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It was good to be back to work today, I was busy but it was fun. I love my job! Food was much easier because I was working. It's my down time that I have a problem munching. I have an incredibly busy week planned for after work this week so I shouldn't have too much trouble sticking to the plan. I have my third fill on Thursday. I'm pretty excited about it, I'm hoping that it is the fill that gets me to the sweet spot! I have the dietitian appointment that day as well. I have a ton of questions for her. I really need to learn how to plan my meals out so that I don't have to think about what I want and so I don't grab just what's convenient. I try to make good choices most of the time but there have been times that if I had a plan in place I wouldn't have made the same choices. I'm hoping she can help with that. I changed my hair color while I was on vacation and got tons of compliments today. I'll have to post a pic sometime soon. . . Still hiding from the camera. LOL one day, I won't hide. Hope everyone had a great Monday!

Variety is the spice of life....Try yoga haven't ever done it before...it's a great workout.

It was good to be back to work today, I was busy but it was fun. I love my job! Food was much easier because I was working. It's my down time that I have a problem munching. I have an incredibly busy week planned for after work this week so I shouldn't have too much trouble sticking to the plan. I have my third fill on Thursday. I'm pretty excited about it, I'm hoping that it is the fill that gets me to the sweet spot! I have the dietitian appointment that day as well. I have a ton of questions for her. I really need to learn how to plan my meals out so that I don't have to think about what I want and so I don't grab just what's convenient. I try to make good choices most of the time but there have been times that if I had a plan in place I wouldn't have made the same choices. I'm hoping she can help with that. I changed my hair color while I was on vacation and got tons of compliments today. I'll have to post a pic sometime soon. . . Still hiding from the camera. LOL one day, I won't hide. Hope everyone had a great Monday!

Well, vacation is over...POUT POUT!! I think it's actually going to be a good thing. I eat way too much when I'm home. I want to snack all day and that's BAD! I try to choose healthy snacks but found myself eating CHOCOLATE today, that's BAD BAD BAD!!! I am a sugar addict so, I know not to eat it. I did manage to lose five pounds this last two weeks!!!!! So, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I did take my diabetes medicine just so my sugar didn't spike. I haven't had to take it since I had my surgery. I am really feeling the restriction in the mornings, I tried to eat cherry yogurt this morning and got stuck on a little piece of the cherry. It loosens up after about three hours and a glass of water, I'm wondering if it has something to do with being a little dehydrated from the overnight, without water. Friday night, Dave (my friend) and I took my roomies ten year old to the races with us. It was a BLAST he was in awe! It was fun watching his reactions to the wrecks. He was having so much fun, and Dave was having as much fun watching him as the races. Too fun!!! Yesterday was a quite day, I didn't do anything but SLEEP!!! I was good and went and worked out for about an hour and a half. I LOVE Wilson's gym they are great people and it's not the type of gym that you feel intimidated walking into. I'm going to take a cardio dance class on Tuesday night, that should be fun. I found my flirty girl workout video's so I'm going to start working out to them and to the biggest loser workout videos too. I have found that I really enjoy exercise. It's my time! I love the way it makes me feel and I try to do a wide variety of things so I don't get bored with it. Today I cleaned house, did laundry and I cooked dinner tonight for Larry, for those of you who haven't read my previous blogs, he's my ex- relationship without a relationship guy...Man it was HARD seeing him...He's the first person that I can honestly say that I have been truly in love with. I ended it a few months ago because I knew it wasn't going anywhere and I was going to end up getting hurt. My roomie invited him out for dinner, not sure if it was her idea or his. I of course cooked his favorite meal and we had a great time. It was a little tense... and I was right...I ended up getting hurt. I still after four months have very strong feelings for him. He was very complimentary of my weight loss, he hugged me and was like "WOW, you're getting skinny"....Pardon me for a moment....Jumping up...giving myself a high five! ...YAY ME!!!!!! :thumbup: Ok back now, sorry about that.... It made me feel so good! That's about it for today. I think I'm going to work on a menu plan for next week. I need to start keeping better track of what I'm putting in my little tummy so I can start losing MORE!!!

I'm right there with you...there have been a lot of times when I have thought..."what the hell have I done to myself." The night of my first fill being one of them... I got stuck for the first time. I was at a friends house, and literally almost ran my friend over trying to get up from the table fast enough to make it to the bathroom. Came back to the table and sat down and just cried when she asked me if I was ok... I was not...I was SCARED and in PAIN...I was scared that I would never be able to eat normal again. I realize now, I can I just have to eat SLOW and CHEW, and CHEW and CHEW. It's not easy and doing this alone I am sure is not an easy thing to do. Remember that you can always come to the boards and read and ask questions. I'd be happy to share my info with you if you want someone to talk to.

Keep your chin up, 4 pounds is great! The average is two pounds a week, my surgeon told me that's what he wants from me. He told me if I lost too fast that I would end up with lots of baggy skin. Two pounds a week gives your skin time to adjust. You're doing great keep up the good work

I made a huge pot of chicken noodle soup right before I started my preop diet. I gave the "goodies" to my friend and kept just the broth and used it during my preop...I think it's the only thing that helped me survive it. Recipe... 1 or 2 boneless skinless chicken breast 1 lb bag of baby carrots cut into pieces 2 Large ribs of celery 1 medium size onion 3 or 4 cloves of garlic chopped fine lawry's season salt to taste salt and pepper to taste 6 to 8 boullion cubes noodles Bring all of this to a boil, reduce heat and simmer until the onion is translucent, take out chicken and chop into bite size pieces, add back to the pan. Bring back to a boil, add noodles and cook according to package directions. It's YUMMY hope this helps. Good luck on your surgery let me know how you do.

Well, vacation is over...POUT POUT!! I think it's actually going to be a good thing. I eat way too much when I'm home. I want to snack all day and that's BAD! I try to choose healthy snacks but found myself eating CHOCOLATE today, that's BAD BAD BAD!!! I am a sugar addict so, I know not to eat it. I did manage to lose five pounds this last two weeks!!!!! So, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I did take my diabetes medicine just so my sugar didn't spike. I haven't had to take it since I had my surgery. I am really feeling the restriction in the mornings, I tried to eat cherry yogurt this morning and got stuck on a little piece of the cherry. It loosens up after about three hours and a glass of water, I'm wondering if it has something to do with being a little dehydrated from the overnight, without water. Friday night, Dave (my friend) and I took my roomies ten year old to the races with us. It was a BLAST he was in awe! It was fun watching his reactions to the wrecks. He was having so much fun, and Dave was having as much fun watching him as the races. Too fun!!! Yesterday was a quite day, I didn't do anything but SLEEP!!! I was good and went and worked out for about an hour and a half. I LOVE Wilson's gym they are great people and it's not the type of gym that you feel intimidated walking into. I'm going to take a cardio dance class on Tuesday night, that should be fun. I found my flirty girl workout video's so I'm going to start working out to them and to the biggest loser workout videos too. I have found that I really enjoy exercise. It's my time! I love the way it makes me feel and I try to do a wide variety of things so I don't get bored with it. Today I cleaned house, did laundry and I cooked dinner tonight for Larry, for those of you who haven't read my previous blogs, he's my ex- relationship without a relationship guy...Man it was HARD seeing him...He's the first person that I can honestly say that I have been truly in love with. I ended it a few months ago because I knew it wasn't going anywhere and I was going to end up getting hurt. My roomie invited him out for dinner, not sure if it was her idea or his. I of course cooked his favorite meal and we had a great time. It was a little tense... and I was right...I ended up getting hurt. I still after four months have very strong feelings for him. He was very complimentary of my weight loss, he hugged me and was like "WOW, you're getting skinny"....Pardon me for a moment....Jumping up...giving myself a high five! ...YAY ME!!!!!! :thumbup: Ok back now, sorry about that.... It made me feel so good! That's about it for today. I think I'm going to work on a menu plan for next week. I need to start keeping better track of what I'm putting in my little tummy so I can start losing MORE!!!

I'm right there with you, I've had two fills and can still eat pretty much anything, just a lot less than before. I think our bodies go into starvation mode when we are on the pre op diet and it takes a while to get it to rev up again. Here's hoping it gets revved up soon!

Good job, amazing results keep it up!!!!

TMI alert here.... When you decide to skip dinner just so you can play with the whipped cream and sf chocolate syrup in the bedroom.... :tongue2:

Awesome 30 pounds you'll never see again! Keep up the good work!

One year ago today my best friend April called me from the hospital and told me that she needed me...Alex (her four yearold son) was not going to make it...I called work and rushed to the University of Missouri, he was alive when I got there...I saw the change at about this time 10 am..The life in his eyes was gone, his body was being kept alive by the machines ...but he was gone...They tried everything in their power to save this little guy, but it was too late. It wasn't until 8:45 pm that his little body finally gave out. We were waiting for his grandma to get there, but he couldn't hold on.. As I sit here today remembering my little buddy and that day I feel the lapband getting tighter and tighter with every tear I cry, I can't stop crying, I can't stop remembering his eyes...That lifeless look as he lay there hooked to all of those machines. The helplessness I felt for my friend this was not her first lost child, this was her second in less than five years...Serinity was 20 days old and Alex was 4 years and 4 months old...WHY??? WHY does GOD do this??? I found a poem that I shared at Alex's funeral, it makes since it's just still hard to understand WHY>>>> For all of you who are mothers out there...Hold Your Children Close! God's Lent Child I'll lend you for a little while a child of mine, God said, For you to love him while he lives, and mourn for when he's dead. It may be four or five years, or forty-two or three; But will you, till I call him back, take good care of him for me? He'll bring his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief, You'll have the lovely memories as a solace for your grief. I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return; But there are lessons taught below I want this child to learn. I've searched the whole world over, for teachers kind and true; And from the throngs that crowd life's lane I have chosen you... Now will you give him all your love? Nor think the labor pain? Nor hate me should the angels call, to take this child back again? To which the parents did reply... Dear Lord, Thy will be done. For all the joys thy child will bring, the risk of grief we'll run. We'll shelter him with tenderness, We'll love him while we may... for all the love this child will bring, forever grateful we will stay. But should the Angels call for him, much sooner than we've planned, We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand. We had a grave side memorial today, April read a poem that she had written last night and I thought my heart was going to fall from my chest.

WALK, WALK, WALK!!! The best way to get rid of the gas...

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and kind words. It's been a tough day. We have shared many stories of Alex today, many tears and quite a few laughs. He was an amazing little boy, who brought happiness into all of our hearts.

Thanks, it's been a rough day. I never realized how much the stress would cause my band to tighten. I've been on soft foods as nothing else will go down. It's tough this is the time that I've always turned to food and I'm having to learn to cope without....food.

One year ago today my best friend April called me from the hospital and told me that she needed me...Alex (her four yearold son) was not going to make it...I called work and rushed to the University of Missouri, he was alive when I got there...I saw the change at about this time 10 am..The life in his eyes was gone, his body was being kept alive by the machines ...but he was gone...They tried everything in their power to save this little guy, but it was too late. It wasn't until 8:45 pm that his little body finally gave out. We were waiting for his grandma to get there, but he couldn't hold on.. As I sit here today remembering my little buddy and that day I feel the lapband getting tighter and tighter with every tear I cry, I can't stop crying, I can't stop remembering his eyes...That lifeless look as he lay there hooked to all of those machines. The helplessness I felt for my friend this was not her first lost child, this was her second in less than five years...Serinity was 20 days old and Alex was 4 years and 4 months old...WHY??? WHY does GOD do this??? I found a poem that I shared at Alex's funeral, it makes since it's just still hard to understand WHY>>>> For all of you who are mothers out there...Hold Your Children Close! God's Lent Child I'll lend you for a little while a child of mine, God said, For you to love him while he lives, and mourn for when he's dead. It may be four or five years, or forty-two or three; But will you, till I call him back, take good care of him for me? He'll bring his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief, You'll have the lovely memories as a solace for your grief. I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return; But there are lessons taught below I want this child to learn. I've searched the whole world over, for teachers kind and true; And from the throngs that crowd life's lane I have chosen you... Now will you give him all your love? Nor think the labor pain? Nor hate me should the angels call, to take this child back again? To which the parents did reply... Dear Lord, Thy will be done. For all the joys thy child will bring, the risk of grief we'll run. We'll shelter him with tenderness, We'll love him while we may... for all the love this child will bring, forever grateful we will stay. But should the Angels call for him, much sooner than we've planned, We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand. We had a grave side memorial today, April read a poem that she had written last night and I thought my heart was going to fall from my chest.

I've lost about the same and have seen the same result down a full size top and bottom...I WANT MORE, at least to lose three more sizes.

KEVIN'S A LUCKY DOG!!!!

HOLY BUCKETS Woman!!! All this talk about the s word and then the spank me stuff...Your poor hubby is gonna be WORN OUT!!!!!

There are times when I am not sure what kind of hunger I'm having. It seems that I am hungry most of the time. I've had two fills, after the last fill I was feeling pretty good and not hungry. Now, it seems that I am hungry all the time. I'm not sure if it's real hunger. I'm on vacation and staying at home since I don't really have the money to travel on this vacation. When I'm working I have set times to eat and don't think about food. Now that I'm home on vacation my roomy thinks I should cook for everyone and their dog...I love company and cooking, but it's tough for me because I want to taste everything I'm cooking. Then when it's time to eat I'm not really hungry and I eat anyway....BAD HABIT!! Roomie doesn't cook, she loves to brag on how good of a cook I am and that's why she's always inviting people (guys) over to eat. My question is this...how do I make myself stronger? How do I realize when it's head hunger, real hunger or habit hunger? I chew really good and it seems that everything goes down just fine...Am I just not restricted enough? Oh, update on Hot Greg...He now knows that I am interested...I was being bad text messaging back and forth earlier... I told him that I left HR Manager Stacy at work for a week. He told me I was allowed. He's SO HOT!!!! I know this is terrible to say, but it's my view point. The way that he dresses and just the way he presents himself he is a perfectionist, I am NOT, I feel it's more important to have fun and enjoy life than to keep an immaculate house. I don't think that I'm good enough for HG...Besides, he's talking about moving away. :thumbdown: Oh well, if it's meant to be it will be. That's it for me tonight.

I FEEL YOUR PAIN...it's tough I think we are in what they call bandster hell. It's tough because truly we can eat most anything, but know we shouldn't ...It makes me want to shout....HELLO captain obvious if I had will power I would not need the band!!!! Keep your chin up once we get enough fills it's supposed to be easier.

There are times when I am not sure what kind of hunger I'm having. It seems that I am hungry most of the time. I've had two fills, after the last fill I was feeling pretty good and not hungry. Now, it seems that I am hungry all the time. I'm not sure if it's real hunger. I'm on vacation and staying at home since I don't really have the money to travel on this vacation. When I'm working I have set times to eat and don't think about food. Now that I'm home on vacation my roomy thinks I should cook for everyone and their dog...I love company and cooking, but it's tough for me because I want to taste everything I'm cooking. Then when it's time to eat I'm not really hungry and I eat anyway....BAD HABIT!! Roomie doesn't cook, she loves to brag on how good of a cook I am and that's why she's always inviting people (guys) over to eat. My question is this...how do I make myself stronger? How do I realize when it's head hunger, real hunger or habit hunger? I chew really good and it seems that everything goes down just fine...Am I just not restricted enough? Oh, update on Hot Greg...He now knows that I am interested...I was being bad text messaging back and forth earlier... I told him that I left HR Manager Stacy at work for a week. He told me I was allowed. He's SO HOT!!!! I know this is terrible to say, but it's my view point. The way that he dresses and just the way he presents himself he is a perfectionist, I am NOT, I feel it's more important to have fun and enjoy life than to keep an immaculate house. I don't think that I'm good enough for HG...Besides, he's talking about moving away. :redface: Oh well, if it's meant to be it will be. That's it for me tonight.

Ugh, the flu is kicking my butt!!! I'm coughing a lot and I'm a little worried that it could cause my band to slip. I've read several post about people having coughing fits and their band slipping. It has only been six weeks or so since I've been banded. I'm hoping nothing bad happens. I've been able to eat the recommended amounts and stay full for three or four hours which is much better than what I was able to do. I ate steak for the first time tonight, it was wonderful! I had to cut it very thin and chew chew chew. I'm beginning to feel like a train...chew chew ...chewwwwww