Boo Boo Kitty

Heya!! I feel so losted I was banded 5/5/08 I was 252 and now I am 175 I feel like I failed I gain four pound in the last week . People say I look great some don't even relize it's me but I don't see it I don't know why I am suck at this weight. I feel great but I feel like I look the same I don't know how much weight I should lose and how fast and I am a closet banded only some people I feel so alone and my husband is 140 if that and I want to be thin so bad that I am stressing so I am eating. sorry for venting please can you help me thanks Elise