Chapau01

I have basically been over weight my entire life. I was one of those happy to chubby people, who new she was over weight but I still felt good about myself, and felt attractive my weight never held me back, and I never felt like I could not do what the skinny girls could. I was a cheer leader, played in sports had really great friends and a good social system. It wasn't until I was married and had my first child that I started feeling unattractive and felt that my weight was a serious problem. I gained 70 pounds while I was pregnant, and only lost 12 pounds once my daughter was born. My husband has never said anything negative about my weight, but I know that he would love for me to be healthier  After my second pregnancy I weighed in at 290 and have progressively gained weight from there. Now I am a whopping 327 pounds and I know that my weight affects my life in so many ways. I come from a family full of obese people, my mother had gastric bypass, my Aunt has had Lap band (says it's the best thing she ever did) I have an array of Aunts and Uncles that all weigh over 300 pounds. I always looked  at other overweight people like OMG how could they let themselves get so big, and thought that weight loss surgery was the easy way out. I am sorry for every negative thought I ever had because now I see how very hard it is. I have tried every diet that I can think of I have tried every exercise routine known to man, and still nothing has helped me loose weight. I will be 30 next year and I refuse to waste another year of my life as a "fat chick" I want to be healthy and happy and I want my kids to see their mother taking control of her life and showing them the proper way to live their lives. I am in the beginning steps of all of t his I haven't even been to seen the psychologist yet (I will see her Tues) but I am very excited and anxious to get this show on the road.!!!