LittleBird

I met a guy once who openly admitted he was attracted to my body - he prefered "meat on the bones". While at the time I was flattered - thinking back its almost like "I like you because you are thin". Actually at the time I thought "OMG, there is hope for me - some guys LIKE big girls!" People will always have a preference - but I try hard to look beyond the body type into the person - I've dated both smaller guys and larger guys *talking about body type, keep your mind out of the gutter* - its the guy that matters.

I landed my dream job!!! Whoo hoo. I'll write more later.

I landed my dream job!!! Whoo hoo. I'll write more later.

Here is a thought - last time I weighed 233 I was on the way UP and I felt horrible about my body - this time I'm on the way DOWN and that SAME body feels great to me, my attitude is wonderful, I walk with more confidence, style my hair in the morning instead of putting it in a clip... It helps me understand and really SEE that its all about perspective. Same body - entirely different attitude.

Hang in there - You need to remember how much weight you HAVE lost - when was the last time pre-band you could lose that much that quickly? Sounds like you are doing wonderful. I'm excited for you that you have a walking partner.

I love your journal - your writing keep me smiling and its great to read about your progress!! Keep the "updates" coming 2X!! (soon to be 1X)

Congrats!!! You'll feel "not so hot" for a week or two - but then it should be smooth sailing....

You are going through a lot right now and will continue to. I'm sorry you aren't feeling excited about going back to school and that you've had issues with your parents - but hey - who DOESN'T?! I'm 31 and my dad still didn't "approve" of my decision to have surgery. I had to work hard to not let that influence me....

Love your title delima - I started the same way - Day 3, Day 12, and then I lost count, so I switched. My thoughts - Wait on the dress - unless its something you will wear a lot right now....

Here is a thought - last time I weighed 233 I was on the way UP and I felt horrible about my body - this time I'm on the way DOWN and that SAME body feels great to me, my attitude is wonderful, I walk with more confidence, style my hair in the morning instead of putting it in a clip... It helps me understand and really SEE that its all about perspective. Same body - entirely different attitude.

Between hubby having a sleep test, an intensive job interview and the kids back in school ( I am the mom of a new Freshman - yikes!) I have been distracted to say the least! Approaching the one month mark - feeling good, getting compliments (hey, you're really losing weight!) I gave my Drivers License to a lady at the mall (had to buy new pants - they were 14/16 not 18/20!!) and she said "Wow, you look different" Pretty amazing considering its more inches than weight at this point. I still haven't budged from the 233 mark, but I continue to FEEL slimmer in my body.

My DH just found out that his insurance will cover bariatric surgery --- in 2007! Crap! I just had my surgery! A friend suggested even if your insurance says they don't over bariatric for any reason (Just like ours said) try anyway. Even if they deny it - if the approval comes later (like what just happened to us) - you might be able to seek reimbursement. Just sharing so someone else might save some $$.

I had to do dark meat to help it go down easier. I haven't had a fill yet either though....I feel that sensation when I try anything with ground beef...

Between hubby having a sleep test, an intensive job interview and the kids back in school ( I am the mom of a new Freshman - yikes!) I have been distracted to say the least! Approaching the one month mark - feeling good, getting compliments (hey, you're really losing weight!) I gave my Drivers License to a lady at the mall (had to buy new pants - they were 14/16 not 18/20!!) and she said "Wow, you look different" Pretty amazing considering its more inches than weight at this point. I still haven't budged from the 233 mark, but I continue to FEEL slimmer in my body.

Thanks for the tip! You are probably correct! I'll stock my fridge!

I'm drinking my water and eating my protien. I have a confession to make though. Since surgery I have not been up at night for the midnight munchies. Last night I was - I know its happening when it happens but its like being in a fog.... I get up to pee. I go to the kitchen. I open the fridge and look for something to satisfy me - I don't know if I am hungry, just compelled to eat something. The voice in my head says "You don't need to eat right now. You should go back to bed" and yet, I keep looking. :hungry: Fortunatley last night I didn't have anything screaming at me - no crab dip with ritz crackers, no pudding, no leftovers...So I didn't completely sabotage myself. I grabbed the only substitution which was a bag of Ruffles - plain, which I hate - ate two (chips not bags!) and went back to bed. THANK GOD. I know that my late night eating was out of control before surgery. It was one of my fears when considering surgery - how was I going to overcome this? I wonder if its late night hunger - my swelling is gone and I know I'm now able to eat more than before (a week and a half ago) - but I am still limited to what I can eat at a time. Is my body rebelling? Crying out for calories? Or is this a head thing? I'm trying to keep portion control myself, but I am looking forward to my first fill - when its time. I'm still shrinking - though the scale hasn't changed - I can see the changes in my arms, my face, my legs, my belly so I'm not discouraged. I guess I'll see how I do in the coming weeks with this midnight battle.

I waited one week. I could have gone back sooner but was having trouble getting enough water in - my Dr. didn't use a general anestesia - I think with a general it might take a bit longer to feel up to par. I think a lot will depend on the type of work you do as well - I'm mostly at a desk. Sitting wasn't 100% comfortable and I was walking a lot throughout the day.

Keeping a journal has been very helpful for me. Reading others provides insight as well.

I don't know much about Cushings - but it sounds like you had a great time in Portland. Glad to hear it!

I'm drinking my water and eating my protien. I have a confession to make though. Since surgery I have not been up at night for the midnight munchies. Last night I was - I know its happening when it happens but its like being in a fog.... I get up to pee. I go to the kitchen. I open the fridge and look for something to satisfy me - I don't know if I am hungry, just compelled to eat something. The voice in my head says "You don't need to eat right now. You should go back to bed" and yet, I keep looking. :hungry: Fortunatley last night I didn't have anything screaming at me - no crab dip with ritz crackers, no pudding, no leftovers...So I didn't completely sabotage myself. I grabbed the only substitution which was a bag of Ruffles - plain, which I hate - ate two (chips not bags!) and went back to bed. THANK GOD. I know that my late night eating was out of control before surgery. It was one of my fears when considering surgery - how was I going to overcome this? I wonder if its late night hunger - my swelling is gone and I know I'm now able to eat more than before (a week and a half ago) - but I am still limited to what I can eat at a time. :cool: Is my body rebelling? Crying out for calories? Or is this a head thing? I'm trying to keep portion control myself, but I am looking forward to my first fill - when its time. I'm still shrinking - though the scale hasn't changed - I can see the changes in my arms, my face, my legs, my belly so I'm not discouraged. I guess I'll see how I do in the coming weeks with this midnight battle.

I love your bra story! Congratulations. It helps to focus of these victories!

Good luck!~ I can't wait to see the pics at the wedding!

congrats!! Keep it up!

It feels wierd when I lay flat on my back. I'm sure its my port in there - but its such a wierd sensation. I'm afraid to poke around and feel my port - I'm afriad it will hurt. My scars are healing up though and almost all of the glue is gone. DH is sad to see my boobs and butt shrinking. I was putting lotion on my hands yesterday and I realized even my hands feel different - I can feel my knuckles more than before. It's strange because I never thought about fat hands - my ring is still tight and I haven't lost any more pounds yet, but my body FEELS different every day. I didn't walk last night - was TIRED after work and dinner. Had 4 oz. of tuna for breakfast. Felt very different to be eating tuna while the guys were munching on doughnuts and pastry.

I'll be there!!