Hi all,
I was banded in January 2009, I have lost nearly 40lbs since then. I feel wonderful and guilty. Here is my story...
The band has given me the 40lb weight loss that has eluded me for years!! I have dieted, lost, dieted, gained, you get the picture. Well, I know exactly what I needed to do, but couldn't do it. I worked out 5 times a week for 1 1/2 each day but could only lose about 20lbs.
Once I got my band I was SO excited and stuck to the program religiously (40lbs lost!). Then I got the fill to end all. It made me absolutely MISERABLE!! I couldn't get anything down and ate slider foods. I decided to get an unfill, what a relief!
I have been afraid to get another fill since I've experienced the freedom of having it unfilled. I am scared I will be tight again and constantly throwing up and running to the bad slider foods.
I've been unfilled for 2 months and LOVE the freedom of not fighting with my band (what will and won't go down, will I throw it back up, did I chew enough, etc). I haven't gained anything, in fact have lost one pound. But I want to lose more.
I do FANTASTICALLY during the day, and follow my diet to a T (Protein shakes, Water, etc) and even go to the gym religiously still (4-5X a week). It's when I get home at night my demons come out. For some reason I get ravenously hungry and have some sort of "no-no" foods almost every night; and usually after 7:00pm.
I have my fill scheduled for Friday, but I am scared to death of having stuck episodes and losing the freedom to eat how and when I want without fear. But I am looking forward to getting "back on track" with my weight loss.
Basically, have I been avoiding the fill to keep eating like I used to? Do I really need this fill to kick start my weight loss again and get back on track, or can I do this without a fill and by changing my routine to quit the bad night eating.
I'm so confused, please help! Thanks!