jvinciguerra1

Been overweight all my life.  Started looking into being banded 4 years ago after I regained all my weight (over 100 pounds) on Weight Watchers.  Went for initial consultation and only had to loose 12 lbs.  Didn't know it at the time but I wasn't ready and didn't know I couldn't start over once I got weighed.  Went back after almost a year and had gained over 50 lbs.  They absolutely refused to do my surgery.  Went to Portland and did all their hoops (again) and did not loose my 20 lbs that they required. Now started somewhere in the spring and got up to 314.  Diabetes, high blood pressure, high Colchester.  Sandra Corbet, primary care physician, was going to put me on lots of med.  Couldn't handle it.Went back to Portsmouth who made me start at the beginning.  Lost the weight required and 20 more ... but gained that 20 back when Janas was here from Aberdeen.Still walked and started to swim at Elks.  Just hit the 15 pounds they require for this surgery on August 4th.  Not nervous about the surgery ... will be on Monday night before the surgery - but am very very concerned I cannot keep the weight off.  I've tried so many times with WW and have done great and gained plus once I stopped.  I had to do Doctor Wagner (shrink) one on one and then a 5 week seminar, dietiacian twice before surgery, was suppose to do physical therapy twice before surgery but did only once.  I do exercise so not concerned about that.Did have to sign a sheet saying I would follow the rules.  I have an advection to signing my name and making "promises" which I never take lightly since going WOW in Des Moines in 1978.  Did really well there on a diet for a while but now that I am only a few days away have eaten EVERYTHIKNG in sight.  I just "hope" I have lost the 15 lbs because they will not do it come this Tuesday.I feel like I'm loosing a really good friend even thought I can eat things.   I've read such good things and I know it will be a lot of work.  Salt is my downfall.  Not sweets.  If I don't have sugar in the house ... don't miss it.  Cheese doodles and Chips are my downfall.  Each leg & thigh I believe are made out of chips.  I remember getting sick on them around age 5 and not caring.I'm being realistic when it comes to weight loss.  I secretly would like to be 150 but I feel 180 is more of a sensible goal. Frankie is wonderful.  The only thing he brings in the house are those small bags of chips that he thinks he hides.  Ya right !Shari will be my only obstacle.  She thinks she will be a positive influence but I know in her heart she would kind of like me to fail.  Her sister just had a hysterectomy and I know things are hard on her right now.  Food is a comfort for both of us.I really believe I don't eat to to bad.  Always salads and lots of veggies have been made all these years.  I just got to get off my ass.  I'd rather stay home.  Moose has  been a big help.  He is mostly trainable to walk with me.Time for fellowship.  Going to walk over.   God and fellowship and my own determination to look at the long range will be my success on this what I call, journey.  I just don't want to fail.  Philippines 3:3