I swear I could have written that blog!!!! I'm terrifed of rejection for surgery as I am a self payer!!! First appointment with surgeon is in 2 days!!! I'm a wreck!! I'm sick of living this way, I'm NOT really living cause I'm too embarassed to be in public!!! Its good to hear I'm not alone on this!! Best wishes with whatever you choose to do!!! I AM MAKING THE CHANGE!