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Stick around Tamara, we'd hate to lose you. You'll get there some day.

I'm a total advocate of the 1200 cal. I lost 60 lbs, but I can't get myself back on track! I don't know what my problem is! I think I need to remind myself that its ok to be hungry. I need to be strict wtih myself. I have the best intentions when I start the day but by bedtime it's all gone downhill. I think I need to find another support group, once per month isn't cutting it. I guess I should stop saying I'm going to the EG group and actually go. I think I should look into taking a class too, for emotional eating or the stress management or whatever. I need to get back on this band wagon! I was doing so well for so long, but I've been struggling way too long. Oh yeah, i'll be there Saturday.

For everyone on the 1200 cal pre-op diet, stick with it! I have been somewhat off-diet for a while now. I can't remember when or why I started slacking (I think I blamed school) now I'm having a tough time getting back to it. Ugh! The other problem now, is exercse related. I'm trying to go to the gym as soon as I get home from work but I find that I'm super hungry when I get home so I make dinner first, then I get distracted or fall asleep on the couch or something. I think I might have to have a small snack before I leave work so I can make it through my workout and not be tempted to eat everything in sight when I get home. It's such a learning process. After all I've done these last few months I can still get off track. This is something I have to work at constantly. Jeez, I need that dang band!

Howdy everyone, Whew. Busy weekend. Saturday was a mess of cleaning the house for a party, then dinner with my parents then the actual party. Sunday was a family party followed by my best friend's daughter's 2nd b-day party. I've been partying for 9 hours today! I'm exhausted and full of terrible food. Gotta get back on the plan. It's like I gave myself an inch and I took a mile! Nicole- The child support/custody stuff is something you can go to mediation for, I don't know if you can do one without the other. Are you filing for divorce or separation? There are classes available in the courthouse before you file stuff.

That's a great one! I totally want to do the zip line!

I've totally lost boobs, And this isn't just band size. I really should go bra shopping soon. lol. Yes, hang in there Nicole! We're all in your corner. Why do you have to give up Kaiser? I know he's got to keep Auds covered with insurance. Maybe we can swing something to hang out soon. Do you have a set work sched yet?

Oh we are! :scared2:

Yes, I also have Doc Fisher. I'm still about 25-30 lbs from surgery but that's ok! I've lost a lot of weight already and I'm confident that it's all going to work out. Doc Fisher did give me a pre-op weight loss goal of 85 lbs... over half way there! I didn't feel pressured for RNY at all by Doc Fisher. He asked why I was there, I told him. Tina, that is crazy. The board can't possibly think they're getting re-elected, do they? Riley- You mentioned skiing somewhere recently, I'm going to plan a family ski trip this year. Haven't been in a decade or so but I have the ski pants (that fit, thanks Junonia.com!) and I'm totally excited. I started looking up Ski-prep workouts so I can be prepared!

Most awesome NSV to date. I bought some shorts the other day while at Torrid (after the depressing attempts at finding a Halloween costume elsewhere). The shorts were on sale so I bought a pair (size 20) figuring I'll be back on track and they'll fit in December when we go to Hawaii. Well, I thought I'd try them on to see how far I've got to go, and they fit now. The last pair of shorts I purchased were a 26 back in February. Now I can actually wear a 20. I think I have to go back to Torrid and get a few more pairs for December!

It's the stress, don't fret too much! Channel that stress into your workouts. You can do it!

I'm all for getting together this weekend. Nicole, if you want to meet me somewhere in Sac, we can take my car. I need a fix too, so I can get totally back on track. No pics of the house yet, don't want to jinx it! We went shopping for a halloween costume today. What a nightmare. I decided to go to Evangaline's in Old Sac because they have a billion costumes and I bought one 10 years ago and it fit me. Well tonight we're getting run over by 16 year olds dressing up as slutty soldiers or pirates or whatever, and this one girl is super loud "Ugh, 1x, 2x! What's that for, I need a xs" what a jerk. I wish stores like this would just put all their plus size clothes in one place, because its depressing looking through all the other stuff. I tried on 2 outfits. One just said "Plus size- fits 16-24W" BS. I'm not a 24 anymore, and that wasn't even close to fitting. I tried on the other thing, a 2x and it wasn't close eigher. Lame. So we went to Torrid. At least that stuff fits. I got a Heidi costume. It's cute, but kinda short. I'm just not all that used to short stuff. At least I'm trying this year, last year I was a witch because I could reuse my old choir dress that is floor length with long sleeves. The previous year I didn't even dress up. So this is my first new costume in years.

We will meet up at the Kaiser Sacramento meeting, or we'll pick a day and get together for lunch. I know there was talk about the 17th... But I don't remember what the plan is! Sorry, I'm no help. Yes Pam, you're the only one stuck working today. Today is a holiday for me and my 9/80 is this week! So I will work for 2 days, 1 day off and go back for Friday. Love it! We looked at one more house today and didn't like it. We're making an offer on the one we liked tomorrow. Yay! I'm making pot roast in my crock pot. The whole house has smelled wonderful for hours. Perfect meal for an overcast day like today. I need to think of a great meal for tomorrow when it's storming like crazy. I love fall! I went to the gym again, did 40 min on the eliptical and could have done a few more but we had to meet the realtor. And, (sorry I'm rambling) I got a B+ in my class! Woohooo! Even if I'm leaving school I want the class to count for something. So excited.

You're too funny. I walk a 5k and I'm pooped! It's too much impact for me. I only did 15 min on the eliptical today, then I did a little turbo jam. I totally hear you on the skiing! I want to go so bad this year! Not that I'd go all day, or even go on that many runs, but it would be fun to go for a little bit!

My fear of sitting in a booth at a restaurant! It's so nice to have room! And Riley, I can't imagine you ever taking people's crap!

Hello ladies. I finally went to the gym today. I have to work back up to my hour long elliptical sessions. Boo. I didn't last all that long and my asthma was bothering me, which it hasn't done in a long time, perhaps since it's windy and a little chilly. But I went, and that is a win today. I told my mom about my decision to leave school again. She's totally supportive, which is great. We talked about how I was really going back to school so I would make more money after a promotion. Well, last year I was really close to getting promoted but then the budget tanked and we had massive layoffs. Now I know that promotion is going to be a few years off. I think realizing that I have plenty of time to get my degree helps. Like I said earlier, I don't care if it takes 10 years to get my degree, it can't take 10 years to lose the weight. Right now I'm in my "Me year", and that doesn't include school. I feel much more relaxed after making the decision, so we're off to a good start. Riley, that Sonoma support group sounds awesome. You're a lucky lady! And good for you with your cocky attitude, you rock! You know we're going to want to see that article when it comes out!

Hello ladies! We looked at houses yesterday and saw a great one and the other one. The great one was built in 2006 and is so nice and pretty inside. We're going to put an offer in. The other one... oh my. It's the first occupied home we've seen, so I was expecting that since we made an appt it would be empty when we went there. It was far from empty. There were probably 12 people living in that house! And they were all there. We had to take our shoes off first and the beds weren't even made or anything. It was so akward. When my parents sold their house we kept everything in showing condition so we could leave the house when people wanted to show it. We'd leave at a moment's notice. This was just wierd. There were people in every room! After all that we went to Costco and then home to start cooking for our friends housewarming party. She was afraid there wouldn't be enough food, so I made a ton of stuff. Apparently so did everyone else! I had lots of off diet food. I'm getting back on track today, even planning on going to the gym. It's been too long. I feel good about getting back on track. It'll be nice to have the scale moving in the right direction again.

I'm not going to make it to the walk tomorrow. I feel so bad, and I really wanted to go but it's just not going to work. I have been so busy lately, I'm looking forward to sleeping in a little tomorrow before we go look at houses then prepare for a friend's housewarming party. I'm putting the last minute touches on my paper and emailing it to my teacher tonight. I had a really good talk with one of my oldest friends tonight. I was telling her about my feelings with school vs staying on track with the food & exercise. She totally understood that I just don't feel like going to school right now. I enjoy my classes but I'm not motivated to actually do the work required. I'm going to school because I feel like I'm supposed to. So, I think I will take another break from school and go back once I'm really ready. I was ready to start school in Jan when I first went back but so much has changed in the last 6 months. Now losing weight is my priority. I don't care if it takes me 10 years to get that darn degree. I don't want it to take 10 years to lose this weight.

Tina, I know CPS got some money restored, will that get you your old position back? Riley, Congrats girl! Tamra, that sucks. Did they just tell you? And today was your last day? Lame. I think with all the extra time you'll be able to drop those 9 lbs in a flash. Just mix it up constantly and work it! It'll be good to stave off boredom too! Good luck! I'm nearing the end of my paper. I just don't know what my problem is? I'm getting super tired now, and very jealous of all you sleeping right now. I've been up till midnight every night this week (sometimes later). This is the first night home in forever. Okay it just seems that way. I went to my parents for my mom's b-day on Saturday and we stayed until after midnight (plus the 45 min drive home) and I went again on Sunday, stayed till after 10. Then, I went to their house Tuesday after school (they're 5 min from my school) and I met with my mom last night and was till past 10 too. I'm glad I have a 3 day weekend. I need it for sure!

Its great that they're doing oreintation in Vacaville now. So much closer! Plus, Liz is so militant about showing up on time. She'll kick you out of you're late! Analynn, Christine does a vlog too! Btw Chris, where's the pregnancy vlogging? People are curious! Hi Donna & April! I see you! I'm off to finish my paper now. I was able to get an extention until tomorrow. I hope it won't take too long tonight, I really want to see the office! Think smart thoughts for me ladies!

Hello Ladies! Tamra, I'm so sorry. Let us know if there's anything we can help with! Nicole, How you doing? I'll let you know if I see any jobs available in the area. Let me know if you need anything. I didn't finish my paper last night. I sat in front of the computer for over 3 hours with complete writers block. I sat and cried for a few minutes. Thats how I know I'm really stressed! I went to class tonight and I've sent an email asking for a few mroe days. i'm going to finish the paper and email it to him as soon as I'm done. I think next semester needs to be an online class for me, I hope that makes things easier with the scheduling. School is not my top priority. When I talk to people, they act like it should be but I'm not 19. School will have to fit in around my life, not the other way around. I'm feeling better tonight (no tears!) Hopefully we can pull ourselves out of our collective funk soon! (Maybe it's because we're Donna-deficient?) Nicole-canolie & Elizabeth- I did hear that they're changing things up, I'd say start working out. If you're not on the low bmi side I doubt it'll make that much of a difference. Or you can enjoy this time before orientation and have those 'last supper's.

Has anyone done the bariatrics lifestyle class at Richmond? Can we request the class? I'd like to do that for one of my weight check appts (Maybe we can carpool Maria).

I'm so off-plan right now. Tomorrow is the last night of class, then I get a 2 week break and the next semester starts. I still don't know if I want to take classes this next semester. I feel like school is bad for me right now. Does this even make sense? I make poor food choices when I'm totally stressed about school and I don't work out like I want to/need to. I know school is important, but it is stressing me out and for some reason I'm not able to make healthy choices when it comest to school stress. With work stress, I can just go to the gym and work it off but with school that isn't an option. Ugh. I'm frusterated. I feel like I'm failing. I was in school for so long before I took 2 years off. Then I felt like it was time to go back. I'm now finishing my 3rd class after going back and I feel like I can't handle it and I need a break again. This time feels different though. I took my last break because I was burned out and I was miserable in my classes. I was a music education teacher and I didn't want to teach. Now, I enjoy my classes but I feel like I don't have enough time to keep up with the rest of my life. I'm so conflicted. I really just need to focus on the task at hand, write my paper and go to bed. Things should look brighter in the morning, right?

I don't think I realized how time consuming all this weight loss stuff is. Maybe I'm trying to do too much, or maybe I'm a wimp. Perhaps both. I work full time and I do enjoy my job. I also go to school 1/2 time, I take classes one night a week for 9 week sessions. We're shopping for a house and hoping to buy soon. All of these things are great, but they're wearing me out. I try to prioritize. Work is always #1, I have to go to work because that's where the money comes from. #2, the house? or school? This is where things get iffy. I have one week left of school and only a few weeks to buy a house before the tax credit disappears. So which is most important? It really should be school since I pay so much for it. So school is #2, house is #3. That means exercise is #4. Somehow I can't justify going to the gym for an hour each night while I have a 10 page paper to write in 1 week. But I can somehow justify wasting time on facebook and lapbandtalk. What is that? I've been debating taking a session off school. The problem is my financial aid, I have to take a certain number of units. I want my degree, I just want to be done with school more. Sometimes I feel like my weight loss efforts need to be my top priority. I feel like this is my last chance to really lose the weight, like, I can get my degree any time but I must give the weight loss a real try. Does that make sense? I'm conflicted, to say the least. I guess I'm overwhelmed and I don't know what to do about it besides continue to stick it out. I'm disappointed by my lack of enthusiasm for school. I already took a few years off and have only just gone back. I've never been a bad student, I've always made good grades by just showing up and taking my tests. Now I have these large papers in every class, they require research (and I put that off way too long) and then I'm stressin like crazy. I wish I could just know what to do. And how to squeeze all those hours in each day. Anyone know how to freeze time?

Just got home from Richmond. Dr. Schnurr was cool. She did as me who the current preisdent, and the one before that and the one before that... I was getting nervous because I don't remember any elections before Clinton, and I was in 3rd grade for that! I would probably get the presidents in order pretty well, but still. Apparently Dr. Zimmerman is no longer with Kaiser, she quit. So everyone sees Dr. Schnurr now. Everything went fine she said "I can't make you have problems you don't have". And she's suggesting I take a stress class, so I'm looking into that. The bridge walk was fun, but far! I didn't realize how far the trail goes beyond the bridge. I forgot to put sunscreen on my chest, now I'm a little burned. You'd think I'd learn by now. After the bridge I stopped off in Vallejo and bought me some size 20 jeans at Avenue. Nice, considering the last pair I bought from them were a size 26. I thought they were a 24, but no- 26! Yikes. Also, I've only lost .6 lbs since my last weight check 2 weeks ago. It would probably help if I actually exercised in the past 2 weeks. That changed today though! I'm back on the band wagon!

I'll keep that in mind!