I'm starting my journey to a smaller, healthier me. I have my orientation at Kaiser Richmond tomorrow morning. I know what to expect there, I've been to the orientation with Dr. Machado of Mercy San Juan and the one for UC Davis. Now I have Kaiser and from what I can tell, it's going to be a really good fit. Just reading all the posts from the other ladies who went through Kaiser Richmond makes me feel a lot better. When I did the UC Davis orientation, the surgeons were very much against the lap band. I felt like I had to defend myself and convince the surgeon and he basically told me. "I will not do a lap band, but you can have gastric bypass". As frusterating as that was to hear, I'm ready to re-dedicate myself to the cause! I'm not telling anyone, just my boyfriend and my mom & dad. It's not that I'm ashamed, but I kinda am. I'm ashamed that I've let my weight get so out of control. I'm ashamed that I can't do this on my own. But I'm ready to work hard and I feel like it's the best time to do it. People at work are all trying to be healthier, my family is trying to be healther and so are my friends. It's like all the pieces have to fall into place. The journey begins tommorrow.