twinserely

My name is Becky I am 30 years old. I live in Tennessee been married to my wonderful husband for 12 years. I have three boys. 10,10(identical twins), and 7. I have been overweight for as long as I can remember. My highest weight was at 298 and no that isn't when I was pregnant. I have done alot of diets and have succeeded on a few but it never lasted. I have had pills prescribed by my doctor and lost about 50 pounds and then did weight watchers and lost about 10 more pounds was down to 238 at my lowest in along time. Well things came up that messed it up and of course gained alot of it back. I quit smoking last August 09' that helped me pack on some pounds gave up one addiction just to start eating more, then my father passed away of a massive heart attack unexpectedly in December I am definetly an emotion eater so food was unfortunatly where I went to deal with my depression. I was very close to my father and that was the worse day of my life. I still have my days where it is very hard but I am coping. I have quit smoking again. His birthday was February 2nd and the day I had my last cig. I started my lapband journey in July of 2009 I went to the seminar. That is when I found out that I had to do the 6 month diet. So I did my 6 month diet which ended December 18th.  I think I lost weight one time out of the 6 months and gained it right back because of everything going on. My first appoitment was on February 4th I met Dr. Ponce and his nurses everyone in there is so nice and I really liked Dr. Ponce. Went to the psychologist/nutritionist on February 16th. Sent in insurance paperwork. Got denied on March 8th they needed 5 years worth of medical records stating I was obese for the last 5 years. Well no problem on that because like I said I have been overweight for along time. So got that sent in and was approved on March 11th. Dr. Ponce's office called and surgery was scheduled for April 8th. I have labs/ekg/upper GI on April 1st and a Preop class on April 7th. I don't have to do a pre-op diet which I am glad about in a way and worried about in a way. I am going through every emotion possible also going through "Last Supper Syndrome". I am wanting to eat everything and anything that I think I will not be able to eat again. I have 10 days left so I am going to try my hardest to cut back. I will not be able to go to support group meetings because they are either during the day when I am at work or at night when my husband is at work and I don't have a babysitter. So I am hoping this will be a great support for me besides family and friends. Hope to get to know you all and find some great band buddies. If you would like to chat just send me a private message. :)