I start liquids on monday and am schedualed for surgery on June 29th.
I thought about it the same way you had, the preop apts, paperwork , the unknown was hell for me. it got me thinking well this is just reiculous what am i doing?
what helped is realizing that this is it. This will be great. and not think so much. I have a tendency of overanlyzing everything. sometimes we just have to go through the motions..
a member on here told me that its a rollercoaster ride weare waiting on line for no need to think so much were gettign on! Think that way, clear space in ur mind for all the other things your going to be able to think about and own this.
good luck!