mila86

I had my surgery in Feb 2009! the first few months i followed every rule and stayed away from bad food... i had lost 90 lbs n was really happy! everyone around me kept complimenting me n i felt great! (starting weight 250- lowest 158lbs. now 170) but after i would say 18 months i started to relax.. i remember exactly asking my doctor if i could have ice cream, he told me yes, fat free/ sugar free n in moderation, like a "reward" once in a while.. tht was when everything started, i started having an ice cream once in a while fat free ice cream to an almost every day regular ice cream.. then i started back on regular food, from tiny little plates to regular non lap band person plate.. well i dont want to tell my every detail.. whats going on is that I am eating a lot... and bad food choices... i met a co worker that has lost 100 lbs in 4 months.,. he has a motivation that i envy,, i feel like a loser, ashamed, n specially like i've thown the greatest opportunity to be happy n lose weight away.. someone please help me