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Thanks Faybie and Pelorojo I appreciate your support. I am trying to make myself feel better but cant stop cryin tonight. I just feel alone this time around with my LB surgery I had so many family members and friends that stopped by daily I never felt alone and with this last surgery no one has stopped by except my parents. My sister has come a couple times to drop stuff off for me but thats it. To me this surgery was much harder and I was in the hospital for 5 days with no visitors besides my parents. I know everyone has their own life but this is a rough time for me and wish I had some more support. The only ones I have is you guys and I hate to whine so I try not to. Well I'm gonna call a doc tomorrow about the nerve blocks and Im gonna look for the Sudoko as well. As far as the Ice Cream its already gone I sent it home with my mom. Thanks alot to you two I appreciate it more than you know.

Ok so normally I'm very upbeat and happy. I have really stuck to my oh so strict diet. Now it's all changed I'm soo depressed :think I can't take it anymore. My mom just stopped by to check on me which she has been doing every night and changing my bandages from my second surgery. She has been so supportive and helped me alot. Well today I had a bad day and I'm sick of being cooped up in my house I have a one bedroom apartment and live alone. I was out of work for almost a month for the LapBand surgery (which now i know was because of my football sized tumor was making it hard to heal) and now i'm out of work for 4-8 weeks. I hate it I absolutely hate it but I feel like I have no choice Their is so much going on at my job that I'm afraid if I go back to soon and end up not feeling well They will fire me. So anyway back to today I have nerve damage in my right leg that goes from hip to knee and the sleeping on my back makes it really hard So the pain in my leg has been excrutiating. Nothing relieves it Ive tried pain meds (all kinds) icyhot, medicated pain patches, ice, heating pads NOTHING works. Ok so again back to today I am in ALOT of pain between my leg and my stomach and my huge incision from my surgery to remove my tumor and I lay in bed all day with nothing to do I'm not allowed to drive yet, Dr says I have to wait 3 weeks, and I live in the boonies. By MYSELF everyone works all day and has amillion things to do at night so I have no company and nothing to do. Ok so tonight my mom called before she came to see if I needed anything and so I asked for cigarettes ( yes after all this I went back to smoking, I know its bad but cant take a lecture right now) and then I said I want Ice cream so she gets here and says "Are you sure you want the Ice Cream, it goes against everything youve done for the past few months and youve done good and blah blah) and I start to ball I know it really wasnt over that I know I shouldnt have it so she took it home but I cried for a good hour. Im so stressed I dont know what to do. Im sick of being out of work yet know I need to wait till I'm all better before I go back to work or else I might end up losing my job in the process. I have nothing to do all day I cant drive anywhere I walk outside but not for long before I'm hurting before this I was going to the gym 4 days a week and now I cant walk for 5 min without hurting. I have bills to pay and no way of paying them because disability takes weeks to get. I know Im rambling and you prob have moved on from my post because its too long but for those if any still listening Im sorry to ramble I am just so sick of all this I just want the old me back I hate feeling so lost and depressed :think :think :think :think __________________

Justy sorry to hear your news. I know the feeling I had to have a tumor removed last saturday and it definitley is not helping the band process but i'm hoping things get better for me and your in my thoughts hopefully you'll recover quickly. Good Luck to you

I collect shot glasses from all over, and Precious Moments figurines. I used to collect Noahs Ark Stuff but lost all of my collections a few years ago and have only started it back up with the shot glasses and Precious Moments but soon hopefully I'll find some Noahs Ark stuff too

Thanks Marie well if you come across one that sounds good let us all know Id be happy to try it. I think when i go back to dr this week i will get the cookbook he has at the office i heard it has some great recipes so after i try them i will post some recipes

Hey Chrissie thanks Im so glad to be back but Im sorry your feeling so down about this whole thing Just give it some time and It will work I have kept you in my prayers and in time you will see the changes. I gained 6.5lbs after my last surgery after losing so well I was so upset about the big gain and my mom kept saying not to beat myself up about it and it will come back off and i doubted that but you know what this morning i got on the scale and I lost those 6.5lbs finally but I beat myself up about it because i felt like I tried so hard after the lapband and now I cant do anything no excercise whatsoever so now i feel like its gonna be hard for awhile but i have faith that soon enough i will be all healed and the weight will start coming off again. So keep your head up and in due time you will be losing again and remember to just let your body heal

I'm tellin you, it was such a good feeling, I also mentioned to my friend it looked like their were alot of "Big" people walkin around their too. I definitely felt good that day. Man this is makin me wanna shop I gotta stop reading this board HAHA Thanks Swanny look you got us shopaholics thinking LOL I'm trying to hold out on shopping for awhile I feel like it keeps me motivated because Im dying to shop. But I dont wanna buy clothes that wont last long so what I did is last week I went shopping with my cousin and said I wouldnt buy anything but then I ended up in The Avenue and they had a great sale on this cute cami and panty sets so I had to get it but I bought it 2 sizes too small So I felt good buying something but knew I will have to lose alot more to wear it

Lots2Luv I forgot about Torrid, H&M and Old Navy But you reminded me about the Palisades Mall, they have several plus size stores and actually they had pretty good prices. I was surprised that I went to Palisades with one of my many "skinny" friends and she got annoyed because every thing she liked was only in Plus Sizes and so many of the "trendy" stores were for us Big Girls HAHAHAHAHA what a great feeling that was.

Im not sure about Niagara Falls I'm quite a distance from their so Ive only been their sightseeing never to buy clothes but I'm sure their are If you look alot of the stores are now selling Plus Size I know like Mandee and some other stores sell Plus Size but only in certain stores not everywhere. By me they dont but about an hour away they do so you never know I always look even if its not a Plus Siza store Have fun In Niagara Falls though thats one of my favorite places Ive ever been its breathtaking

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OK so we all know now Dr Kwon and Dr Vinces have a very strict Diet. I have been eatting the same stuff all the time and I'm finally sick of the same stuff I need ideas. PLEASE HELP!! I eat chicken and grilled veggies all the time but need halp mixing things up

Swanny I'm a shopoholic My three favorites are Lane Bryant, Fashion Bug, and The Avenue they have great clothes in Plus sizes. Very stylish up to date stuff. Have fun

Thanks Em and welcome to our NY'ers thingy LOL Looks like your doing pretty good keep up the good work

Thanks jgandg I'm trying here I hope to be back on the ball soon I hope all you guys are doing well. Hopefully soon enough I'll be back on here telling you all that I'm doing good again I can't wait but for now I'm just trying to get through each day with the least amount of pain as possible. Good Luck NY'ers

Hello everyone Hope you all are doing good. I'm not so good right now I just got out of the hospital. I was having what I thought was a really bad period last week and ended up going to the Dr on friday and it turned out I had a tumor the size of a football on my right ovary. So they admitted me on Friday and did surgery to remove on Saturday and I just got home today. This was much worse than the lapband but I hope to recover quickly so I can get back to losing weight. Well hope everyone else is doing much better than I am right now TTY Soon NYer's

Hello everyone well last time I posted I was in a lot of pain I had gotten my period and the pain was excrutiating and most of you told me to go to the DR. Well I did go to the Dr on friday and ended up being admitted to the hospital and having surgery on Saturday. I had a tumor the size of a football on my ovary so they removed it and I just came home today. So thanks everyone for gettin me to go to the Doc Well hopefully soon I'll be back in the swing of things no more gym for awhile and I'm out of work again for at least a month this time. Well talk to you all soon again

yeah im gonna call doc tomorrow but my dr told me my period would prob come after i started losing weight so i didnt want to be so quick to call the dr because i figured it would be bad when i got it because its been so long since i had it i took meds around an hour and half ago and the pain has gotten alot less so i hope it doesnt come back lol but thanks for all the help i appreciate it wasnt sure if anyone else experienced this or not

justy def not pregnant lol

thanks libra i am gonna call tomorrow if it doesnt get any better

Hey everyone, I'm having a lot of pain and want to know if its Normal. Well not to be too personal but I havent had my period for almost a year and I had my surgery August 9th and yesterday morning I got my visitor...Lucky me right? Except it is soooo bad I came home from work yesterday and stayed home today. Even though I never got a regular cycle I know menstrual cramps can get bad but this is the worst pain ever and it's hurtin really bad around my port area especially tonight I'm in so much pain I could cry and I don't feel like its just pms pain Is this Normal I took my pain meds that I had left from after the surgery and it's not doing anything The worst is when I move or walk I almost feel like something is tearing inside my stomach??? Any Advice Please!!!!!!!!

Thanks Chrissie. I haven't had a fill yet my doc normally doesnt do them till about 3 months unless we arent losing any weight for 4 consecutive weeks. Well I went to the doc today and I lost 3.5lbs not as much as I wanted but they were very happy said most people are gaining when they first go on solids YEAH I guess the gym is helping. I also have more food added to my diet I can now add 3oz of salad to my lunch and dinner. I went to the gym again today and did 45 min on treadmill at a little bit faster of a speed and 15 min on bike and before I go to bed I will lift my little 3lb weights to help with my "bat wings" LOL I think it might sound more glorious to others than I feel like it is I am really stickin to that strict diet and working as hard as I can at the gym I'm a BIG girl and I have ALOT to lose so I know I need to work extra hard. I'm 26 with no kids and one of the reasons I am doing this now is so that one day if I decide I want kids I am already healthy and will be able to have a healthy baby. So that keeps me determined plus all my friends are skinny LOL they are really helpin keep me motivated and my family is all really big so they are pushin me hard because they are proud I am doing it (like I'm the guinea pig LOL) I'm the youngest in my family and the most determined to be healthy so I want to try and show them it can be done and hopefully some of them will follow in my steps Well keep your head up you'll get going on your weight loss sooner than you think everyone has a different way to jump start the loss.

Chrissie, I read your ABC post and I really hope you start feeling better about the whole process. Like I said just take advantage right now to heal and get used to the band being in you. Soon you will have more restriction sometimes I wish my restriction was more gradual But IT WILL work for you I know you can get through it just have some faith in yourself and you'll do great. I'm still going to the gym about an hour or so a day and I'm gonna go 4-5 times a week. I love how I feel after working out. I've had a couple rough times with the food thing my first was Saturday I went shopping about half hour from my house and I was gone for about 4 hours and by the end of the day I was sooo hungry but couldnt "just grab something" quick and I was by myself so I didn't want to go in a restaurant or diner alone to sit and have a healthy meal so I ended up coming home sooner than I wanted so I can cook something. Then tonight was my nieces 9th birthday and we always go out to dinner as a family and I told everyone I really didn't want to go, I've only eatten out twice and was at a diner where I know the people so it was easy to get something made specifically how I can have it...plain, not fried foods or breaded. My niece got upset and wanted me to go so of course I went and we went to a nice restaurant and at first I was having a hard time ordering because all the fish was breaded and fried or stuffed and the chicken the same, too much stuff added that I couldn't have but finally my Dad asked the manager if they could make me plain grilled chicken with soft green beans So I felt better until my whole family including the kids got up to get salad and I sat by myself, salad is one of the things I miss the most so my Mom tried to find something on the salad bar I could have and their wasnt anything no soft fruit nothing. So I decided to go outside while everyone ate their salad but then once our food came I was fine I just felt like I was the picky one of the bunch but really it was that I couldnt have that stuff, It turned out ok but decided it will be awhile before I go to a restaurant again. It's much easier to cook for myself and not bother others because of my strict diet. OK I know that was long, sorry needed to tell someone how I felt after all that LOL well it goes to show I think everyone has their moments that are tough. GOOD LUCK to everyone and keep up the good work and Chrissie I'll keep you in my thoughts. I go to the doc tomorrow to see how much I lost hope its something Wish me luck!!!

Hi tired nice to meet you so it looks like your doing great Congrats

Hey guys just checking to see how everyones doin ??? Chrissie I hope your feelin better

Chrissie give it time it will work you just havent had your fill yet and you might have had a larger band put in so therefore its not restricting your stomach. Don't give up you only have good times ahead!! Keep trying even if you mess up start over, eventually you'll get it. Hey while you can enjoy some of that food cuz I'm stuck with barely nothing LOL So have some for me : )