KariK

Last Monday my husband and I had the consult with the neurosurgeon. It went as I was expecting. They want to surgically drain the tumor, hoping that it wont refill with fluid. I wasn't that impressed by the doctor however. I mean he seemed nice but his nurse seemed to butt in and over talk him somewhat and that just really irked me. I just think as a 'brain surgeon' he would be a bit more confindent and exude a control/command persona. He seemed more like a meek mild type of a person. Anyways I emailed a neurosurgeon on the east coast on Friday and he actually emailed me back that very night. Im going to send the MRI's to him and get a second oppinion. I need to get a date and plane tickets purchased. I know expense wise its going to cost me thousands more but I would sell the everything down to the house we live in and the clothes on my back if it will give us better odds on having a successful outcome. I hate that my husband has this freaking tumor!!! Grrr. I try to think on the positive side, like it has helped me to appreciate all that I have with him, and it has brought us closer together in a way that probably wouldn't have been possible without experiencing the fear of 'death do us part'. If we didnt have children I honestly would not want to continue living if soemthing were to happen to him. We just feel like an extension of each other. He's like the other half of me, he's as much a part of me as my own body, as my own mind, as my own sight. He will be ok, I will do everything in my power to make sure of it.

Last Monday my husband and I had the consult with the neurosurgeon. It went as I was expecting. They want to surgically drain the tumor, hoping that it wont refill with fluid. I wasn't that impressed by the doctor however. I mean he seemed nice but his nurse seemed to butt in and over talk him somewhat and that just really irked me. I just think as a 'brain surgeon' he would be a bit more confindent and exude a control/command persona. He seemed more like a meek mild type of a person. Anyways I emailed a neurosurgeon on the east coast on Friday and he actually emailed me back that very night. Im going to send the MRI's to him and get a second oppinion. I need to get a date and plane tickets purchased. I know expense wise its going to cost me thousands more but I would sell the everything down to the house we live in and the clothes on my back if it will give us better odds on having a successful outcome. I hate that my husband has this freaking tumor!!! Grrr. I try to think on the positive side, like it has helped me to appreciate all that I have with him, and it has brought us closer together in a way that probably wouldn't have been possible without experiencing the fear of 'death do us part'. If we didnt have children I honestly would not want to continue living if soemthing were to happen to him. We just feel like an extension of each other. He's like the other half of me, he's as much a part of me as my own body, as my own mind, as my own sight. He will be ok, I will do everything in my power to make sure of it.

Do you have joint credit cards? Use them to buy household items. I don't think he can cancel them without your consent. Any body have any information on this?? Im not sure but its worth checking into. If I were you Id stop caring what he says or thinks about money etc. He only has as much power as you give him. If he has the ability to stop you from having money for necessities like toilet paper, take some of his treasures (like guns, sport eqipment, jewelry, etc.) and cash them in at a pawn shop. Then keep the receipts to show that you used the money to buy such frivelous things like toilet paper. What an Ahole!! Hang in there, keep tuff.

I usually share one of whatever im craving with my husband and my 6 year old, that way the three of us get something tasty, and none of us suffers for it.

Have you considered getting on welbutrin while you are quitting? It might take the edge off a bit for you. Good luck on your journey of being smoke free!!

Try some pumkin soup, or gravy with a bit of mashed potatoes mixed in, or sweet potatoes doctored up with some milk and extra butter to make them slip right down. Im not saying to eat a bunch of this stuff, but just a little so that you don't feel you are totally going without. Good luck on your journey.

Happy Thanksgiving everybody!! Gobble Gobble ... chew chew chew lol.

Im losing two lbs per week!! I attribute it to being back at work and running around all the time. YES!

Im losing two lbs per week!! I attribute it to being back at work and running around all the time. YES!

I've been reading and following this thread for quite awhile now and I think he is just grasping for straws trying to make you feel guilty for reaching out for emotional support. I think this thread is testement to the emotional turmoil / torture he is putting you through. He's just mad that you have such a good support system of educated and informed and caring girlfriends to talk to. Stop being ashamed of anything you do when you are just trying to do the best you can for your children and for your own emotional health and well being. Don't let him shame you for one more second. Find your inner strenth and peace and be strong in who you are and what you believe to be right and best for your kids. You will be ok, be brave, hang in there! Lean on your attorney to help you to navigate through the legal mumbo jumbo. Learn your rights and demand them to be respected.

I just simply say im eating less and exercising more. Its a boring answer that is true and noone really questions it any further. I didn't tell anyone except my DH and sister about my band, and I have a very close knit large family that do not know. My simple answer works for me, hope it might work for you too!!

Hey Beth, yep I love the SBD caramel peanut butter meal replacement bars! I haven't tried the dinners though, but Im going to have to. Dezadoo, I just do treadmil at home right now. It seems to be working ok for me. I have a 7 month old, a 6 year old, and very busy career.. so getting to a gym regularily is just not possible in my case right now. I like to do treadmil on an incline because I can really feel it working my leg/stomach/derriere muscles.. all the ones I want to work! lol

Wow Chris! You look fantastic, you don't even look overweight anymore! Good for you. You are just looking HOT! You're face is getting that chizzled look. Personally Im attracted to men at the weight you are at right now! Not that it matters because im happily married lol. But I don't like my DH to get too skinny. I don't think you need to lose another 30 lbs??? Whats your BMI? I bet another 10 lbs is all you've got to go at most, maybe due to the increased muscles from working out. I can't wait til all of us Julysters are where you're at Chris, thank you for posting your picture and staying in touch with us ladies. Congrats again.

Nice poem!

Hey Teresita Hope you get time to write whats on your mind. I always read your journal. Thanks for being an inspiration to me.

Ughh I hear a story like that Telly and im so glad noone but my sister and DH knows about my band. When ppl ask me what im doing to lose weight I just say "eating less, exercising more". Simple,quick answer and true.

I've read/heard about a lot of ppl having menstral issues while losing weight rapidly. Luckily/unluckily for me it hasn't been an issue because im not losing that fast. But from what I've heard, its due to increased hormones in your system that are released while your body is breaking down fat cells. Apparantly fat cells store energy and HORMONES lol. who knew?? Some ppl notice increased emotions (depression, crying, etc.) and some ppl notice increased cramps, heavier menstration, longer duration of bleeding etc. Im not a doctor so I don't know if this stuff is true, but its whats being said/written about on this board and others. Hope it helps. Congrats on the weight loss!!

I'm finally not in the 200's anymore! Yesssss!

This really feels like a milestone to me, 30 lbs seems huge! YES!

Congratulations Chris! Wow a hundred lbs!! Amazing. You'll have to post pictures again soon, Im sure your unrecognizable at this point. What size jeans are in now? 34? Well Ive reached another milestone, -30 lbs! Yayyy.

This really feels like a milestone to me, 30 lbs seems huge! YES!

YES! Another lb. bites the dust. I don't even feel like im trying, its just happening now. Im sure not all the lbs are going to go like this but I've gotta remember this for when it gets more difficult.

LOL Teresita you are a card!!!

Well yes green, I agree that how the marriage functions is between the two that are in it. But when I say 'cheat' I mean it in the way that says one is doing things behind the others back.

Aww Stefanee, that PS sounds like a real D*CK head! lol. I had a similar situation with me pcp, who is a skinny scrawny woman, she dashed my hopes of being a normal wieght! I broke down one day and told her how unhappy I was about being over 200 lbs and only 5'2", she told me that she would prescribe some diet pills but not to expect to ever weigh less than 170. At 5'2, that is still obese. She just had so little faith in me. And she went on to say that I am healthy other than my wieght and she really didn't even want to give me diet pills, I should just try to eat better and exercise more, or accept myself the way I am. Its crazy how doctors can have such differant perspectives. The diet pills didn't do a thing for me. Finally about 3 years later after having my second child, I decided to get the lapband after doing a lot of research on my own. I didn't even discuss it with my pcp. I flew to TX and had the doctor I chose after much investigation and research put it in for me. He asked me what my goal was (in my head I was thinking 170 was the best I could do) I told him 150, he said that he felt my bone structure was small, and that 130 was a very reasonable goal for me!! It was one of the most profound statements he could have made to me. Anyways my point is, you could go to many differant doctors and they will all have a differant oppinion in regards to weight and health. At the end of the day you've gotta just take charge for yourself and pick a doc that you feel has the best grasp on whats best for YOU.