TracyinKS

WELL OKEYDOKEY! GOOD CHOICES! YES MaaM! 184.2 today......... at least it wasn't higher.

ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so ready, you dont even know...... I am typing this tipsy and I am going to make a call tomorrow to see someone about my current coping mechanism.... about the stress in my marriage, the bills, my son, my job ... everything..... oh and the 4 pb cookies that I washed 2 drinks down with........ that I am not doing anyone any favors....... I actually called my mom, and I had my cell phone ready to call TracyK...... cause I know she will kick my ass with that tx drawl of hers...... LOL I just love my violets............ and now for the rest of BL

KAT YOUR BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! Judy I don't know where the email went..... CRAP! Tracy: LOL!!!!!!!!! Oh yes I do remember that... I also remember that BESIDES OUR JUDY....... we were a bunk of tipsy violets in the hot tub/pool........

Going to get my 3rd glass of water!@

NO go on the Columbia ... kid weekend for me. and you guys are so funny! thanks for the kudo's, but I AM getting fatter...... I've got to stop it NOW.... Tonya: I am the queen of PB (not the same as puking as you know) but I will tell you...... if I have anything in my tummy and then I pb on something stupid like bread..... it will come up ....... up from the BOTTOM part of my tummy and it HURTS LIKE THE DICKENS..... Thanks Trace........ I know you are right....... I've got to get on the scale tomorrow, and I've GOT to stay away from the crap. Do happy pills make you gain weight?

I am eating my wc oatmeal and I have filled my water glass for the first time today. I just took this in the bathroom, I feel like I'm getting fat again....... my face especially...... I might join ww or something..... oh and that is the soap dispenser NOT a toilet!

Thanks Jane and Tracy for the text yesterday.. I didn't get them until this morning because I had misplaced my charger.. but found it and wha-la this morning there they were. I sent a long email to I THOUGHT Judy... Michelle did you get it? (it was about Robby).. LOL I fried flour tortilla's last night and had mexican pizza for dinner......... and I did not PB! Charles bought me MilkNOG and so of course I had a huge ice filled glass of it...... I SUCK........... Back to my coffee this morning.

Tracy: you are cracking me up!!!!!!!!!!!! Laura: I never really felt Robby kick....... but in the last few months he would Roll...... and it was THE WIERDEST feeling! I am on my second glass of water.......... but sadly I did have a peanut cluster..... ok I had TWO! I have an appointment with DS, MD on Monday and the school psyc and I have been going back and forth via email all day. She is going to put together his latest IEP, and make some observations of impulsivity this week along with some other info from the Special Ed teacher .. a nice tidy little packet to give the doc...... I'm feeling a little better about it.

Well, I've mananged to make it through lunch... cottage cheese w/pepper a few more slices of cheddar. I'm full. LOL you guys crack me up!

I'm not going to even THERE Amanda........ Charles HATES MY BAND! He is jealous of it......... He says my ass is flat and that my hair cut looks like shit..... (I'm VENTING) I just called him to say that I made an appointment for Robby with his MD and he just wanted to get off the phone........ it is a good thing that there aren't BAD THINGS for me to eat right now.... OK. OK I need to calm down without food........ I did drink one pink glass of water (pink 30 oz glass) You will see a complete 180 on me, if he starts doing better in school..... I am pretty sure that I'm depressed/stressed...... I called my company EAP for Robby and the intake lady wants me to call back and make my own appointment..... LOL.. I am afraid to honestly........ If I start unloading EVERYTHING I may just end up divorced, and that is something I'm not prepared to deal with right now.......... Don't let me go MIA....... OK?

I JUST LOVE YOU GUYS... thanks.... I'm going to get WATER right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good morning girls........... I have not weighed in two days, but today I am trying to make good choices.... I ate a grilled cheese sandwich, AND thin crust pizza yesterday! DAMN........... oh and about 1/2 a tin of chocolate/caramel covered popcorn....... not a pretty day for me. Today, I've had coffee w/ sf creamer a few slices of cheddar cheese WC oatmeal made with cream and water (cutting down the carbs) I will be having cottage cheese for lunch SF pudding cup for snack (if needed) oh, and I'm going to make an appointment for Robby..... the special ed teacher says she is sure he had at least the HD part of ADHD......... we had a lonnnggggggg talk Friday pm..... Charles is not helping matters, making me feel like crap for even hinting at the need for meds.... he had me in tears Friday saying things ..like........ "Fine! Drug Him! Whatever, Dope him up!" I finally told him to shut up because I already was feeling guilty... My boss is gone this week so I have a super busy time ahead....... plus I am just at my wits end....... I am pretty sure I'm re inflating my belly......... DH is blissfully giddy that I CAN eat food..... I've got to be strong... Strong everywhere.......

THE BOOB PIC THAT NEVER HAPPENED! Short version - machine broke while I was there - I Left.

I'm bidding on some wrestling shoes size 13 and 1 on ebay.. wish me luck! They just don't carry those suckers ANYWHERE unless its a sporting goods store

I admit I have never balanced a check book! I do like Laura.. I get paid, I pay bills online and what I have left goes for grocery or gas....... nothing left to balance! :rolleyes2:

Checking in on you! How is your swelling?

I'm sleepy!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you know how much it costs for a 5 year old to go out for wrestling???????? $80 to sign up $30+ for shoes $30 for headgear $12-$30 per tourney (if attending) Geesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!! I have until December 3rd before I get a fill, and she already told me she is going to take it slow....... blech... Back from the wrestling "parents meeting"........... we shall see.

LOL@@@@@@@@ I have no shitting black stuff or swallowing going on! I didn't need it. She looked at my band under fluro, after getting me to BE HONEST about how much I pb and how often I get heart burn and how long it has been since I've eaten actual meat........ SHE UNFILLED ME ALL THE WAY DOWN TO 1.4 cc's!!! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA this is less than my first fill!!!!!!! I gained 5 lbs and she said to give myself a break and enjoy my Thanksgiving and then come back in 4 weeks to see if I have stopped having heart burn and pb'ng! The good news......... my band looked good and healthy. The bad news.......... I am already hungry! (PISSED!) The good news........ MY BAND IS FINE!!!!!! I've got to remember the big picture here...... I am seriously scared shitless of myself....... I see pizza and cheeseburgers in the next month..... NO NO NO... Tracy.. I need you to come be my food slapper! LOL or give me a damn staple gun for my mouth! LOL When I called my sister in a dither about it, she just laughed.. and said.. Tracy I know its not funny to you, but it IS funny to hear you so upset about being able to eat a cheeseburger!!!!!!! IT IS JUST A CHEESEBURGER!!! and that is why I'm scared........ the non banded person, just does NOT GET IT!!! and maybe no one else does either... maybe I am a super duper weirdo........ OK, with that I need to go pick up my script for the heart burn medicine........

LOL Trace!!!! I am leaving the office at 1p for my barium swallow

Good morning.......... I may be having a barium swallow today, as my docs office called me back last night. She was harping on my reflux.. GREAT! GREAT! GREAT! I don't think I could take an unfill right now...... if I get an unfill I'm going to have to have him stitch my mouth shut, as the pizza and greasy burgers WITH BUN's would be calling my name...... scares the everlivin crap out of me.......... I just watched the video of Obama's acceptance speech, and I have to say that I was moved to tears.... which is no big feat for me, as I am a wreck every week watching extreme home makeover! LOL, but I am proud to have been part of history. Charles did not even REGISTER to vote, so when he complained that McCain didn't win, I just wagged my finger at him and said if you don't vote, don't bitch! LOL I just heard thunder!!!!!!!!!!!!! I did well yesterday, the crab cakes probably had a lot of sodium in them but they were good....... I did start TOM this morning........ yipppppeeeeeeee I hope everyone has a great day, and I will let you know if I go get the swallow.

I didn't have to show ID... the rule here is if you voted at the same place before you don't have to show id, but you do have to verify your address..... I pointed it out to the lady trying to find my name and she went OOPS! and covered my address with her hand while making me recite it..... I am sad...... I don't know why.. I just feel like crying......... I MUST BE PMS'ng!!!!!!!!!! GREAT I WANT the damn Recees PB cups sitting here at my finger tips but I REFUSE to ruin today with a dang ol nasty pc of candy!!!!!! I did have crab cakes for lunch... as my boss took me out for my work anniversary..... they were very tasty and very tender, so I was able to eat with no problem........ DH made chili, but I just don't feel like it, so I had a glass of milk instead....... I might make me a mock danish.... Have a great evening........ and thanks Tonya! I'm pretty sure its nothing......

Good Morning....... I waited in line for 1 hour, but I'm all voted. Robby had a better day yesterday... thank goodness~ Michelle: Yes.. I think all this stress is now showing its ugly head. and CONGRATS on the loss!!!!!!!! I managed to keep the crap down to the bare minimum yesterday, and the scale was 183 today......... Today is my 6th anniversary at work, so my boss is taking me to lunch. Jane: I'm so sorry for your heartache. Jenn: what up with mr cuddles? Jane yes you need to come back to KC so we can go to that italian buffet again!!!! (well.... maybe not a good idea) Terry: OK so are you and DH now divorced or did you mean the kids father? I'm CONFUSED

Ok girls........... on top of it all.......... I think I have a hernia! Anyone have experience in this and what do I do for the PAIN????? Left Side, level with port but about 4 finger widths away from it and about 3 finger widths above my belly button...... if I push through my belly fat I can feel a knot that HURTS....... it got worse when I took of my tight pants........ anyone? anyone? Denise our RN are you reading? If this is not better I'm going to call my band doc tomorrow and see what I should do....... Maybe its just stress........ now I feel like a hypochondriac!

Ok.. I am reviving this because as I sit here and type I am pretty sure that I have a hernia. I am 19 months out from band surgery and down nearly 100 lbs..... I LOVE it....... but I was too tight for too long last year and I consistantly pick up things that are too heavy ....... so my belly is greatly deflated,... left side of my belly button up a few finger widths and pushing below my flab I can feel a knot.. it feels better when I have tight pants on but tonight in my sweat pants the pain is worse.... damn it I don't want any issues...... but my doc did say during the seminar some 2 years ago that MOST morbidly obese people HAVE hernia's, its just a matter of if they are bad enough for him to fix while in there........ so I'm wondering if I've had one all along or if me heaving chunks of poorly chewed food has irritated it. To bad I couldn't get a tt out of it, but as I understand a hernia could be fixed Lap, no extra cutting required..... What can I do tonight to stop the pain........ and know that I am diagnosing myself. I KNOW that I must get a professional to tell me the facts.