TracyinKS

Hello.......... I chopped the hair again.....

Thanks everyone......... I'm seriously considering getting my hair cut like Terry's. What what what.. I missed pammy is getting botoxed?

Relief.. I feel nothing but relief to no longer live in a war zone. I do feel a twinge of guilt because Robby misses him. Basically I told Charles that Cody would never live under my roof again and they both moved out. Saturday his sis, bil, niece came over with 3 trucks and they loaded twice. My mom was there for my moral support, but when the inlaws realized that I was not crazy, and trying to help...... well they realized that there was really no middle to be put in. I said my goodbyes to his family with hugs and I love you's. Robby was not there, my sister had taken him for the day. After they left my mom was deep cleaning the living room and found a note that Cody had shoved down in the couch..... meant for me to find much later when I would be doing my own deep cleaning....... It said.. "Dear Tracy, I HATE YOU, you ruined my life, I hope you rot in a sack in a basement along with that miserable shit you call a son...... Now that my dad is gone you will never get on your feet and I hope homeless. From, your former Step Son Cody p.s. I hate you." NICE huh? LOL Anyway...... his former room is now our office and Robby and I spackled and painted it yesterday... we are going to set up two desks and two computers in there... I'm going to paint my bedroom Palest Lavendar..... totally girly! My sis has a plan for redoining my dining room and living room...... so I'm going to let her. Truth be told.... it is so peaceful at my house now... it once again feels like my home. I encourage Robby to call Charles daily, but I really don't know if it is appreciated or not.

OK... first....... I read all the twilight books and even the unpublished "edwards story" on her website...... I am getting ready to re read breaking dawn... and yes the books are much better than the movie...... in other news..... I've had a busy day. Robby and I went to the dentist for cleanings. I had an apt with a counselor........ we made two more. She said it sounds like I'm done. I cleaned Cody's (packed Cody's room) the boy is not coming back to my home where Robby is in jeapordy of his imature beatings........ Charles and Cody are getting an apartment and I hope to hell they grow up. I will miss his sister and her husband because I truly love them....... but I've also loved inlaws before and it boils down to blood. so I've said my peace.......... anyway........ I'm going to work tomorrow and I've been non stop cleaning..... Love to all........... thank you for the support

Hey guys... I have to have a talk with Robby today... before he see's the house. Charles, his sister and all his family and friends are on facebook...... so that is why I'm not going to post there for a while. He made me promise not to make any major decisions for 30 days (filing) and I agreed. Everyone but my dad is behind my decision

Hello.. don't freak out, but shit hit the fan over my lunch break and Charles is packing he and Cody up and heading for his sisters......... yeah..... life is going to suck for a while..... hang in there with me ok

I am sooooo sleepy!

JUDY: that is so sad! We had a really really really sucky family weekend.... I just made an appoint to see a shrink.... I need to vent to someone who doesn't know or love me.. because.. in addtion to working.... I've been perusing the self help legal sites and my states statutes on an uncontested divorce. In my county it will cost me $166.00 to file....... yeah...... me thinks I need a shrink.

I'm getting ready to pb some grilled chicken............ thats what I get for trying to be good!.......... gotta go

good morning........ :cursing: 213 today... I managed to be good all day and night UNTIL I had two handfulls of pb chex mix..... but I count that as a good day. I've been doing laundry this am and running a scan on my puter. Make it a good one! oh and our AC is off too.. so nice!

Good afternoon......... I am trying trying trying to make it a good day.... right now I'm starving and thats not a good thing. I hurt my foot playing softball....... short version... I stepped funny off the base and popped the tendon.. didn't tear or rupture it THANK GOODNESS, but I had to elevate my foot and get it to go back in the groove... I've already progressed to just having my leg/ankle wrapped...... the boot had to go!

Good morning! I managed to eat Legal all day yesterday!!! YEAH ME I made a flatbread pizza out of the stuff I found... and OMG it was so good!!!!!!

Cry analyzer! GIRL YOU HAVE ALL THE COOL GADGETS!~ I have so far stayed on plan............ gotta get through the hard evening time now.

Is it Friday yet?????????

I am right now eating... Flatbread "chips" provelone cheese hard salami

Haydee: Here is a pic of the flat bread..... cut it up and bake it until crisp. I did mine on a baking stone and then dumped white cheddar popcorn seasoning in the baggie

Good Morning! I went to the new Wally World before work, and bought some meat and cheese for my lunch..... I also was suprised to find the AWESOME FlatOut wrap..... Low Carb/High Fiber and 9g of protien.... my mom makes chips out of them and my step dad eats them as bread.. maybe this is a sign!

What I've had today..... Cereal w/milk a few ritz crackers (4) taco bell mexican pizza 2 glasses of Crystal Light Peach Tea 1 pot of coffee some of my homeade "chips" (made with a LowCarb FlatOut bread) Going to try and be good for dinner.... although I'm hungry right now.

LOL!!! I did my hair last week when I was off work and bored.. I LITTLE too much highlight but oh well I'll just dye it dark when I get sick of it.

So I just took that pic with my phone.... it is what I look like again at 214....

Pam I love the pics!!!!!

OK Haydee....... did I miss the actual setting of the date.... Is that going to be our next reunion?????

HIYA! OK... I think I'm ready.... I've missed everyone and I am really missing you now that I just looked at all the alabama pics.... Jane I loved the coozie.. you are so thoughtful to include me.. Suzie, I wear the Blue Springs shirt all the time! Carson is sooooo precious..... 214 today......... ho hum...... I'm with ya Kat... I need to Re-lose more than 34 lb. though

Hell Yeah! 207.6 flashed for a minute before settling on 208 again... I am very very proud of myself for resiting Robby's plea to go to Dairy Queen last night.. BUT I DID! Weekends are hard........ we have T-Ball and a retirement party ( with LOTS OF GOOD BAD FOOD ) I don't know if I'm going to be able to resist.. but I will try

Evening V's! Heather CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am proud to say that today is day 4 on plan.... I have not strayed to ice cream land and actually have been pretty low carb (except for 2 pc of butter toast last night.... no matter what my calories are down.. the dt pop is down...... and I should buy stock in Crystal light! I have cub scout day camp next week and they tell me its half mile walk from our den home to the pirate ship! I know you all are here..... and thank God you are.. because otherwise I would get lost in my cycle of complacency and failure.... I sincerely care about each and every one of you...... know that... Today the scale read 208 so that is better than 211 but a far far cry from 174... but I will get there again..........and my clothes will fit again...... why am I still up??????????