Hi Debbie ~ I feel the EXACT same way.... I am starting my liquid's today..... my surgery date is July 24 th .... and i am self pay.... same thoughs of as u in terms of the $$$$ feeling guilty and selfish.... worried that i will spend all this money and FAIL.... feeling like i am pathetic to not be able to loose this weight on my own, ( I have approx 80 lbs to loose ) .... i have done countless other " diet's " WW, Dr B., Isogenics.....
I am hoping this is just pre- jitters.... and from what i have read here most people feel the same way.... i guess my BIGGEST fear is that i will fail at this like i have everything else......