Boo Boo Kitty

Things you would be surprised to know about me: 1. I love Disney World and cry there. 2. I have a daughter with ADD, ADHD, OCD, ODD and bipolar. 3. I have 2 tats, want Betty Paige on my back. 4. I am a former stripper. 5. I want a divorce. 6. I am writing a book currently. 7. I still think I am fat and hate myself most days. 8. I was raped and abused almost 10 years of my life and it defines me. 9. I am a business coach in my work life. 10. I am an artist in my home life.

BJean--you know that I know exactly how you feel, breast cancer it the scariest thing on earth. My prayers are with you!

Ok Maria, I will lay my experiece out on the table.... I married very young at 17, and was very small. After the birth of our 2 girls I gained a ton of weight, and it hurt our relationship. Now since I have lost the weight, our marriage has completely changed. I have self esteem and confidence now and he does his best to knock it down, and hurt me. I am ready to walk if changes aren't made. Now I know that I deserve better. Next month is our 13th anniversary and I am ready to call it all off. So I am thinking I will be another marraige that bites the dust after surgery. But everything happens for a reason, and I need a change in my life. Good luck.

Josette-- I am so sorry I did not see this sooner to congratulate you on your day first. I am so proud of you and how far you have come! You are totally rocking your band, which is GREAT girl! So when are we getting together??? lol...

yummie--do not beat yourself up, we all fall off the wagon sometimes! Just get back up and get back on it, that is what really counts! You will be hungry until you find your sweetspot with fills, you need to learn to eat better things to control it. Make sure you start the day out with protien it will help, trust me. You can do this, we all go through rough spots! Cheer up! Good luck!

OMG, to me Danielle is ugly as hell. DO you really think she gets by on her looks??? She looks to me like a victim in a concentration camp. (ANd I am not trying to be funny with that.) Dick is beyond a dick. wow, he is scary. I would not want to meet up with him on the street, that is for sure. Amber--the cry baby makes me want to kill myself. Jameka is faker than Britteny Spears in a white wedding dress. You have Zach pinned exactly, because I really don't think anyone could fake being that stupid! Jessica is pure evil...

Oh green, I know I love you! I just got a bit defensive as a preamble I guess. You of all people are the least judging and most honest people in my opinion. You always tell it like it is, and never are dirty!

AND before you all start bombing me, please understand you do not know me or my situation. I am in a relationship of abuse and pain, I did not cheat to get laid or have sex. Please do not attack me.

Lol...for the record I did just post. BUT what does it matter our reasons? Everyone is different, and we will all say different things. You can say that you will never cheat, but you never truly know until you get into the situation. I understand morals and committment, but sometimes other things are factors.

WOW! I am so sorry for all of your trouble. I have been there pre banded actually many times with the same man. (yes, I took him back and hate me for it) 80% is the divorce rate for us??? The cards are starting to stack against me. But it would be a needed reprieve. Just make sure you are doing what is best for you, that is all that matters is you and your kids. Screw him right now, it should be all about you! One of the girls my h cheated with claimed to be pregnant, she wasn't. They do cry wolf.

Awwww....sweetie I am so incredibly sorry! I really hope things look up for you. We all have those days, I have been there. Just hold on tight it will get better! BIG BIG HUGS!

Hola Claud--yo es muy bien, gracias! (lol...did I say that right?) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU VA!!!!!!!!!! YEAH~~ I have been alone all week, and loving it! lol, no man under my feet. Makes me think.... I am going out tonight with my girls! I can not wait! Yeah, it has been YEARS since I have been to the bar with friends. Yeah!

I am so glad that I am not the only one who doesn't know who they are! I still try to shop in the plus section, what am I thinking?? I still see 300 plus when I look in the mirror, and I hate it. I am constantly tearing myself down and I am so scared I will never look better if I realize I am a skinnier girl. I feel like I am never going to be happy with me. I do have good days, but almost everyday I pick up my clothes and say "that won't fit" but guess what the size 12s do. I don't know why I always think fat....blah!

LOL I do that too!

Wow Fred, I am glad you have such a great relationship! I have to say your words are stinging in my ears. I agree with you and hope someday I can find the courage to make my life better, I am not strong enough yet.

Mandy I am glad you are doing so good! It is awsome that you can actually use what you have learned and you are doing so well. Congratulations and here is to continued success!

Char something to remember is every Dr is different as well as every person. My Dr prefers more aggresive fills, and will do .50 ccs with every fill, but my body can not take that. So I have had 8 fills within the last year, but it was because my body needed me to build on the fills. I could have just done the .50 ccs and been miserable. Some Drs do only fill .10ccs at a time, depends on the Dr. Ask them what they do normally and you will know more. It can take awhile to find your sweet spot, and I think anyone that has been banded for awhile it takes some time. Good luck!

Hi vdebv, Welcome to the board. I was banded last year at Hurley. Good luck with your surgery!

Ugh, my back has been killing me lately. I went to Dr today for help and she told me that I am now top heavey and bound to have problems. It is killing me, I can't sleep tonight. I want to crawl in a ball and stay there. I can not take the pain..... Anyone else have this problem? Chriropractor is no good. Not working for me. I don't want to go on meds. I have never really had this before. It is right below my bra to my mid-low back, hence it is the ta tas...yeah I said it...lol... short of cutting them off what can I do????

lol....I had the biggest butt ever, now it is a cute one! I have gotten a compliment or two on it lately! lol... BUT I did get hit on more with the BIG BUTT....go figure!

Steph--I would rather they were told there was no santa rather than about sex! lol... BUT I think I did a good job, I did not go into details, I said it is something grown ups do. I asked if they had questions, Faith asked why people are naked when they have sex. I told her it was just part it. It is just frustating to have that talk at 6 and 8.... I have almost a monthly conversation with them how no one should touch or try to look at their private parts. They are very schooled on that as I was raped very young. I want them to know it is ok to do whatever they need to in that situation. Makes me feel good that Brooke is a blue belt in Tae Kwon Do! She can kick butt!! Sweet--YEAH! Good for you!!! WOO HOOO!!!!

lol...Steph. Brooke also had ADD, ADHD, OCD, and ODD. We also have her in Tae Kwon Do. She is fun in the start of the school year...blah... We sent her to camp this year, but she came homw with knowledge of SEX, so I don't think we will send her again.... lol..

Thanks guys, I am feeling a bit better. She is starting to come out of her funk. I just hate feeling helpless with her, it is the scary thing ever when you can not help them. Kuebel--mine always loosens up a bit. For me it is almost a week and then I am able to eat regular again. Good luck with that! Just take foods slow again.

I have somedays where I have to fight, but not many. I think you have to think of this as a life change really and truly. You can't really do it otherwise. Around time Aunt Flow vists can be hard to avoid chocoalte, but I gotta do it!