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*For people that read this allow me to explain that when I snapped and stopped work and gym I started something else again. Eating. That unfortunately didn't slow down and I put on 15kgs (33lbs) before I realised and then it kept climbing to where it is now 106kgs (233.2lbs). Sorry missed that tid bit of info in the blog!

After reading some other users blogs, I thought I would post my own. I haven't been banded yet and have my first appointment with the surgeon 3rd August (which I can't wait for). However, I thought I would post how I'm feeling and about the little that has happened so far. Here goes... I have almost always been overweight. Even though my Mum tried really hard to get me to eat healthy and exercise. I would try hard for a bit and then burn out and the cycle would continue. After a breakup with my first serious boyfriend I weighed 90-95kgs (198-209lbs), I started going to weight watchers and lost around 25-30kgs (55-66lbs). When I reached the 75kg (165lb) mark I went a bit loopy and stopped eating much at all and exercising like a mad woman, I was having a tough time at work and troubles with hormones and I snapped. I had some time off work, time off exercise and started making myself better. I can't describe how weird it is to realise that I went from over-eating to not eating in such a short amount of time. My brain hadn't quite registered the loss and I still believed myself to be as fat as I was (maybe a couple of kgs less). What made me realise how much weight I had lost was trying on dresses for my mum's wedding. I was pulling size 16-18 dresses of the rack- I ended up purchasing a size 12 dress, which had to be TAKEN IN! That was an achievement :thumbup: I first heard about the lapband a little over 12 months ago. After hearing about it, I organised to go to a information session the local specialist holds. The information session was fantastic, there was a man there that had been banded and lost a large amount of weight. I got an folder with lots of info and left the session thinking this is the right tool for me. However, when I discussed it with my friends and fiance I had half saying 'good for you' and the other half saying 'really?!' with their eyebrows turned up suspiciously. So, after some more thought, I decided to try gym and healthy eating again and if that didn't work, (which it didn't), I'd try and organise lapband. I have tried weight watchers, healthy diet and exercise, shake diets, meal replacement diets, no carb diets, fat free diets, whatever I thought might work. Well I'm tired of what MIGHT work and ready for what I believe WILL work. I'm ready to do this for ME. I want to be as healthy as I can and live a life as long as I can. I want to have confidence in myself again. I want to feel sexy again. I want to be able to go into a store and buy items off the shelf again. I want to go to the beach again. I want to be able to exercise without feeling like the grim reaper is standing beside me grinning. I want to be able to wear lingerie (my brain stops me at the moment). I want to be able to go places and not feel like harpoons are going to be targeted at me anymore. I NEED TO DO THIS FOR ME For those that read this, hopefully you're not asleep drooling on the keyboard.

I know what you mean about not being able to wait until you get your band. I have been considering the surgery for about 1.5-2 years and finally decided to work towards being banded last month. It's like I've got ants in my pants, so excited! I'm hoping to be banded by December this year. I have to wait for the insurance, (I haven't been with them for 12 months yet).

Apart from fashionable clothes in general- being able to purchase bras and singlets with spaghetti straps. I absolutely hate having to try and hide those huge ugly straps. :sad: Beach wear- and in fact feeling good about going to the beach. I love swimming! Pants that aren't elasticised-YEAH! Being able to wear sexy things for my fiance and not feel like a whale. Not feeling like a whale in general would be nice actually. Not having people look at you with that look- you know what i'm talking about people. People who haven't had to try and lose a substantial amount of weight just don't understand dammit. Feeling like i'm living the most healthy and long life i can. :mad2: