AmyFritcher

Hi, This is my first time on here since having my surgery on July 10, 2009. I started at 397 pounds, lost 13 during the pre-op diet, lost another 7 during the post-op diet, have had one fill and am totally stuck and feeling awful. I've been feeling insanely defeated, totally useless. I have no restriction and can eat the same huge quantities I could before. What's worse, I am eating whatever the hell I want. It's like my brain is saying, "Well, you have no restriction, so may as well just eat what you want." How ridiculous is that?! I saw a psychologist before surgery as was required by my insurance, but she was AWFUL. She tried and failed to finish my sentences correctly and spent most of the meeting talking about how much she loves rice and pasta (my favorites). She also made an assumption that I didn't feel loved as a child! Insane! Now I am basically afraid to go back and see a therapist and feel lost. I wish they had meetings in the North Mpls./St. Paul area that took place on either weekends or after 7 p.m. I work too late to make it to any of the meetings in my area, so I feel like I have no way of getting support. I allowed myself to get up to almost 400 pounds! How absolutely ridiculous. And now we've invested all this money, time, and energy into this surgery, and I can't manage the willpower to just say NO, I won't eat that or drink that. My husband and I want to get pregnant in a year, but if I am not in better health, we will not do it for obvious medical reasons. I feel like I have to EARN my pregnancy, but even the thought of having a baby doesn't seem to motivate me. I just CAN'T find the willpower within me anywhere. I am 25 years old and in desperate need of someone like me...close to my age but, more importantly, close to the same weight loss goal that I have which is a hefty 200 pounds. Are you out there? I need you! Amy :thumbup:

I had my band put in on July 10 this year. It has almost been two months and one fill later, and I've actually GAINED weight! I have no restriction whatsoever. I know that it's supposed to be 3-4 fills before hitting the "green zone," but I have absolutely no restriction at all. I am so discouraged. I have been eating horribly...calories, carbs, pop, and more. I'm too scared to weigh myself because I know I will have gained some back from the 13 pounds I lost during the pre-op diet. HOW CAN I RESTORE MY MORALE WHEN I FEEL NOTHING HAS CHANGED SINCE GETTING MY BAND?

Do you happen to know if it is standard practice to only get fills once a month? It seems an awfully long time to wait especially when I can tell right away that I'm going to need more. Can fills be done every 2 weeks or sooner?

Thanks so much for the advice and support. It's so good to hear it from people who are going/have gone through the same things I am. Thank you again.