Holy Cow! I never, ever thought I would consider physically altering my body in an attempt to lose weight! The date's been set, I'm beginning my pre-pre-op liquid diet, and it's all I'm thinking about.
Does anyone else have times when they feel like they've failed or are ashamed of themselves because they've not been able to lose weight in a "traditional" way? I've told very, very, few people about the surgery primarly because I've been up and down so many times in my life that I'm humiliated to tell anyone that I've actually decided to have SURGERY because I haven't been able to lose weight and keep it off. At 333 pounds, there's so much I can't do that other people take for granted (i.e., sitting comfortably at a ball game, restaurant, etc., tying one's shoes, bending over to pick up something that's been dropped) that I just can't stand it anymore.
I'm excited and at the same time I'm scared and at the same time I'm petrified that I'll fail and be this size for the rest of my life (and just keep getting bigger).
I'm hoping to hear from others that struggle with the same feelings and others that have conquered their fears and have succeeded and are doing well.
Thanks for listening.