tellis78

Ok this my first time writing since two weeks after my banding surgery. It has been a lots of ups and downs but for the most part ups or shall i say down. I have lost little more then 50 lbs pounds since May. I lost almost 3 dress sizes and I am feeling better about my self. When first started I was 399 lbs. I lose 20lbs even before I could i could have the surgery so I was really like 420 lbs. Today I am between 344-348. There reason why i say this is because I've been losing and gaining the same 4lbs over last couple of weeks. I am falling back to my old eating habits. However, my saving grace is I workout hour and half ever day. (check out my photos to see the difference) I still have lot weight to lose. I am tall so my weight doesnt look so bad but I look at myself everyday and now that i need to lose at least 100 lbs in order for me to be happy with myself. I know it will take time but that just my inpatients talking. I just need to refocus and make some changes in the way I eat. This has been one of downs of after surgery struggles. I am also losing my hair. I find hard to eat certain foods which hurts if I eat them or if I eat to fast which sometime leads me to throwing up. I try not to eat bread, pasta and rice. But these things are so hard to give up but these are food that hard for me to eat. I try to eat as much as portin as possible but my hair is still falling out. I dont know what do. I just need to stay focus on losing more weight

Ok this my first time writing since two weeks after my banding surgery. It has been a lots of ups and downs but for the most part ups or shall i say down. I have lost little more then 50 lbs pounds since May. I lost almost 3 dress sizes and I am feeling better about my self. When first started I was 399 lbs. I lose 20lbs even before I could i could have the surgery so I was really like 420 lbs. Today I am between 344-348. There reason why i say this is because I've been losing and gaining the same 4lbs over last couple of weeks. I am falling back to my old eating habits. However, my saving grace is I workout hour and half ever day. (check out my photos to see the difference) I still have lot weight to lose. I am tall so my weight doesnt look so bad but I look at myself everyday and now that i need to lose at least 100 lbs in order for me to be happy with myself. I know it will take time but that just my inpatients talking. I just need to refocus and make some changes in the way I eat. This has been one of downs of after surgery struggles. I am also losing my hair. I find hard to eat certain foods which hurts if I eat them or if I eat to fast which sometime leads me to throwing up. I try not to eat bread, pasta and rice. But these things are so hard to give up but these are food that hard for me to eat. I try to eat as much as portin as possible but my hair is still falling out. I dont know what do. I just need to stay focus on losing more weight

Day five of surgery – I weighted myself this morning and I lost 14lbs since my surgery, last Wednesday. I am glad I took the time off work to focus on my new eating habits. I do not think I am drinking enough water. I need to make a schedule for liquid diet in order to consume the proper protein and water. I am scared that I might get dehydrated or lack protein. I do not want to end up in the hospital because I am not doing what I am suppose to do. I am not feeling a lot of pain. I went through the day without the pain medication. I am going attempt not use the medication starting today. Emotional, I starting to see how much of a role food has been in my life. Food has been social tool, financial cost and of course, it has been an emotional healer for me. These last couple of day’s food has been so apparent to me. I have notice food commercials that I normal would not pay attention to and I cannot stand to watch another person eat while I am protein drink. This sucks! However, I trying to remind myself that having this surgery will all pay off in the end. I am hopefully and I want to lose weight, however I am fearfully that I will be among many that fail at this. I DO NOT WANT TO FAIL. There no other option for me. I am tired of being overweight. I am going to do what has to be done to be successful. I need all the support and encouragement I can get. Until next time. TE

Day five of surgery – I weighted myself this morning and I lost 14lbs since my surgery, last Wednesday. I am glad I took the time off work to focus on my new eating habits. I do not think I am drinking enough water. I need to make a schedule for liquid diet in order to consume the proper protein and water. I am scared that I might get dehydrated or lack protein. I do not want to end up in the hospital because I am not doing what I am suppose to do. I am not feeling a lot of pain. I went through the day without the pain medication. I am going attempt not use the medication starting today. Emotional, I starting to see how much of a role food has been in my life. Food has been social tool, financial cost and of course, it has been an emotional healer for me. These last couple of day’s food has been so apparent to me. I have notice food commercials that I normal would not pay attention to and I cannot stand to watch another person eat while I am protein drink. This sucks! However, I trying to remind myself that having this surgery will all pay off in the end. I am hopefully and I want to lose weight, however I am fearfully that I will be among many that fail at this. I DO NOT WANT TO FAIL. There no other option for me. I am tired of being overweight. I am going to do what has to be done to be successful. I need all the support and encouragement I can get. Until next time. TE

I had my surgery almost 4 days ago. I wanted to do this surgery for the past three years and it has final happen. My support system has all gone home and I am in my apartment by myself. I am finally had time to think and refelect on this process. I've begining to question if this is right decision.