TracyinKS

I was scared to even try popcorn until 6 months out and its really to bad I did.......... because I can eat an entire bag NO PROBLEM! Freaked me out the first time I did it.. but it was ooooohhhhhhhssssssssooooo good (cause I use real butter) Now I have to force mysefl NOT to eat it... but admitedly I do have it as a meal sometimes...... I have absolutely no problem with it.....

I have to tell you guys THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! I feel so much better... Kat I got your analogy perfectly! and your right...... He did tell me that my booking trip priveledges were done for the year... (see I'm also on my HS 20 reunion planning team) which also kind of happened this week....... venting helped immensley and reading all your posts lifted my spirit.. (however I did just finish a dairy queen pecan mudslide made with chocolate soft serve) damn emotional eating....... My sister is booked to come with me to the Wynn...... she was able to use FF miles to get her flight! YIPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEE I am so stoked!

Thanks Haydee! your post made me feel a lot better.

VENT OK......... Dh is not going with me the $468 airfare is just not feasible........ (So my sister is going with me) He is really trying to control my fun. Told me I have to find a sitter for Robby (he did this for TX too) Said that he expected the money when I get back so we can go buy a new tent........(RED ANGRY FACE)....... I told him he was not spending my consulting fee at Cabella's...... I then told him that if I wanted to buy a new shirt while in Vegas with the money I'm making then I'm going to buy a shirt..... So then he says.... "Well it better not cost $100" (OK... so you guys really don't know me face to face.. but THESE WORDS ARE LIKE WAR TO ME) I have been working for what I want since the age of 13 and I do NOT like it when people try to tell me what I can and can not spend my money on. The short hairs on the back of my neck stood straight up... ... because ladies he just spent upwards of $500 on stupid ass camping shit for boyscouts... i.e his own personal Dutch ovens, special cot pads and cot tree's and stuff that he may or may not use........ STUFF that I will not use because it is SCOUT stuff..... I am boiling boiling mad....... but I am proud of myself because I did not let it escalate... Deep breath, I am trying so hard to remember that he is freaking out on me being independant......... (he is so used to being the boss... his first wife is really quiet and non confrontational and was not a wager earner, he was the fire chief in small town hell) so he is used to being in charge and in control of what the money is spent on.......... OK so I don't make wonderful money but it is more then minimum wage and I carry all the insurances and such...... I bought my own house, had a motorcycle, 401k... you know... I had my shit together....... this has not changed......... what has changed is we are now married..... he is legally entitled to my stuff and I guess he is trying to control all the money yet he does NOT handle money smartly....... and now he is acting way more controling...... the phycobabble side of me says.. "Tracy he is just acting out because he feels that he's losing control so he's grabbing tighter, he is not used to the changes and attention that you are getting so he is going all caveman on you, and trying to prove his manliness" I am sooo trying to let this all ride out........ and not blow a gasket.. hell I am not going until the end of JUNE!!!!!!!!!! Please say a prayer for me that I am able to let this go and not have a knock down drag out about it this weekend.... it is ridiculous..... we will get through this..... he is a good man but right now he is acting like a complete ass.... actually I am fighting frustrated tears as I type this.... I'm just so pissed that he is acting this way... about TX and now this....... I've been trying to stash back money for fun in TX because he has already been hounding me about how we can't afford it..... sorry V's.. I'm just so frustrated......

GOOD MORNING! Judy: Happy Bandversary Yesterday!!!!!!! TracyK: Happy Bandvesary TODAY!!!!! Michelle: CONGRATS ON THE 5 LBS!!!! Haydee: I've been to the bahama's and it was beautiful, but don't let anyone braid your hair on the beach before you negotate a price! they charge per braid and will go tiny tiny tiny to get all your money... I've never been to Vegas, so I'm really excited.... however I checked plane tickets yesterday for our timeframe and DH's would cost $462.00!!!.. He won't go for that much.. and secretly it would be fun if he DIDn't.......... The gal that nominated me is also going. (She would prefer I keep her identity secret because she doesn't want to feel guilty for not nominating others who grace this board) It would be fun to shop and be a girl......... HOWEVER... when I called Allergan yesterday it kind of sounded like they do this type of thing often (maybe for other products they produce) SOOOOOOOOO I think I will take a few notes with me and maybe get your names out there too...... this might be a period focus group type of opportunity. I am so stoked! I've NEVER been to Vegas and the hotel is "The Wynn" I checked it out on line and it looks very nice! Do any of you Vegas regulars have a good deal on a dam tour or something for DH to do while I'm in my meeting on Saturday? He is not a drinker or gambler so that is part of the reason he wasn't interested in the trip....... OK time to get cracking on my water... (I purposely did not bring a thermos of coffee with me this morning so I would be forced to drink water)

My MOM wants me to offer her and my step dad up as DEMO bandsters! LOL

Ok.. I called the organizers and get this....... ONLY 12 PEOPLE are being invited! HOLY CRAP! (DH is more excited now)

I was named as a Leader in the LapBand community......... (I.E. my big mouth got me noticed) Someone gave my name to the allergan people and they actually invited me to a local meeting here in KC but I was out of town. I emailed them back and told them thank you but explained I would be on my honeymoon.. (I also told them I'm an HR/Benefits person and that my company allows our insurance to pay for the band) so I would love any documentation they had on the subject.

I was 190 today! nothing for the contest...... I just posted this on my blog..... it shows where my head is at I think. Yesterday I recieved a FedEx overnight packet inviting me to be on the Lap-Band Patient Experience Council.. get this.. the conference is to be held in VEGAS and yes they are paying my way!!!!! I will have to be in a meeting 8-5 on Saturday and 8-Noon on Sunday…….. but HOLY CRAP BATMAN!!! Suprisingly, my DH was NOT happy not even excited and basically tried to put down the hammer... "WE ARE NOT GOING" WTH??? EXCUSE ME???? It was a longgggg sleepless night.. and this is what I've come up with..... He is totally freaking out on my independence, confidence and overall outgoingness.... (all things that I've always been, but..... have been supressed for most of our 3 year relationship) This goes back to my NUMEROUS trips down the scale..... the last time I lost 80lbs was right before we met...... so when I met him my butt was a size 12 and I was happy go lucky, independant and living life... part of what attracted him to me right??? Well we became involved, committed and an exclusive couple.. and I began to gain weight..... I would try to get back on the LC bandwagon and he would laugh, roll his eyes, and take me to dairy queen..... I was weak and I gained quickly.... every pound that reappeared would be like a nail in my spirit... so I was shrinking inside, depressed, mad at myself and disgusted with how weak my resolve was.... I was miserable with my fatness....... and even more so when I surpassed my previous high weight of 256..... getting on that scale at 272 was THE low point.. rock bottom..... that is why I ended it there.. I put myself on a pre op diet EARLY.. I started drinking LowCarb protein shakes with one meat meal per day....... and from April 1, to April 26 (day of surgery) I lost 19 lbs........ and its been a ride down the scale and down the sizes ever since..... I am very involved with my Shrinking Violets to the point that we are all meeting in TX in May.... (He supported me and told me to go, and so I booked my flight) He kind of passive agressively freaked out on this last weekend... I go to my bandster support meetings and he gets a little itchy..... NOW this.......... I'm getting healthy, looking good, excited about my band and have now been given oportunity to meet the makers of the band and maybe even shape the way its presented, produced, designed etc...... they want MY feedback and they are paying me for my opinion....... how freaking cool is that????? So maybe he's feeling a bit left behind....... a man's ego is such a sentive thing... and I've never been a wall flower.. he knew this from the start.. but maybe just maybe he is a bit threatened by it........ So this post has turned into something else... thats the way of putting thoughts down on paper.... uhhhh errrr computer However.. I'm calling with my confirmation today....... He IS going with me..... and I've got to get right with my eating cause I'll be meeting a bunch of people from all over the US in JUNE!

Loved the pics! Jane I love your profile in that one.. I thin you should have laura crop it down and make your violet siggy out of it.... Aweeeeeee Judy so precious! I cancelled my ps consult today...... to chicken I guess.. and I know it wouldn't be covered anyway since I don't have any rashes or breakdown... yet......... Have a great evening

HOW DID I MISS THIS JANE?????????????????? HOLY CRAP! Sounds like you went to a gay bar in downtown KC!!!! (errrrrr not that I've ever been to one) LOL (actually my brother in law has 3 gay brothers and I've been out with them) IT WAS EXACTLY LIKE YOU DESCRIBED.... I thought I was in a biker bar until I started seeing hairy butts! LOL:lol:... but it was one of the funnest times.. since there was no stress. OK.... I am in the middle of a project so I've got to go... but I HAD to post!!!

Happy Sunday! Jane: Yesterday was absolutely gorgeous.. warm and sunny.. a bit breezey, but I spent all day out in the yard and then we went to Home Depot, test drove a bunch of mowers and then came home with one.. (our old mower was going to cost about $500 to attempt to fix) so.. of course dh got a new toy.... (it is nice, but costly) I'm trying not to stress out about the bill..... Terry: that is soooooooooooo exciting about your surgery! Kat: The woman in question..... well that might be part of my current mood.... I won't say much because she is very internet savy and for all I know might be on here..... but short version... WORKMANS COMP NIGHTMARE! She is obviously being coached. She has been off work since Christmas eve.... I will be called to court before the whole issue is over.... one of those bite you in the ass for doing a good deed kind of things. The scale was back down today so that is nice... DH's back is doing better so that means he is less grumpy.. (although he just realized I wouldn't be coming home on Sunday of the trip and he threw a friggen fit).... oh well.... It is cloudy and a chance of rain...... today......... I think I need to plant some seeds or work on the garage. Have a great day!

Happy AFternoon all!!!!!! Happy Bandversary Terry! Pam your PB story had me laughing out loud because I HAVE BEEN THERE DONE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jenn: THANK YOU for the Mail!!!!!!! and good luck with that interview, sounds like it went well. I don't have a lot to say........ I'm thinking of canceling my ps consult.... I don't have rashes.. I'm thinking of the dawn dishsoap recipe but right now I'm kind of lack luster about the whole thing .... I've been eating total crap and the scale shows it... Gina: Maybe my pouch is bigger as well... Suzie: Water is good for you.. I can tell when I drink enough... for one thing my rings spin around on my fingers and my eyes are clearer and my skin is much more smooth...... dam experts always changing their minds.. irritates me... another million dollars of funding to speakoutyerass'isms Pam: The week before my TOM I'm either biotching at everyone or bawling........ and its that time so I can completely related... (I just told dh a couple days ago that... his insecure bullshit needed to stop) won't go into th story... but after I said it I was like.......... "oh shit did I just say that outloud????" ohhhhhhhhh wellllllllllll have another dang cookie..... Kat: I will also help.. as I am not squeamish when something needs done......... hell I gave my 12 yo ss an ENIMA! LOL...... I am so excited that you got approved! The good thing is.............. IT's FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Did I tell you all that last Sunday I worked in the yard and even used a CHAINSAW! Go Tracy Go Tracy.... (I was tired of looking at the fallen branches all over and tired of the non help I get around the house, except my 4 year old)... yeah I was in a biotchy mood that day too........... oh well have another cookie...

Happy BANDVERSARY PAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have a great Dinah Shore weekend!!!!!!!!! Sounds fun :biggrin:

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! KAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHOOHOO Haydee for holding the 220's! I just made my ONEyear Post Op appointment and maybe a fill..... Suzie: its on the 23rd with the good doc at 2:30 p.m. I now have a goal to be in the 180's for the appointment! YEAH RIGHT!!!!!! I'd have to weigh 182 nekid in the am to register 189 midday with clothes in their office

This time last year I had all these same worries and fears......... the number one best advice to you is that the first 6 weeks are for HEALING and not losing... so don't freak out. Plant it into your head that even though you are hungry after the post op swelling goes down.. that you need to cement that little sucker in place with scar tissue... so stick to your docs post op diet..... Pick a plan and work it.

Welcome to Bandland all you 4/2 'rs!!!!

WELCOME TO BANDLand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GasX strips, heating pad and walking is what helped me the most!

I just had cambels bacon potatoe soup for lunch! but I knew it was high carb... the only upside is that I don't eat many of the potatoe chunks. I have a new hire coming in so I'll be gone the rest of the afternoon

good morning..................... not much going on......... Robby had his first swimming lesson last night... HE WAS THE WILD CHILD! He loved it

I was thinking of getting one on my 1 year bandversary but NAAAAWWWW I'll try and weight it out... HA HA

ME THINKS I NEED A FILL!!!!!!!! I ate an ENTIRE lunch tostada for lunch WITH BEANS AND CHIPS!!!!!! dang dang dang dang dang

dh is here to pick me up for lunch!

YEAH RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL No, I've just been super busy... and I've been eating like crap, we got a puppy, DH back went out and today he is seeing a pain management specialist (partner of a surgeon) he has been off work, and he's been very cranky because he is freaking out.... work is crazy and my boss called last night because his daughter went into labor so they were heading to the Lake to meet her at the hospital (about 3 hours away) ohhhh and my period is getting ready to hit, so I cry at commericals...... Robby starts swimming lessons tonight, and I've also signed him up for his first year of T-Ball........... trying to figure out if I'm going to switch daycare on him for the summer and then again when he starts kindergarten.... (the current' place put a stop to all field trips last summer and they are not resuming them this year) park, movies, swimming, skating, fire station........... so I'm thinking of switching him to a place that does the fun summer stuff. The issue is he can't start the school district sponsored summer program util he completes kindergarten, but he wILL be going to the before and after program when he starts in August......... I bounced back up to 194 today....... grrrrrrr, but I had a cookie for breakfast, so that tells ya how I've been eating.