Hi there - just read this post and you sound exactly like me - although my top half is the bigger portion on me!!
I'm seeing a consultant on Wednesday and feel like I'm in some sort of bubble with it all - like its not happening - I guess when I actually set a date thats when it will hit me.
My fears are exactly the same as yours ...what if... but I guess the other side of this is ...what if I just carry on - thats too scary to contemplate !
I'll let you know how I get on and lets see if we can support each other through this
Bubbly:smile2: