Good luck!! I think we all at one time have second guess ourselves. This is a choice that is yours and yours alone, but the support of others is key!! This site is helpful too because you can talk with others going through the same thing. I understand asking ourselves about...'am i just being lazy?' However, it is just not true. We have tried everything in the book and consistently hit some kind of road block....we know what to do, we know how to exercise but there is just always a stumbling block. The surgeon that did the seminar i went to and the nurse practitioner said some things that really helped me....."society has conditioned us to think of food as rewards, society has conditioned us to think that it is just as simple as eating the right pre packaged food......however, sometimes it is not that simple." they also said that obesity is a disease....for some reason that reasonated with me...it made me think of it in a whole different way. I am rambling....but I do wish you the best. I have my first nutritionist appt. tomorrow. -as for the fills and follow up appts. insurance should cover those too....just might be a co-pay. talk to you again soon!!!!