IwannaBeHappy

hahaha thats great! A name good point... its almost like we slept with this person or "thing" without really getting aquianted! but this is noooo one night stand!! no no as u said its with us forever.. so hhm maybe i should give it a name.. i struggle with this concept only because i still sometimes forget this "thing" is with me.. or in me..(dirty entondre) lol bottom line.. i gotta get to know him-or her better.. it can also be a Bitch ! i dunno.. im gonna sleep on this name thing.. i think its an awsome idea! funny!

ooohh about 3 yrs ago i went on a diet lost 60 pounds and well i was thin! only looking back at old pictures im like holy shit im bones what was my problem..why didnt i take advanatge.why was i still so afraid for anyone to touch me. I workedso hard ot get there and then i got there and it wasnt enouph.. im sure you all know how that story ends.. i gained it all back and then some. so then i decided to get the lapband. and here i am 50 pounds down another "real" 50 to go.. and im beggin myself to see a change, im begging myself to behappy and realize im going to get back to thatfabulosu thin and i wont be starving and ill fit into clothes again. but most of al li pray that when i get back there..i stop and thank my lucky stars that i had.. and no matter what mybody looks like its perfect! oohh and then!!! ill be taking advantage! :blushing:

wow just saw this. i was banded by dr. ren. i know shes a fabulous doctor but i find her to be a little dry and not so warm. did you get banded? who did you choose? how are you doing?

hey i was banded ont he 29th so i think i can still respond :w00t: i was aroubd a 37 or 38 bmi when i started.. i lost 50 pounds since surgery but again everyone is different. I wanted to comment because its not just the fills.. well in the begining thetruth is its the fills that got this weight down. but now!! im snacking,lost focus, eating deserts all things i know i can eat. and i started to think wait a min do i need a fill as if its really injected into my brain to stop this love affair! its not. i thought i was cured i thought ahh i lost some weight and thats it im a changed person. Then low and behold i think about food, i snack when i can and choose thign si know will work and i asked myself what happend? whats this about? cuz im not cured. we have good and bad days..im 25 years old and if u told me to write down what i eat id joke and say eeh no room on the paper. but now i do everyday or eery other soi keep track. No bullshit about not having space or i ate bad.. it keeps us aware. and somethng about being aware no matter if we made good or bad choices works wonder all by itself. so if i can suggest anything in my own time of "falling of the wagon" is rember as far as we used to fall before well never ever fall as bad as preband. and this is no race and not magic. i had the strangest month i can eat then i cant i struggle with a bite, and now suddenly my port is bothering me,, but regarding falling off just get back on..i fell off the deep end last night and im floating away this afternoon. ah i wish u ladies luck, keep at it with ur fills.. keep me posted

hmm im out 3 and half months and only now do i feel some akwardness on the side of my port too!! i was wondering what it was about. sometimes it happens when i eat and sometimes it just there and im aware of it sorta liek a mild cramp maybe. but nothgn to serious but something that reminds me very much thattheres a port there. i hope its nothing to be nervous about. i cant imagine its scartissue both of us havnt had the time for that i dont think. i wonder what it is? and i hope it goes away.

ooh man i just learned icecream was huuuge slider food. I never eat reg icecream and swore up and down ill say it again uppp and down tasti delight is my "icecream" but lately ive made bad choices.. ben and jerrys and low and behold i can eat a pint. so yeh learn them or theyll introduce themselves to you.. either way be aware and stay far very far away!!!!

i agree. just last week i was debating wether or not i needed a fill. I Just didnt feel out of control in my eating and there were many times had to stop and slow down. Soo I began to question well how much is to much? but yesterday i ate more then today hmm. True you'll have different eating days but i think the biggest tell tells if your eating or getting hungry before u hit the 4 hr mark. 1 hr later if ur legitamtly hungry after feeling "full" then a smidgen fill can make the world of difference. I actualy got a .1 fill last week when i felt it wasnt really neccesery but it actualy delayed my eating in the am. slow and steady wins this race it seems! no need to get stuck episodes etc.. if u feel like your getting hunry and you'll know what "eating more" is for you.. then get a fill if not feel it out.. gl.. funny thing is im the one usualy askign the questions..

Ohh I love it! i was dying over here! good luck everyone.. if anyone has any additional suggestions as to how to avoid this please share..

Thanks Jachut! i really appreciate it. its funny its called "first bite syndrome" it happens to me for many many bites... I get worried and anxious eating with people cuz it takes me a while to get my groovewithout making faces of frustration i cant take my first bite. or 2nd. I havnt told anyone so this makes eating out sooo hard!! I also noticed if i snack or eat when im not hungry at night the next day is a disaster to eat. even now i iate some crackers last night.. and today.. at 3:30 i couldnt eat yogurt. but later on ill be able to.. hhmm but im happy to hear this "first bite thing" will dissapate.. I really hope so.. i really doo...

hey, ive had surgery 2 and half months ago. I just had my 3rd fill last fri. I started to notice as i eat and about hald hr to an hr after i get these rediculously loud girgling,bubbling type of noises..No joke people can hear it. Whats that about? anyone else have that at this point in their journey? does it go away? Hows everyone doing if anyones at this point in the road 2 and half months in..3 fills i think im at 6.4. In terms of restriction I have it, but not conistent. I can graze throughout the day but there are def certain foods I cant have to much of. Good luck all. and if anyone can share id love the input.

hey thanks me too. it doesnt resemble a burp to me.. its literly noises taht last a few seconds. And i get it every so often even now as i chew gum. It just makes noises. almost like a cracking old door.. i cant find a better way to discribe it. or a creek from woodn plank on old floors. I wonder if this will remain or does it come and go. it is weird!

I gotta say the holidays is rough. There are deserts I havnt seen in a while and for a minute there i questioned why i got the band. I was thinking holy cow I just want to make a plate the way i used to try all 16 dishes that are in front of me and eat as much of them as id like. then reality set in and i realized well Paula this is what got you here in the firt place. Not an easy concept to learn as you watch everyone else make massive plates at the table. I did however cheat. I ate cookies,cakes u name it i ate it. im at my 3rd fill i guess my restriction is not quite there yet.. but i do have it. I think deserts are somewhat slider foods as they say. All i can say is the band will help us through the massive plates we once made. But it will not make better food choices for us. we gotta pull through and rember that being jewish.. means holidays!!! and that means FOOD FOOD FOOD come on say it with me.. tons and tons of FOOD! and then we remember that food is what got us to such unhealthy places that we got lapband in the first place. Not to worry im saying that to myself. Im trying. I need to try harder. I ate tons of cakes and deserts some of which id never touch.. I wanna get this right. I wish you the best of luck. Have an easy fast

In my opinion I dont think your doing harm, Caffine is generly not good for you. can cause you to have spikes in ur sugar level and when u crash atleast im generaly hungry. But thats how i was preband. I had one cup of coffee and it filled me and i enjoyed it. I dont think theres anythign to worry about you should drink more Water cuz it does dehydrate you. it also eats away at the Vitamins. so make sure not to take ur vitamins in the am with a cu of coffee. Good luck.. and if you feel moe comfy ask ur nutritionist or ur doc.

hey all, im on 2nd day of mushies which i presume some of you are too.. i got a few questions? my hunger pain in general and when i wake up is accompanied with a feelign of nausia which is generaly better once i do eat .. however when i do eat depending on what it is i feel weird. the cream of farina was no problem but tuna and eggsalad i was barely able to eat 3 spoons..im not sure if im transitioning into mushies well. I dont know if the feelings of nausia or this pressure when eating is par for the course..or just healing. anyone feeling any of this..I could be swolen still im not sure.. happiness> i lost almost 3 pounds every 1-2 days on liquids.. and as soon as mushies ormore protein shakes came into play id stay the same or so.. I wouldnt worry with weight loss just yet.. Im trying to just get better and transion well.. be well.

UUMMM yess I have, but hey thats what got us here in the first place right.. refer to quote below... WE WILL DO THIS!!

MJ sounds like you have a happening house! I wanna come over! hehe I think and i spoke to a friend that has had the band for 4 months..i told her my worry and my concerns. she isnt an emotional eater but she is a night owl like US!! and she said Paula when u stop fighting ur body and getting to know urself ull feel better.. her advice was yes this month is going to be hard. But when we can eat ,, we can. so we have to be aware of how and what we eat.. Last I checked there was never a succesful all u can eat diet.. and for those ppl that have that diet down i swearrrrr it will catch up to them. And so for the rest of us we will have to be aware of how fast which is truly bu biggest worry cuz it seems liek i inhale food. But I feel calmer knowing that Ill get there,,Ive been fighting myself..and for any of you guys taht are liek me im the biggest worry wart>im so hard on myself. Im going to try to get to know myself now.. and when we get to eat we get to know what works and what doesnt.. and you know what MJ u can still have a crazzy happening house.. and we can have a bite or so of burritos but the beauty well be full on a few bites as oppoes to well all the leftovers.. Im wishin you the best of luck and ill be thinking of you whome I barely know as the woman that will prob have a harder time then I will<<but i promise you! well get thru it.. we all will.. OK that was more for me then it was for you..

I absolutely love this thread! its like a daily blog where we all rant about things wed never ever talk about.. like burping and bm.. i forgot who said that made me laugh. soo i feel the need to blog..anyone have there post op visit yet? that is the next step. I had to take an esophogram today. Not to bad guys. a white chaly like liquid that i only needed to take a sip of they took a picture and i was done, They said the band looks good and its where it has to be.. However I couldnt tell what was what in the xray i tried to believe him. I cheated..im sure i said this already in post op phase and am so very impressed with those of you who have stayed strong! Its funny how we are all so different I was getting hungry on day 4 out. Days 1-3 i was dealing with pain and couldnt tell hunger from pain.. But I can certainly tell now! Anyone miss food? I mean anyone had a binging or a emotional eating sorta probem and really just misses the comfort it used to gove you. I forget sometimes I open the fridge i wanna sit in front of the tv and remeber ahh crap I cant eat. I almost get frustrated and dissapointed. I wont lie I miss it! and with this liquid diet.. I seriously miss it! hhmm I know this isnt my personal blog im sorry.. Just touching base since we all seem to be on the same page..most of us that is. Im still burping.. the nurse said that will slowly dissipate i hope soo.. she said im drinking to fast or to much.. Ive tootalyy slowed down my drinkin tremendoulsly are you all still sipping liek hot tea?? ok ill stop now.. feel good everyone, Paula

Thanks Mj! Hhaa u do love ur popcicles! Im trying not to beat myself up but im so nervos for the test tom I just wanna see i didnt do harm and hopefuly i stay strong till Friday and i get to have mushies! woot woot!! so u cheated on pudding ehh.. not to bad .. i gotta get myself pocicles! Good luck on next phase.

haha im so very glad there are ppl out there that feel as hungry and as crazed as i am. first off i wanna say theres no need to be a homebudy.. i went out even in pain on teh third day made teh day pass so much quicker.. i get into trouble walkin pass the kitchen when i stay home.. OK.. so i gotta confess ive been great on this liquid diet of mine and dont ask me what happend but i went to a july 4th bbq starved.. then went home paced back and forth like a crazzy person and THENN i opened the fridge and i ate yes ate a 100 calorie piece of bread!!! the worse thing and a peach! I musta been drunk.. ( no i wasnt drunk) I tried to chew well but for some readon i tried to forget i wanted to just open the fridge and eat.. anywho i didnt vomit and nothign got stuck but i called thi morning to confess and i asked what sorta damage i did.. the ntritionist said if it didnt get stuck and i didnt vomit odds are I didnt cause damage, but ill know tom at my esophogram!! Im petrified! Reason I wanted to post this moment of weakness is for anyone else thts feeling overwhelmed counting the minutes or days liquid faze is over.. ur not alone! Food is an addiction.. and ive learned so much this past few weeks doing liquids.. 1 thing is for certain I was hungry last night.. next I liek to eat bad foods if I see them third ill generay overeat any food i do choose to eat. and I had to sit in all the feelings that would generaly drive me to eat and i almost woulda rathered have been handcuffed and put in solitare confinement haha ok tahts sick.. point is.. this is not somethign taht can be fixd in 1 2 or even 3 weeks.. its in our heads.. ok so as far as hunger goes ive covered that.. yeh im hungry but i get hungry prob someplace in afternoon and at NIGHT!! as far as soreness goes each day gets so much better. I still have gas pain and peridcly i think its over and then ill get a shoulder pain.. so that just goes and comes.. Does anyone burp alot? yes i hear its gas but is it really.. i burp often and not very used to that.. I sure hope thats temp. but please tell me Im no priest but has anyone cheated at all..?? please tell me and the burping? Thanksss, feell good everyone!!

OOhh im feeling starved too!! This just happend today. the past few days wasnt hungry at all and suddenly hunger painI knew it wouldnt let go forever! I go the same plan gonna take some pain meds and try and sleep. Hope all is well.

aaw JoJo ur ver strong! so very strong we will get thru it! I cant believe ur back in work! Im feelign that tightness exactly in the same place! how about when u drink- does that feleign increase. I did alot of walkign today, I feel a bit better. it odd i may have experienced hunger today. Although i cant eat im just to tight and i still have pressure its beginnign to get frustrating. But im sticking to it. cuz i physicialy cant eat id be so very uncomfotable. I hope all is well, and you continue to do well.

I wa sbanded on Monday as well. I also stayed over night. I am feeling better today. i dont feel much sorenes around the incisions sites but i do feel sore. The majority of my Pain is the gas i think. I have chest pain and a tightness feeling. I cant drink much still. I have to drink very little and very slowly. If i drink to much (liek 2 sips at a time) i will get a tightness pressure feeling. Otherwise im feeling ok. I dont think im filled at all this must be swelling im feeling but i havnt been hungry unless i cant tell cuz of the pain but i dont think its hunger. Ive walked alot and i think that helped me alot. I suggest you walk as much as you can comfortably. I hope that helped. Paula

wow Donna thanks for that! I had teh very same feelings blk had. As i sit here 3 days preop waiting for surgery Im trying to see a life the way ive continued to live it. im not that big but my relationship with food sucks. and ive learned mostly in this liquid preop phase that this isnt going to be easy. i was stressed feeling like a failure before i even started and wanted so much to snack, and rembering i couldnt eat was like telling me I cant drive or brsh my teeth. But just like blk worries about the changes the stuck feeligns, the comiting the not being able to eat certain things well blk.. trust me Im very muchh stillll in ur head. and trying desperatly to think the way Donna does. but if this helps "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what youve always gotten" here we are trying to fight this logic and say well maybe soemthing will change you cant be happy and eat bread so those are sacrifices. Trust me it hurts me to accept this, and i havnt even begun to accept it. Im hoping i learn with this process. Dont think so much, change is hard, im still contemplating. still worried. But i know and seen people who have been sooo very succesful. Its all around the site. stay focused and rember what your fighitng for. i tried to help you as i try to help myself. Again Donna thanks. Paula

well thanks for that. im goin in on monday and i ask the same quesions every day. I wonder too if il stay overnight however the doc said it will most prob be an outpatient for me. but it says on those information bookelts you leave the next day. i guess it all depends and nothign i can plan. Im happy to hear your pain was not so bad. i wasnt that worried as long as they give you tonsss of pain meds? hows your hunger though.. i know your a week out do you feel hungry on the liquid phaze? im on liquids now and i cant imagine another 2 weeks of this.. but hey to get to the prize right. thanks for your post., Paula

Hey fireman, Ahh I rember the same feelings, " are they doing there job" why dont i just send it in" whoc an i call and confirmt hey recieved fax" - you know what though keep in mind your doctors office wants you to get this done. not just because hes your doctor but guess what its still a business and they still want to get paid. So trust that you went thru the steps and have some faith everyone will do what they have to do. I was very proactive as well in making sure they recieved my faxes and my end of the paperwork but try and keep busy and when you hear "your approved" youll find other things to be anxious about. Ha atleast i had. Im going to be banded on the 29th of June. good luck! Paula