorry it took me a few days to answer you but like I said I have my good days and bad days. Cheri

I know this is a LapBand board but I have one so I count. I am seeking someone else who has clinical depression to be able to talk to and check on and help each other throught this. Really not someone who is depressed because of the weight or slow weight loss. But real depression that last for years that you are struggling through. Not that one type of depression is worst than another. I am on meds and done my fair share of counseling (3 years). I can find joy in my immediate family I have some support. But depression scares people away. I have lost 84 lbs but it did not fix my depression which I knew it would not they are 2 separate things that do sometimes overlap each other. I am Christian and believe in prayer and healing but until that happens I need more help to keep going. I perfer to talk to another Christain so we will have the same morals and beliefs. Because our belief in God's commandments, teachings and etc. Without my realtionship with God I would have been long gone If you have no time for this then thanks for thinking of me, but I am looking someone who knows what I mean and needs the same thing. I am pretty much through losing but you do not have to be I do not care what stage you are in. This last week is the first time I ever thought about wanting to really died I need a buddy willing to talk, email, texts whatever. I need someone who wants to go long term. Don't be sorry as I have been through this for many years but it is worse during the holidays. I posted this on the Christan bansters thread as that is what i am looking for. If someone see this and can not help say a prayer for the renewing of my mind. Thanks Cheri

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I never read blogs but yours sound interesting good job. Keep it up! -Cheri

Both times I went in for a small unfill. I hand my hand over my port and made them promise to only take out .02cc. My Doctors always do fills with fluro so they see what it is like before they take any out and one after they remove the small amount. If they did not agree to only take out small amount before proving to me there was a problem I would have left. Sounds dumb to some people but I am self pay and $150.00 a pop I am keeping mine. But what scares me is so many people say they never feel the same after be totally unfilled. But some do feel the same some better. The good thing about it is that you can request more than what you had when you first had the band as you are already use to it and know what to expect so I bet they give you more each time. Best wishes. Always better to be safe than to lose your band. Cheri

12:09 pm drinking (sipping) pineapple juice, still stuck walked around store for 45 minutes thought it would help but no. Just gonna keep sipping and see what happens. Cheri

Walmart online or most grocery stores by meds, never worked for me but for others it really works the taste me me throw up. Cheri

No pain and whatever is stuck is still stuck, I can tell the difference after 2+ years. Just gets on my nerves, Can take anxiety pills as I let them dissovle in my mouth or sooner or later I will start to freak out. Thanks everybody. No it sounds weird but I have been stuck close to this several times. Cheri

Will try cold stuff right now. I have been stuck almost this long several times before. That stupid Omnipaque does not give any or bend even a little like saline does so if it is stuck it is stuck. Thanks will keep ya updated. Unfill is out of question for me. But will call Dr tomorrow if still stuck. Cheri

Best thing I have every done. Right now I have been stuck about 24 hours and it is not a happy feeling but I went from 251 to 169 lbs and it was so worth it. People get confused and lump all weight loss surgery together. I know I have heard of people say people have died but was it really Lapband or Bypass? Was it because of Band or other problems they already had? Some people talk bad about WLS because they can not have it. I think we have to decided for ourselves my choice involved prayer and I felt it was right for me. I am so glad I did it I am not gonna lie and say it is just wonderful but better than any diet I have been on. Even stuck it is so worth it. The stuck phase will pass and I will be fine again. Do not live your life in fear, trusted yourself and your dr to be smart enought to make your choice. If you believe in prayer it helps too. Cheri

I am 2+ years and you can not feel the band, you can feel the port through the skin as you lose weight. Sometimes you can feel the food move through the band or if you get stuck you can feel when it does go through the band. Don't worry it is nothing strange and you will not be bothered by it. Cheri

If you find out more I am interested too. They do something like that at my church and do it for 6 months and then everyone finds out who it was and they choose again it was fun. Cheri

I wanted to reply so you do not seem alone in this. My advice to you is to see if another Dr might see you on an emergency basis and let you pay it out. Also only eat what you are suppose to even if you can eat more, just stop, measure it out. You have worked so hard I do not want you to gain it back. I know the more experience bandsters will be along soon with the good advice. But you do need to get in and have a flouro and see if everything is okay does not sound like it. Call some more doctors and see if someone will work with you. I think when you have paid so much to your Surgeon he/she should see you. Did you try talking to Dr himself or office manager. Or if you can just go there and demand to be seen. They took your money now you need their help. Cheri

Seem to be getting better at judging but it does not take much to be full. Funny though cause I have more in my band than ever and no stuck feeling ,no throwing up, not use to this but it is nice!! Cheri

After last small unfill I think I might be in the green zone. Even with more ccs in my band no more vomiting or getting stuck I can eat most anything that is not breaded or any type of bread. Now my problem how fast I get full and NO signs like before that said STOP now. Now if I have one bite too much - hour of pain. What happen to my hiccups that said STOP THIS MINUTE. Will it ever come back. Sometimes it could be ½ cup or less but every food is different but I can't find that stopping point. What happen? I have been the other way for 2+ years . . . .maybe I can now finally get the last 20 off. But the pain of one bite too many is almost more painful (stuffed feeling) than just throwing up. I feel like I had a big burger and some fries and then a fried apple pie (sorry to bring that up). Or old eating of Thanksgiving dinner stuffed and unhappy. But it almost feels like if I could just throw up a small amount it would stop the stuffed feeling but I am not doing that but I can not seem to eyeball it like before and if I measure some food it is just too much depending on food. Anyone else, advice? Maybe I should do more very small meals instead of 2½ or 3 Working out like crazy to lose this last bit. Please tell me what you know? Cheri

I can not eat pizza, no matter how slow I eat it it will get stuck. But I can now eat a lot of things that I could not eat before just not pizza. Bread and I are just not friends anymore but thats okay I probably already ate my share for a lifetime. Cheri

If you but the ready to drink Muscle Milk or Muscle Milk light you can heat in microwave lke hot chocolate. I do it all the time. Mucle Milk light 100 calories good on cold night before bed. I buy ready to drink at Sams Club by the case so much cheaper. Cheri

John, I do not think you sound like this is the lifestyle change you would like it is very different. Most of us really, really wanted it as we had tried everything and always gained it back. While you are researching, try it own your own again. You already workout so just step it up some cut back on food a little and give yourself like 6 months and see what you can change on your own. But we aren't getting any younger and you do not want to develop the things that change as we get older and are carrying around extra weight. Best wishes to you in making your choice. And if you do feel the need to get WLS it is not death sentence it is something you can get use to. But it does change the way you eat as long as you have the band. Cheri

Using a straw? That can do it! Cheri

more head hunger Cheri