dange25

heyyyy I dont know about you guys, but.... a catheter is by far much easier to deal with than the mess you get without one. *wink* you wont even know its there. you wont feel it go in as you will be out and when it comes out it almost feels like a pee. i have had 2 of them, and i think my brain was the enemey (spell check) as it wasnt soooo bad. i was more inbarresed for the nurse that had to take it out! 5 seconds and its out with no pain. smile. no drama. (both times) shine on hey. :-)

I am sure that Im not the first and certainly wont be the last to travel this long road to banding. *sighs* I received my second copy of the weight loss surgery disc today (as the first one arrived with a crack) and wondered where i could get this type of money from. personal loan grrr still like the idea of the superanuation payment scheme money from the sky maybe?.... hmmm i know.... maybe i can sell of some of the gifted bottles of wine that have backed up in my house (not just the pantry) (ps my friends havent worked out that i dont drink wine yet lol)or just trade them for a winning lotto ticket! speed up the process a little....maybe. seriously wish there was a bit more money in the bank! i had my knee surgury on tuesday to repair knee damage (suprise suprise) and could only dream that they do the band while i was numb and hope to god i never ever had to have another metal rod shoved into my spinal cavity ever again! (please tell me banders are knocked out and there is no grinding sounds and weird bending sensations!) I really wish this process wasnt so long. As if the months of 'pro'ing and 'con'ing wernt crazy enough. At least there is more mental space to start cutting down nasties and continue to *try* and reprogram the little man in my brain that switches the light on when im doing something that i really shouldnt be. in the dark and oblivious has to stop now!!! now about those bottles of wine!!!!!

I am sure that Im not the first and certainly wont be the last to travel this long road to banding. *sighs* I received my second copy of the weight loss surgery disc today (as the first one arrived with a crack) and wondered where i could get this type of money from. personal loan grrr still like the idea of the superanuation payment scheme money from the sky maybe?.... hmmm i know.... maybe i can sell of some of the gifted bottles of wine that have backed up in my house (not just the pantry) (ps my friends havent worked out that i dont drink wine yet lol)or just trade them for a winning lotto ticket! speed up the process a little....maybe. seriously wish there was a bit more money in the bank! i had my knee surgury on tuesday to repair knee damage (suprise suprise) and could only dream that they do the band while i was numb and hope to god i never ever had to have another metal rod shoved into my spinal cavity ever again! (please tell me banders are knocked out and there is no grinding sounds and weird bending sensations!) I really wish this process wasnt so long. As if the months of 'pro'ing and 'con'ing wernt crazy enough. At least there is more mental space to start cutting down nasties and continue to *try* and reprogram the little man in my brain that switches the light on when im doing something that i really shouldnt be. in the dark and oblivious has to stop now!!! now about those bottles of wine!!!!!

When i heard these words i almost felt my brain rattle in my head! Reality is its going to take a long time to get use to the changes of lap band (should i get approval) not only the physical dinner out or lunch out with the girls, but the mental attitude that got me in this horrid position in the first place. I am scared of such an abrupt change in lifestyle, but it WILL be a very big insperation and reminder to.... stop eating the crapppp. stoppit!!! jussssst stoppppitttttt. such simple words....such a massive concept..... pffft. did someone say **massive**:biggrin:

When i heard these words i almost felt my brain rattle in my head! Reality is its going to take a long time to get use to the changes of lap band (should i get approval) not only the physical dinner out or lunch out with the girls, but the mental attitude that got me in this horrid position in the first place. I am scared of such an abrupt change in lifestyle, but it WILL be a very big insperation and reminder to.... stop eating the crapppp. stoppit!!! jussssst stoppppitttttt. such simple words....such a massive concept..... pffft. did someone say **massive**

I have had the paper work for so long and finally bit the bullet and worked up enough gumption to see my GP. The time is right! My baby is 6 1/2 mts old and I lost 14Kg in pregnancy from my pre pregnant weight 17 kg all up. I have had my first trip to the GP and have been totally excited/scared and out of my scone since making that first move. My weight has been out of control all my life and every time i throw my fat clothes away, i seem to stack on the weight again. Can't seem to keep it off. I'm so ready to make the commitment and have the help and suport that WILL change my life. The butterflys in my belly tell me i am really excited about losing the weight again, for life.

I have had the paper work for so long and finally bit the bullet and worked up enough gumption to see my GP. The time is right! My baby is 6 1/2 mts old and I lost 14Kg in pregnancy from my pre pregnant weight 17 kg all up. I have had my first trip to the GP and have been totally excited/scared and out of my scone since making that first move. My weight has been out of control all my life and every time i throw my fat clothes away, i seem to stack on the weight again. Can't seem to keep it off. I'm so ready to make the commitment and have the help and suport that WILL change my life. The butterflys in my belly tell me i am really excited about losing the weight again, for life.