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Congrats Maria - looks like this is YOUR year! Tamra - we are all here with you. You can do this!! 20lbs ain't nothin! Finances suck! You need to go to welfare and apply for food stamps or General Assistance TODAY!

Wow, Riley - you are like me... I can gain 20lbs over night with no problems! Liz & Nicollie - tomorrow is the last day of this life as you know it - woo hoo! Have a good breakfast before you go, a great lunch after orientation and your favorite dinner & desserts cuz Wednesday morning is the first day of the rest of your new life -

PRE OPS - DO NOT WORRY! Seriously, worrying is such a waste of time - I know it's easier said... but truly, It all goes so fast and it's so easy you can sleep right thru it. hahahaha. I was nervous and excited and almost chickened out and went thru a slew of emotions before surgery but then I woke up surgery morning more excited than worried and thought about all that went before me and how great they were doing and couldn't wait to be on of them. At the hospital, waiting for surgery - the only thing I could think about was my previous failures and just knew that I had already failed - that I'd waik up after surgery with no band because I didn't lose enought weight, that my liver would be too fat - blah, blah, blah - Then i woke up in no pain and thought to myself .... I knew it! No band! but they said all was well and I was relieved - See, all that stress & worry for nothing! Reovery was/is so easy... You'll see!!! then you'll be like me and think to yourself that you did all that overthinking for nothing~! Trust me!! Ok, so still waiting for all the Sac/EG peeps to weigh in about weather or not you want to stick with Vallejo or roll to Petaluma... Please speak up!

Hahaha Monique - too true! It's like the ol' saying: Today is the first day of the rest of your life... but don't tripp - so is tomorrow!!!!! Right Reggie!! Some of us are in Hell with you girl.

Anybody else have a Dell mini computer? So, because they are cheep as hell I got one of the little red ones - side note: not a good call for the blind such as myself! - anyway - dell installs their one wireless utility and wouldn't you know it.... It clashes with windows xp wireless connection - so, you ask, why do they install both on the same computer - GOOD FLIPPIN QUESTION I have to wonder if it's one of those conspiracy things - you know so that you have to go to them and pay them money to fix your computer so that you can get on line to chat with your band buddies.... Hmmm? i got a trick for all their asses - i disabled the Dell Wireless Utility card! SO THERE, DELL - TAKE THAT! I just got so tired of having to reconfigure my computer every time I turned it on. Venting session over

Nice Ticker Nicollie! 1 day and a wake up till your new life begins! Heather, that was a good thought but for me, the problem is, there is no candy that I don't love. I SNACKED TONIGHT BIG TIME - I completed my puzzle last night so I had nothing to do tonight but snack - peanut butter filled prezzles! Grrr - oh, and did I mention a rather large bite of my husbands pastry! I seem to be able to pull this off for two or three days then I mess up. so - back on track tomorrow morning and as soon as my check comes it's time for brain washing CD's - you know the ones from that hypnotist guy I was talking about - I'll be sure to make copies for everybody LOL Riley - I need your mo-jo!!!!! Monique - I too give in to the tempting foods that belong to the people around me!

That's how you do it Monique! for Life!! forget the negative people because you aren't doing this for them - but you are braver than I because I have told nobody but my husband and you all. My brother lives with me and I haven't told him! Just said I had a hernia (well it's true!) It's hard to stay focused right now but in a few months when you have your fills and you can't eat as much it will be fine! That's how I'm looking at it - there is a "sweet spot" at the end of the road and we will get there soon enough - in the mean time - we have to try to pick out battles with food - my husband got me the "eat this, not that" books and you'd be amazed at what the better food choices are! I'm gonna email The Doc and see if I can go back to my sustained release wellbutrin - initially, he said it was fine to use those even after the band but I want to double check - The regular ones aren't doing crap for my headaches - I've had one every day this week! When I get then, I take my maxalt which helps but makes me sleepy and you know how it is when you're tired, you want to eat to stay awake but I can't keep doing that! Grrrr! Ok, gotta get dinner started for my other half

Hey all - I did it, not 1 piece of candy - it helps when you ignore the holiday all together! Heater you look great in your costume! Riley - I think I told you already but I loved yours with your little litter box. Monique - i'm scared of you girl - make sure you chew very well since you are eating real food so early!! I have zero motivation and I just don't know what the heck is up with me but I WILL PREVAIL! Pammie - My sister in law and the two kids moved out but my brother ain't goin nowhere - I know this now~! I'm gonna get rid of the big ass bed in the spare room eventually and make that "my" room for exercising & things - Truth be told, I just really HATE to exercise and I dont know what that is all about. I don't get an energy boost or feel better afterwords like they say you're suppose to. I just always feel tired when Im done and need to nap. I'm telling you all I need hypnotism to change my mindset! Oh, I did just order the 8 minute abs, arms, buns & thighs video - I figure I have to be able to do 32 minutes of workouts a day!! Going to focus more on toning than cardio cuz I hate cardio so much LOL. My endo doctor told me that cardio doesn't make you lose the weight you already have but it can help you keep weight off so that's my excuse and I'm sticking with it! Ok, so we initially agreed to meet in Vallejo for the peeps that are coming from Sac so you sac ladies need to speak up! Looks like we're rolling out to the Santa Rosa group but then after we can either to Petaluma or Vallejo.... so Sac/EG peeps do you want to stop at vallejo or roll to petaluma? Jes, we can roll together to Santa Rosa! Everybody got that - Santa Rosa group starts at 10 so whoever wants to meet there come on.... Then after we will go to either Petaluma or Vallejo depending on you Sac/EG commuters - let us know! I am so horrible at planning things like this LOL. Somebody should really take over! John Boy - stick to your guns! back to basics with the 1200 cal diet. I know - EASIER SAID THEN DONE! but you have come way way way too far to stop now! Pat - i promise not to scare your husband!

Hey All Bea - sorry bout your little mis-hap but yeah, you are barely eating any calories so you'll feel week if you try to do too much. Maria - are you allergic to any type of llundry detergents? the moomoo is black and it will go just below your knees so you'll be adorable! Jes - i think Doc Fisher and Dr. Park must be an item. What's with them and their "so's'.? hahaha. There is no way possible I could do 1/4c and survive - I'm a 1/2 to 3/4c minimum type a gal so good luck with that. Liz & Nicollie - this journey is a piece of cake, really! so don't be nervous. As far as the 1200 cal diet goes - get with Heather cuz she's the 1200 cal queen! I have to do low carb so I won't be any help to ya. Riley - you are adorable! Love the cat suit and the litter box - hope it's new LOL. I'm gonna need the address & time for the Santa Rosa group meeting who's rolling with me to Santa Rosa?? We can all meet at 1:00 in the parking lot of The Dead Fish - will that work? Lets finalize these plans ladies. Oh, and Liz - you're already in the program - you won't get denied! Hope you ladies can sing - for Maria's sake LOL. Hey John, You haven't RSVP'd for the 14th - Think you and/or your wife will make it? Monique - YES - my tummy is LOUD on occasion - I spoke to the Doc about it and he said it' just air passing thru your bowels. He said my stomech doesn't growl so I can't use it as an "I'm hungry, I need to eat" excuse LOL. Think about it, we usually eat so much that we never have just air in there so now we do and it's noticeable. Ok, peeps - yesterday was my first day of NO SNACKS - I bought a 1000 piece puzzle and I worked on that all night last night- time really flies when your mind is occupied - I climbed in bed at 10:00 with a cup of decaf coffee cuz I was cold and was asleep by 11. I can't hit my treadmill on the weekends and that is starting to bug me. My brother is home and his room is right above the garage so If I get on my treadmill it wakes him up. If I don't do it when I first get up then I won't do it at all. That is the only time I have enough energy - Did I mention that I still have zero energy but I don't think it has anything to do with this band/diet cuz even when I was snacking all day like I did all last week I felt the same way - I think it's a combo of allergies, asthma & the weather. Reggie - the 14th?? Oh, it's gettin late - I think I'll go walk the dogs It's ugly outside HAPPY SCARRY DAY

Actually, I'm leving the house now so I don't eat!

I'm struggling too - I just had some of my husbands pop tart - grrrrrrrrrrr. I don't know what the deal is but just in case I'm ging first thing in the morning for my depo shot! Maybe it's the weather but I'm freezing and just want something cozy to eat. I'M SO NOT HUNGRY so I can't understand what the problem is with my mouth - my mouth wants to eat but my tummy is not with it so it's a little battle going on over here - asked my port for help but he's napping

Ok, well I'mma hit the road - will log back on this evening if my husband doesn't demand all my time again. Oh, and I didn't get to Hula last night. My husband usually spends Wednesdays with his son but his lovely baby mamma switched the days AGAIN so he was home last night and I stayed with him. I swear she just likes to ruin my plans!

No, the one in the little white dress is my cousin Heather (boo boo) Hey, she's 1/2 Filipino like you. The one on the Far left is my Cousin Denise who is here visiting from New Mexico. I am the one with the Fat Round Face in the blue dress.

My cousin is here from New Mexico so we are going to hook up next week - just the girl cousins. It'll be the first time that we hang out without a dead body in the room in since we're adults. Oh, I got a funny picture of me (and all the cousins) when I was 9 - see the fat round face:

Believe me Pammie when I say "I feel your pain"! get better soon!! Hi Donna! Thanks for weighing in on the Vallejo/Petaluma situation. Vallejo 1 Petaluma 0

Ah, Jes, you're here - what is the deal with your cousin? I haven't seen or heard - is she banded yet? Is she coming on the 14th? Sweet T - how's life today - hafta ask because it seems like it changes on a day to day basis for you! Work wise & all... Speaking of which.... Riley - you still need the hook up? Between Jes & I, we can handle that fool at work!! Nobody will know

I can't believe how fast we are all rollin.... Monique - Banded! Beatriz - Banded! Maria - On deck for the 18th! Liz - Orientation on the 3rd! Nicollie - Orientation on the 3rd! Heater - damn near banded! John - damn near sleeved! I just can't seem to shut up all of a sudden

Heather, since you've talked to Nicole - did she mention if she could come on the 14th? How's life without essay's due every flippin day? APRIL.... MISS YOU! What is up ?

Hey Hey Hey - Maria - if you come on the 14th I'll give you my surgery day dress - It's an Old Navy, cotton moomoo - it's got no waist line or anything - it's just perfect - we can start passing it around LOL - Don't even bother with chonies! I only wore a bra because I thought I could keep it on during surgery. and I wore flip flops. You don't need to pack anything but a pillow for the ride home - I didn't use mine because I wasn't in any pain but they say it helps to hold it over your tummy for bumps in the road & things. I was thirsty on the way home so maybe a bottle of water. The only things you'll want is water, SUGAR FREE jello & SUGAR FREE popsicles the first few days - unless you hit the blunt and start nibbling on chicken wings LMAO!! If I recall Liz & Nicollie, I only had 1 class after my case manager appt. Didn't get much out of it cuz Jewel was distracting me! I got into trouble because of her! Robin & Liz threatened to separate us (Ur a bad influence Jes). Congrats Beatriz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There's no turning back now. Glad to hear you're feeling well - SEE HEATHER! The Doc is worth the wait and hard work. So Bea - will you join us on the 14th? Ah, for the 14th - I say, if it's ok with Jane - we crash the Santa Rosa party (for those of you who want to) and then we all meet up in Petaluma or Vallejo after. Originally we thought Vallejo cuz it was real convenient for me (jk) no but because it was middle ground for Sac peeps & Santa Rosa peeps & Pittsburg peeps. But if you all want to do the extra miles we can do petaluma. Lets all vote - I'm game for whatever! Monique - how are you and your port doing hahaha - gotta love that thing - It will keep you company when you're all alone - I have had many conversations with mine. Like... can you tell you buddy the band to tighten up in there, and it's cold outside aren't you glad you're tucked away all nice & warm - seriously, it's the parasitic twin you never wanted. I'm thinking of hypnosis people - that is how desparate I've gotten these last two days - I didn't eat too much when my migraine was kickin but I started eating last night and now I can't stop! It's the night time attacks that are killing me - I even cried a little over it last night until my port said "man up!- you ate a piece of chocolate now get over it and move on". Truly - anybody hear of that Tom Nicoli guy that was on Dateline NBC? Hypnotist guy?? Pat - whew - you do got me beat! But you know what they say: "The 3rd husband is the charm" so congrats hahaha. Maybe I shoulda married my 3rd Fiance' - hmmmm?? Riley Jane - I forgot to put my two cents in.... Dump the boy toy if he's getting on your nerves - the purpose of a boy toy is to have a good time and that isn't sounding like a good time. Pammie - you mentioned that you had a Friday free.... When was that again.... Sorry - my headaches -actually, it's the meds, make me a little goofy and my sometimers kicks in! WE REALLY NEED TO SEE YOU CHIC-A-ROO

It's so friggin nice to be pain free! Yes, Riley, Jane & Pat - I want to wait for you guys - maybe Jes and I should roll to SR to your group to check it out... Jes??

Liz, Nicollie - ya'll read that binder yet hahahaha

Oh, Analynn - I'll txt you when I get back to the V and see about hooking up tonight.

Riley - I've been to the headache clinics in vallejo - it's a joke - they told me to get OFF birthcontrol and get therapy because I'm depressed - First of all - there is no friggin way I'm getting OFF my depo shot - before the shot I was down with a migraine the ENTIRE week preceding my cycle - AND I DON'T WANT KIDS! Jes, I feel ya on the fill. I've only got 2.5-3.0cc in my band and I'm out here dangling on my own - Thanksgiving is going to suck! With my headaches I've been eating alot of almonds - trying to coat my tummy cuz all the pills hurt me :thumbup: boo hoo. Thanks for the sympathy, John. Sometimes I just want to be spoiled. This one was painful but I wasn't as nausiated as I have been in the past so that's a good thing! I'm telling you - excederine gel caps are life saving! You guys can go to my profile and see 2flyguys - she's on my friends list and she's done amazing - lost like 140lbs in less than a year - she's another Riley Jane! She's had a tummy tuck too - but she's a die hard 3 meals per day, no snacking and lotsa exercise type a gal. She's got so many pictures up and just brave to put herself out there for everybody to follow. She's the first person I saw on this site that had me thinking... Hmmm, I can do this. Then I found this forum and knew this was the right thing for me to do. Just thought it'd be cool to have somebody new - a complete success thus far, come and share with us. She said she'd do it after the holidays.